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We're getting close to starting a new school year. The new curriculum is on the shelf, the supplies have been bought, and I've had my yearly existential crisis. Does anyone else seem to have that as an annual recurrence this time of year?
You know, the one where I question the decision to stay home instead of work and to homeschool instead of send my kids to the perfectly adequate public school up the road. Do I continue to devote myself to all the things I do now or shake things up and pursue a career or even just a paycheck? What am I really passionate about? That's probably the biggest problem I have is that there really isn't anything I would say I'm *passionate* about and generally the people who are passionate just annoy me. I'm equally uncomfortable with people who are passionately FOR homeschooling and people who are passionately AGAINST homeschooling or people who are passionately for or against Republicans or Democrats or whatever the cause du jour is. I have my beliefs and opinions, but I don't feel the need to either publicly bash or praise.
So after a long and silent internal battle, I decided that what I didn't want was probably a better guide to my decision than what I think I might want. I KNOW I don't want to give up
- my kids' excellent, in-depth Thursday morning Bible study
- the scheduling freedom to travel when we want
- the really neat field trips my kids can experience
- the no homework evenings so the kids can do the activites they want without stress
- the family time we enjoy
- the excellent education my kids are getting that challenges them
- the extra rest that helps me deal with my arthritis and chronic allergies
- the not having to worry about long hours or childcare or trying to cram everything into the few hours the kids are home and awake
Sometimes I do fantasize about going back to the corporate world. I might get more adult interaction if I had a job, outside affirmation that I'm good at what I do, maybe even a broader view of the world outside my own little concerns. But it's not worth it right now. Not for me and my situation at this moment in time.
Tomorrow, well, might be different.
You know, the one where I question the decision to stay home instead of work and to homeschool instead of send my kids to the perfectly adequate public school up the road. Do I continue to devote myself to all the things I do now or shake things up and pursue a career or even just a paycheck? What am I really passionate about? That's probably the biggest problem I have is that there really isn't anything I would say I'm *passionate* about and generally the people who are passionate just annoy me. I'm equally uncomfortable with people who are passionately FOR homeschooling and people who are passionately AGAINST homeschooling or people who are passionately for or against Republicans or Democrats or whatever the cause du jour is. I have my beliefs and opinions, but I don't feel the need to either publicly bash or praise.
So after a long and silent internal battle, I decided that what I didn't want was probably a better guide to my decision than what I think I might want. I KNOW I don't want to give up
- my kids' excellent, in-depth Thursday morning Bible study
- the scheduling freedom to travel when we want
- the really neat field trips my kids can experience
- the no homework evenings so the kids can do the activites they want without stress
- the family time we enjoy
- the excellent education my kids are getting that challenges them
- the extra rest that helps me deal with my arthritis and chronic allergies
- the not having to worry about long hours or childcare or trying to cram everything into the few hours the kids are home and awake
Sometimes I do fantasize about going back to the corporate world. I might get more adult interaction if I had a job, outside affirmation that I'm good at what I do, maybe even a broader view of the world outside my own little concerns. But it's not worth it right now. Not for me and my situation at this moment in time.
Tomorrow, well, might be different.