deep.
Campfire Cradle
I cried that night
my eyes blurred as I focused as the diamond raindrops fell down the window.
Trying not to look at you.
I really don't think I was "In love"
I just wanted to feel that buzz...
To the brain.
Then the next-
I inhaled and softly blew out you.
When that fire was the only thing that held my focus
I drowned myself in the flames.
When I looked at the clear constellations in that field- and lying there...wishing I had someone one there by my side...
to share the night sky.
Other than you.
And I saw in his eyes- as the fire flickered
The tears forming as he talked about his lost love.
And I didn't think that much about you.
But wanted to crack his hard heart- and warm it like the fire.
And, yet, I'm still engulfed in you.
Then, the other opened up to me.
And only wanted the best for us-but I wished he would have justified my decision...
that "you and me".
I wish for that protection from one.
That will make me feel small.
And I am thinking now...that you're not that person at all.
So I inhaled-held it in-blew you out- and pushed you away.