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summers done. it was cold. but it was fun. i accomplished many things.
i feel lonely. no one on msn. no new messages for me anywhere, and i haven't been online very much this summer. i remember back in the day when i couldn't go a couple days without checking messages. i'd have so many, my mailboxes would be full. right now i have three email addys and only one is used regularly, and thats for forwards. no actual email messages. no one returns my messages anyways, so whatever. except for tokita. he still loves me.
i haven't the net on my comp but i want it. i'm actually bored atm. thats amazing. i'm rarely bored. i don't know where my bf is, and i'm too lazy to call him. (he's not on msn therefore he must be GONE poof!)
but what would i do on the net once i got it back....talk to no one on msn? check my non-existant emails? guess it works both ways. oh well. it'll never be like it used to be. i've given up on my websites...they just look stupid now. i have all these half thoughts going on...some drawings that are work in progress...wanna start up my own thing with my arts and crafts called cRilewoRks (copyright 2004) haha. but i'm lazy. and i need to be doing somthing while i make these things. when i used to make jewelry and stuff all the time it was while i was in front of my computer chatting with peeps. i was multitasking. now there is no one to chat with, so my choice is to sit on my bed and make stuff and only concentrate on that, or sit in front of the tv like a zombie while my hands automaticically form things from miscellaneous crafty objects.
am i getting old?
perhaps. its never like it used to be. try to relive it all. never the same. i'm cold. i'm lonely. ah well.
i luv yah all anyways.
i feel lonely. no one on msn. no new messages for me anywhere, and i haven't been online very much this summer. i remember back in the day when i couldn't go a couple days without checking messages. i'd have so many, my mailboxes would be full. right now i have three email addys and only one is used regularly, and thats for forwards. no actual email messages. no one returns my messages anyways, so whatever. except for tokita. he still loves me.
i haven't the net on my comp but i want it. i'm actually bored atm. thats amazing. i'm rarely bored. i don't know where my bf is, and i'm too lazy to call him. (he's not on msn therefore he must be GONE poof!)
but what would i do on the net once i got it back....talk to no one on msn? check my non-existant emails? guess it works both ways. oh well. it'll never be like it used to be. i've given up on my websites...they just look stupid now. i have all these half thoughts going on...some drawings that are work in progress...wanna start up my own thing with my arts and crafts called cRilewoRks (copyright 2004) haha. but i'm lazy. and i need to be doing somthing while i make these things. when i used to make jewelry and stuff all the time it was while i was in front of my computer chatting with peeps. i was multitasking. now there is no one to chat with, so my choice is to sit on my bed and make stuff and only concentrate on that, or sit in front of the tv like a zombie while my hands automaticically form things from miscellaneous crafty objects.
am i getting old?
perhaps. its never like it used to be. try to relive it all. never the same. i'm cold. i'm lonely. ah well.
i luv yah all anyways.