Sometimes, the world seems so fucked up.
No one has the right to kill, injure or threaten anyone. I hate this so much. It's so scary to think that I was in London on Sunday. I was actually there and I was actually living my life as a Londoner. London is just such a chill place to be; NP was there during gay mardi gras/pride parade, and during Live 8, so when I compare it to here it just seems London knows how to make the world a better place. I feel like London, and England in general, actually cares about the world and how to fix it. Americans just seems too self-absorbed and clueless when it comes to problems like this. America is like a big social climber, the "mean girl", the popular one...everyone is terrified of it, talks about it behind its back and in reality hates it, despite its power.
I hate not being proud to be an American. That's another thing that the England trip really made me realize. I'm not proud to be known as an American because of the politics and the decisions that are being made, lately. I feel like no matter how hard I fight for what I believe in, and no matter how much I stand up for my views, I will always be though of, to the rest of the world, as a "stupid American" who is behind every move the government takes. We are so divided that its impossible to function together to make a difference. Sure, I'm thankful to be an American because I can express my opinions like this about the US due to freedom of speech...and I'm so thankful for the oppertunities that living here has given me. But at the same time, I don't feel like that matters. I don't think that the government or the people who are in control care about that. Or anyone outside of themselves. And I hate feeling so helpless.
Democracy only goes so far.
I hate not being proud to be an American. That's another thing that the England trip really made me realize. I'm not proud to be known as an American because of the politics and the decisions that are being made, lately. I feel like no matter how hard I fight for what I believe in, and no matter how much I stand up for my views, I will always be though of, to the rest of the world, as a "stupid American" who is behind every move the government takes. We are so divided that its impossible to function together to make a difference. Sure, I'm thankful to be an American because I can express my opinions like this about the US due to freedom of speech...and I'm so thankful for the oppertunities that living here has given me. But at the same time, I don't feel like that matters. I don't think that the government or the people who are in control care about that. Or anyone outside of themselves. And I hate feeling so helpless.
Democracy only goes so far.