i need release!
this week has been horrible...every day i've been MAD at something....something has really PISSED me off. i'm so aggravated, just shaking with anger!
and i have no way of releasing that anger!!! i've gone to the gym and ran until i felt like i was dieing, i lifted weights till i felt like jello, i ranted and raved to friends about my problems...and nothing! what do i do? i need to release this frustration before it explodes at an inopportune time.
i figure i need to take up kickboxing again. my one friend says just to yell at the person thats pissing me off...but not all my anger is from a person, its just bad luck, the Fates are fucking with me and making me angry. i can't yell at the FAtes?
I had a dream the other nite, it was a nite of lots of anger. i was pissed off, super upset and such. i had gone to the gym and ran and ran. and i think it was finally the dream that helped me release. in the dream i had all my daggers on me, and some new ones which are on my xmas wishlist ;) There were all these people out to get me, to kill me, but i killed them first. all of them...slicing and dicing with my daggers....i put Lara Croft and Xena to shame in my dream....i could feel my daggers digging into their flesh. it was the most interesting dream...i could feel things! i could feel myself getting wounded...it was awesome. when i woke up the next morning i felt good. and amused of course. Sid made an appearance in my dream lol it was a small one, but amusing enough. (no i didn't kill her)
but besides my dream, i had no way of releasing my anger.
now what the fuck should i do? i'm gonna explode.
and i have no way of releasing that anger!!! i've gone to the gym and ran until i felt like i was dieing, i lifted weights till i felt like jello, i ranted and raved to friends about my problems...and nothing! what do i do? i need to release this frustration before it explodes at an inopportune time.
i figure i need to take up kickboxing again. my one friend says just to yell at the person thats pissing me off...but not all my anger is from a person, its just bad luck, the Fates are fucking with me and making me angry. i can't yell at the FAtes?
I had a dream the other nite, it was a nite of lots of anger. i was pissed off, super upset and such. i had gone to the gym and ran and ran. and i think it was finally the dream that helped me release. in the dream i had all my daggers on me, and some new ones which are on my xmas wishlist ;) There were all these people out to get me, to kill me, but i killed them first. all of them...slicing and dicing with my daggers....i put Lara Croft and Xena to shame in my dream....i could feel my daggers digging into their flesh. it was the most interesting dream...i could feel things! i could feel myself getting wounded...it was awesome. when i woke up the next morning i felt good. and amused of course. Sid made an appearance in my dream lol it was a small one, but amusing enough. (no i didn't kill her)
but besides my dream, i had no way of releasing my anger.
now what the fuck should i do? i'm gonna explode.