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I hate this world that we live in. I hate the people who live in it. I hate our society, our legal system, our traditions. I hate everything.
I hate the violence and the hate and everything that i can't stop. I am so helpless. I can do nothing. I can try and try to teach others and try to help people but nothing will stop the hate or the violence, it will always be there.
All of these horrible things happen every day, and nothing I can do will stop it. All this fear and anger caused by little things such as gender identity will never go away.
We live in such a fucked up place, and nobody seems to think about it. Nobody cares. It's awful. We live in a world where you have to fit into everything correctly, or you're hated. Why? Why is there so much anger?
I can't deal with it. I can't deal with it. Why are transgendered people murdered every day? It makes no sense to me! It kills me, it honestly does. The fact that this happens physically causes me pain.
And i'm selfish, I'm so fucking selfish. I'm not perfect, and never will be. I hate the way I look, and I will never be good enough for myself. I think about all these things whjile there are people being brutally murdered and beaten daily. I can only think of myself and the problems I have and I never stop to think about how awful things might be for someone else.
And this makes me hate myself more.
Everything is about hate.
I have so many questions. So many questions that can't be answered.
Why is there such a fear about gendere expression and identity in this world? Why are animals tortured every day? Why can I do nothing to stop this?
Why must people hate themselves and their bodies? WHy must I wish I was someone else every day?
I wanna feel happy about this world, but I can't because it's so fucked up. I wanna feel happy about myself but I can't because I'm so fucked up.
I want to feel nothing. I want nothing. I want to be numb.
I hate the violence and the hate and everything that i can't stop. I am so helpless. I can do nothing. I can try and try to teach others and try to help people but nothing will stop the hate or the violence, it will always be there.
All of these horrible things happen every day, and nothing I can do will stop it. All this fear and anger caused by little things such as gender identity will never go away.
We live in such a fucked up place, and nobody seems to think about it. Nobody cares. It's awful. We live in a world where you have to fit into everything correctly, or you're hated. Why? Why is there so much anger?
I can't deal with it. I can't deal with it. Why are transgendered people murdered every day? It makes no sense to me! It kills me, it honestly does. The fact that this happens physically causes me pain.
And i'm selfish, I'm so fucking selfish. I'm not perfect, and never will be. I hate the way I look, and I will never be good enough for myself. I think about all these things whjile there are people being brutally murdered and beaten daily. I can only think of myself and the problems I have and I never stop to think about how awful things might be for someone else.
And this makes me hate myself more.
Everything is about hate.
I have so many questions. So many questions that can't be answered.
Why is there such a fear about gendere expression and identity in this world? Why are animals tortured every day? Why can I do nothing to stop this?
Why must people hate themselves and their bodies? WHy must I wish I was someone else every day?
I wanna feel happy about this world, but I can't because it's so fucked up. I wanna feel happy about myself but I can't because I'm so fucked up.
I want to feel nothing. I want nothing. I want to be numb.