Where's my life going
OK, this post i think is going to be rather long, cause i have some thoughts on my mind.
Things have been going pretty good here, I've been really busy with work and getting things ready for my sisters wedding. I did a couple demonstrations outside of work which was pretty cool. One on the basics of camping and one on intro to kayaking. I got to play w/ the stores products, and took one of they kayaks and went around the whole lake. I'm buying one now!
Ok, onto my thoughts now. I think i've been having too much time to dwell on things, but lately i've been begining to freak out about life, money, and the future. Since my sisters getting married soon, and her going though all her planning, i've been thinking to myself that wow i'm 23 and that's right around the corner. But as of right now I'm still in school. It seems as if all the people i know that are my age are getting married as well and have already graduated from college. I'm trying to see where I fit in all this. I know god has a plan, but why can't I find that one girl. Did I make the right decsion to go to CMU, or should I have gone Into the Air Force like i was planning after community college. Going into education and getting my assocites is all putting me behind for a good 2-3 years. Which means I won't be graduating till i'm 26. Getting out at 26 ok, that's fine, but what if i do meet the girl of my dreams? I can't get married, I'll be paying off my college aid. As of right now the only drive for returning and finishing school are my lambda chi brothers.
During my time at CMU i met some wonderful girls, and I think all of them were "perspectives" as much as i hate that word. but sometimes, i know i get too shy, or another guys comes up and i back down, cause i'm the "nice guy". As of right now I'm not really looking for a lifetime partner. That will fall into place. But as of right now I feel as if i'm going to be single for the rest of my life.
I dunno, life is kinda confusing for me right now. All the puzzle pieces are scattered and I'm trying to put the puzzle together, right now i feel as if i'm trying to put the wrong piece in place.
Also I know when I get back up to school for next summer I'm going to be really tight w/ $ cause my hrs here have been cut big time, and I'm not getting enough Aid for school. So i'm freaking about that too,
That's enough for now. I'm sorry that you read this, It's just getting shit off my chest that have been bugging me!
Later,
Brad
Things have been going pretty good here, I've been really busy with work and getting things ready for my sisters wedding. I did a couple demonstrations outside of work which was pretty cool. One on the basics of camping and one on intro to kayaking. I got to play w/ the stores products, and took one of they kayaks and went around the whole lake. I'm buying one now!
Ok, onto my thoughts now. I think i've been having too much time to dwell on things, but lately i've been begining to freak out about life, money, and the future. Since my sisters getting married soon, and her going though all her planning, i've been thinking to myself that wow i'm 23 and that's right around the corner. But as of right now I'm still in school. It seems as if all the people i know that are my age are getting married as well and have already graduated from college. I'm trying to see where I fit in all this. I know god has a plan, but why can't I find that one girl. Did I make the right decsion to go to CMU, or should I have gone Into the Air Force like i was planning after community college. Going into education and getting my assocites is all putting me behind for a good 2-3 years. Which means I won't be graduating till i'm 26. Getting out at 26 ok, that's fine, but what if i do meet the girl of my dreams? I can't get married, I'll be paying off my college aid. As of right now the only drive for returning and finishing school are my lambda chi brothers.
During my time at CMU i met some wonderful girls, and I think all of them were "perspectives" as much as i hate that word. but sometimes, i know i get too shy, or another guys comes up and i back down, cause i'm the "nice guy". As of right now I'm not really looking for a lifetime partner. That will fall into place. But as of right now I feel as if i'm going to be single for the rest of my life.
I dunno, life is kinda confusing for me right now. All the puzzle pieces are scattered and I'm trying to put the puzzle together, right now i feel as if i'm trying to put the wrong piece in place.
Also I know when I get back up to school for next summer I'm going to be really tight w/ $ cause my hrs here have been cut big time, and I'm not getting enough Aid for school. So i'm freaking about that too,
That's enough for now. I'm sorry that you read this, It's just getting shit off my chest that have been bugging me!
Later,
Brad