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Just the basics!
1. first name: Matt
2. age: 22
3. location: Lodi NJ
4. occupation: Nike Brand Coordinator, Shift Supervisor, and a Student on Hiatus.
5. partner: None romantically.
6. kids: One day, many.
7. siblings: My brother Sammy whose 28. He's got all the makings of a great man, but he chooses to be a dick because it's easier. Jessica whose 27. She is someone who used to be My same...now shes not and I couldnt be happier for her. Michael whose probably 29 by now...I wonder how he is, he'll always be my brother. And Danielle whose 11. That girl means the world to me, and all I want to do in my life is to make some kind of difference in this world to make it easier on her than it was on me...
8. pets: I FUCKING WISH!!!! When I move out again, its gonna be DOG CITY!!! maybe not Dog city....but im gettting a doggggg.
9. list 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
* I just got promoted at work which means more money which means more room to breathe which means less things to pretend arent happening, and more time to relax. All of this makes for a happier Matthew.
* I'm starting to think ahead to November when my lease is up. Im DEFINATELY moving and not renewing... While I LOVE LOVE LOVE where I live and have absolutely no regrets about choosing it, I cant wait to start over again, pay less, get a roomate, and live a little easier and be able to save more money. I also may have found a potential roomate already and if hes still interested near the end of August were gonna start looking for places. PUMPED.
* My brother broke up with his girlfriend of 5 years and has further distanced himself from his family, and has told more lies in the past few weeks than he has in the past few months. We all love and adore Laura so I dont give a shit what he thinks of it, Im keeping her in my life. hes such a douchebag, I swear to god.
10. where and for what did you go to school for?:
I went to Rutgers for a year Studying as an English Major. Then I finished my degree at Bergen, but switched majors to liberal arts. I then studied at Montclair for a semester as a Graphic Design Major, and another as an Industrial Design Major. I spent the next Semester as an ID major and Im on Hiatus until I decide what I want, and stop throwing my money into the wind.
11. parents:
My Father met my Mother when they were about 19 years old, and dated for several years before marrying. They had myself, and my brother, and split up after almost 25 years of marriage. It was messy and until a few years ago they hated eachother and spent the better part of my life playing tug of war, and throwing mud at eachothers reputations in a feable attempt to be elected favorite parent. My Mother, Fran, Remarried twice, and has been with her currrent husband for about 12 years. My Father, Salvatore, remarried in 1997, and has been happily married since. My father is a strong, honest, deep, and spiritual man who I look up to and love deeply...but I also see the weak, troubled, tormented, and frightening man he can be, and nothing in this world makes me feel worse than when I can sense that in him. My Stepmother Camille is a sarcastic, dry, patient, logical woman, who I once loathed, and now have grown to love and respect as a second mother. My Stepdad Tommy, is someone who Ive gone from Loving, to HATING, and now finally to accepting. He is frustrating, cold, and thoughtless at times, but inside hes just afraid and unsure, trying his absolute best to stay afloat. Then theres my mother...my mommy. She is one of the most extraordinary people I know, and definately the reason I feel so connected to women. Shes funny, pretty, gifted, deep, sensitive, kind, powerful, and honest...but shes just a little girl really, a little girl who still believes shes ugly, hideous, unwanted, unloved, pathetic, silenced, and dead inside. It takes alot to make her realize shes not that little girl and she never was and she never seemed to be, because when she wants to be she can lash out and be wild, out of control, cruel, hellish, and unbearable...With her its constantly taking care of a child that isnt yours. Letting her know you love her all the time, making sure she doesnt misunderstand you, choosing your language carefully, and not letting your mouth betray you. I wish she knew how amazing she is.
yeah that was long that last part but i guess I just really had wanted to write or say it for a while now. yeah...
1. first name: Matt
2. age: 22
3. location: Lodi NJ
4. occupation: Nike Brand Coordinator, Shift Supervisor, and a Student on Hiatus.
5. partner: None romantically.
6. kids: One day, many.
7. siblings: My brother Sammy whose 28. He's got all the makings of a great man, but he chooses to be a dick because it's easier. Jessica whose 27. She is someone who used to be My same...now shes not and I couldnt be happier for her. Michael whose probably 29 by now...I wonder how he is, he'll always be my brother. And Danielle whose 11. That girl means the world to me, and all I want to do in my life is to make some kind of difference in this world to make it easier on her than it was on me...
8. pets: I FUCKING WISH!!!! When I move out again, its gonna be DOG CITY!!! maybe not Dog city....but im gettting a doggggg.
9. list 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
* I just got promoted at work which means more money which means more room to breathe which means less things to pretend arent happening, and more time to relax. All of this makes for a happier Matthew.
* I'm starting to think ahead to November when my lease is up. Im DEFINATELY moving and not renewing... While I LOVE LOVE LOVE where I live and have absolutely no regrets about choosing it, I cant wait to start over again, pay less, get a roomate, and live a little easier and be able to save more money. I also may have found a potential roomate already and if hes still interested near the end of August were gonna start looking for places. PUMPED.
* My brother broke up with his girlfriend of 5 years and has further distanced himself from his family, and has told more lies in the past few weeks than he has in the past few months. We all love and adore Laura so I dont give a shit what he thinks of it, Im keeping her in my life. hes such a douchebag, I swear to god.
10. where and for what did you go to school for?:
I went to Rutgers for a year Studying as an English Major. Then I finished my degree at Bergen, but switched majors to liberal arts. I then studied at Montclair for a semester as a Graphic Design Major, and another as an Industrial Design Major. I spent the next Semester as an ID major and Im on Hiatus until I decide what I want, and stop throwing my money into the wind.
11. parents:
My Father met my Mother when they were about 19 years old, and dated for several years before marrying. They had myself, and my brother, and split up after almost 25 years of marriage. It was messy and until a few years ago they hated eachother and spent the better part of my life playing tug of war, and throwing mud at eachothers reputations in a feable attempt to be elected favorite parent. My Mother, Fran, Remarried twice, and has been with her currrent husband for about 12 years. My Father, Salvatore, remarried in 1997, and has been happily married since. My father is a strong, honest, deep, and spiritual man who I look up to and love deeply...but I also see the weak, troubled, tormented, and frightening man he can be, and nothing in this world makes me feel worse than when I can sense that in him. My Stepmother Camille is a sarcastic, dry, patient, logical woman, who I once loathed, and now have grown to love and respect as a second mother. My Stepdad Tommy, is someone who Ive gone from Loving, to HATING, and now finally to accepting. He is frustrating, cold, and thoughtless at times, but inside hes just afraid and unsure, trying his absolute best to stay afloat. Then theres my mother...my mommy. She is one of the most extraordinary people I know, and definately the reason I feel so connected to women. Shes funny, pretty, gifted, deep, sensitive, kind, powerful, and honest...but shes just a little girl really, a little girl who still believes shes ugly, hideous, unwanted, unloved, pathetic, silenced, and dead inside. It takes alot to make her realize shes not that little girl and she never was and she never seemed to be, because when she wants to be she can lash out and be wild, out of control, cruel, hellish, and unbearable...With her its constantly taking care of a child that isnt yours. Letting her know you love her all the time, making sure she doesnt misunderstand you, choosing your language carefully, and not letting your mouth betray you. I wish she knew how amazing she is.
yeah that was long that last part but i guess I just really had wanted to write or say it for a while now. yeah...