(no subject)
That was quite possibly one of the most uncomfortable sleeps I have had in a very long time. And I apologize to my mun and Realtan who spent about an hour, trying to explain to me why I should cease the continuation of sleeping in some bushes. They tried to persuade me to find my bed, but at that point I was awake.
No furniture was broken. No walls were split. The doors are still in tact. A window is a minor price to pay, and was remedied, anyhow. I will not go further into any detail out of respect for privacy for the other party involved, but we'll just say the near-overturning was not in any pleasurable manner.
It ended better, though. It was...difficult to walk away afterward. I do not have any true desire to open old wounds. Especially ones that have nearly scarred, at this point. She made it back safely. That is all that matters. I hope she manages to find some peace of mind in this.
I loathe showing weakness (who doesn't?). Realtan warns me when I do, telling me the it puts my guard down and lets me be vulnerable. Have I produced so many warning flags that it actually lead her to tears? She said I was being reckless. I wish I could ease her concerns, but I cannot. I know I have been a fool. I am no trophy of perfection with all my issues. I have failed in areas where I should have succeeded. I suppose, now I must focus on fixing all of that, while I still can...
No furniture was broken. No walls were split. The doors are still in tact. A window is a minor price to pay, and was remedied, anyhow. I will not go further into any detail out of respect for privacy for the other party involved, but we'll just say the near-overturning was not in any pleasurable manner.
It ended better, though. It was...difficult to walk away afterward. I do not have any true desire to open old wounds. Especially ones that have nearly scarred, at this point. She made it back safely. That is all that matters. I hope she manages to find some peace of mind in this.
I loathe showing weakness (who doesn't?). Realtan warns me when I do, telling me the it puts my guard down and lets me be vulnerable. Have I produced so many warning flags that it actually lead her to tears? She said I was being reckless. I wish I could ease her concerns, but I cannot. I know I have been a fool. I am no trophy of perfection with all my issues. I have failed in areas where I should have succeeded. I suppose, now I must focus on fixing all of that, while I still can...