Ugh... Another venting session.

[zibbyek]

I know I complain a lot on here, but really, this is about the only way that I can get everything out. I apologize...

I'm so sad I can't even stand it. I feel like now that this year is coming to an end, I am beginning to see who my real friends are and were all along. I know I shouldn't dwell on it, but my entire life I have had a real struggle with keeping friends. I am very hurt to know that some of my friends can't tell me anything, and I feel that some of my "best" ones are growing apart from me. Maybe they were never true to me to begin with. Maybe I'm just too sensitive. Maybe I am a bad friend. Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe I'm still a little sick.

I know I should focus on those people who have really shown me love and actually care about me, but it breaks my heart to know that someone I really cared about could care less how I am feeling.

I wish things weren't so complicated, but then again, how else would we learn anything from life?

I think I'm ready to go home now. Turns out that I am happier with the majority of people there.

More later maybe...