*le sigh*
well, it's been a horrifically long week, both emotionally and physically. haven't slept much and almost every waking moment is spent at work. although I did discover the other day when I got my check that I've been given a raise so that's cool. and after he told me he wasn't sure how many hours he'd have for me I work five days this week and one of them I have off because I asked for it. (little bro's open house).
we went camping this weekend which is pretty fun. it's nice to get away from things, but I had to work everyday so it didn't really accomplish that like it could have. oh well. dad's van died after he dropped off the pop-up, but we've decided that after 14 years of basically no problems it was ok if it needed some work. besides, dad doesn't really take care of it... so dad took my van and I got to drive mom's brand new (we've had it about a week and a half) 2005 caravan. that wasn't such a good thing, cuz now I want one...lol. oh well, life's like that.
I really wanted to play my saxophone tomorrow, but i'm running dad down to GR before i go to work. he has an eye appointment and my brother won't take him. maybe someday i'll be able to something besides work. :P
it's rather pathetic of me actually to be complaining about work. I really need the money and will really need to find a job when i get back to saginaw so I can afford the bills. i guess the hardest thing is that all I do is go to work and yet I know i'm not going to make nearly as much as i need to for the first little while this fall. it's kinda depressing actually. oh well. mom says she won't let me go broke...I just wish i was a bit more independent.
got three phone calls this past week. it's good to hear from everyone and to hear how y'all are doing. too bad i couldn't have me the rest of ya in saginaw last week, but again...work. *sigh* oh well.
well, until next time, hasta and write if you find work...
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Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played
If I could change I would
take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
we went camping this weekend which is pretty fun. it's nice to get away from things, but I had to work everyday so it didn't really accomplish that like it could have. oh well. dad's van died after he dropped off the pop-up, but we've decided that after 14 years of basically no problems it was ok if it needed some work. besides, dad doesn't really take care of it... so dad took my van and I got to drive mom's brand new (we've had it about a week and a half) 2005 caravan. that wasn't such a good thing, cuz now I want one...lol. oh well, life's like that.
I really wanted to play my saxophone tomorrow, but i'm running dad down to GR before i go to work. he has an eye appointment and my brother won't take him. maybe someday i'll be able to something besides work. :P
it's rather pathetic of me actually to be complaining about work. I really need the money and will really need to find a job when i get back to saginaw so I can afford the bills. i guess the hardest thing is that all I do is go to work and yet I know i'm not going to make nearly as much as i need to for the first little while this fall. it's kinda depressing actually. oh well. mom says she won't let me go broke...I just wish i was a bit more independent.
got three phone calls this past week. it's good to hear from everyone and to hear how y'all are doing. too bad i couldn't have me the rest of ya in saginaw last week, but again...work. *sigh* oh well.
well, until next time, hasta and write if you find work...
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Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played
If I could change I would
take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone