Sleeeeeeep
It's 3:16 in the morning & I'm not asleep.
I wouldn't mind but I've got to get up at 8:30 & I don't see me getting to sleep before 4:00.
I can't remember the last time I got a decent *night's* sleep - Night being the operative word, 'cos even when I do sleep for more than 5 hours, it involves sleeping through an entire morning & part of an afternoon.
Last night I didn't get to sleep until after 6 in the morning. The night before that I wasn't really sleeping, just kind of, drifting in and out of semi-sleep (is that a thing? it is now). The night before that, I think I finally got to sleep at about 4:30-ish & didn't wake up until about 2 in the afternoon - that's the last time I had a decent sleep.
My body clock is so seriously screwed up, I have no idea how to fix it.
It's not that I'm not tired, I am tired, but, I'm at that point just beyond tiredness when your body just refuses to rest, do you know what I mean? If I turn my laptop & my lamp off and curl up all comfy and tried to will myself to sleep, I'd be tossing & turning & finding any little thing to keep myself occupied & awake.
The problem is, I have absolutely no idea why I'm having so much trouble sleeping recently. I wish I could say that there was something troubling me, but, I honestly don't think there is. I mean, the only thing I'm worrying about is my exams, but, exam stress doesn't usually cause me lack of sleep (except for the night before the exam).
So there must be something else bothering me.....
.....I don't know what.
Oh, I wish I could have someone to snuggle up to, I wouldn't be all restless & agitated if a cute, beautiful, sweet girly was holding me close. It'd be like when Tara snuggles Willow & makes everything quieter in her head - I need to get me my own Tara to make everything all quiet & calm.
Is that it?
Is that the great mystery of my lack of sleep?
I need someone to sleep with?
That almost seems too simple. In fact, it can't possibly be as simple as that.
Can it?
I wouldn't mind but I've got to get up at 8:30 & I don't see me getting to sleep before 4:00.
I can't remember the last time I got a decent *night's* sleep - Night being the operative word, 'cos even when I do sleep for more than 5 hours, it involves sleeping through an entire morning & part of an afternoon.
Last night I didn't get to sleep until after 6 in the morning. The night before that I wasn't really sleeping, just kind of, drifting in and out of semi-sleep (is that a thing? it is now). The night before that, I think I finally got to sleep at about 4:30-ish & didn't wake up until about 2 in the afternoon - that's the last time I had a decent sleep.
My body clock is so seriously screwed up, I have no idea how to fix it.
It's not that I'm not tired, I am tired, but, I'm at that point just beyond tiredness when your body just refuses to rest, do you know what I mean? If I turn my laptop & my lamp off and curl up all comfy and tried to will myself to sleep, I'd be tossing & turning & finding any little thing to keep myself occupied & awake.
The problem is, I have absolutely no idea why I'm having so much trouble sleeping recently. I wish I could say that there was something troubling me, but, I honestly don't think there is. I mean, the only thing I'm worrying about is my exams, but, exam stress doesn't usually cause me lack of sleep (except for the night before the exam).
So there must be something else bothering me.....
.....I don't know what.
Oh, I wish I could have someone to snuggle up to, I wouldn't be all restless & agitated if a cute, beautiful, sweet girly was holding me close. It'd be like when Tara snuggles Willow & makes everything quieter in her head - I need to get me my own Tara to make everything all quiet & calm.
Is that it?
Is that the great mystery of my lack of sleep?
I need someone to sleep with?
That almost seems too simple. In fact, it can't possibly be as simple as that.
Can it?