Drunk
I'm younge, hopeless and in need of re-direction. Because drinking my sorrows away just isn't doing it for me, I find myself worse off drunk, I get in deeper drunk. For example; tonight, meaning last night, at about, well actually I don't remember, apparently I got into a fight with Jamie over the phone. I don't re-call any of it. Not one thing.
Just to make things clear, I have a KIDNEY DISORDER, which doesn't help this unique and stupid situation. I'm now sober ish, but the fact that I was drinking in the first place probably isn't so good.
I'm sitting here drinking large amounts of water because I'm so dehidrated and I feel so sick. My lips are still a little red from the excessive amounts of red wine I had and my head is still a little woozy, from the rum and wine.
I guess there is a down side to everything. Everything that may seem a good or fun idea has to go down somewhere, meaning, being drunk leaves you with a hangover, falling in love leaves you with heart brake, having a life leaves you with nothing, ish, sometimes.
No one deserves the way I can treat them, especially when I'm like this. Jamie didn't deserve me getting shitty at him, because all he ever did was love me, Liam didn't deserve all my speeches ( that I don't actually remember), Dylan didn't deserve to experience the first hits of alcohol on me and mum didn't deserve to realise I'd been drinking her alcohol secretly. No one did.
I love everyone I know, I love that they're there for me and they help me through everything, if its not to much to ask, please help me now, coz I can't do it alone.
Just to make things clear, I have a KIDNEY DISORDER, which doesn't help this unique and stupid situation. I'm now sober ish, but the fact that I was drinking in the first place probably isn't so good.
I'm sitting here drinking large amounts of water because I'm so dehidrated and I feel so sick. My lips are still a little red from the excessive amounts of red wine I had and my head is still a little woozy, from the rum and wine.
I guess there is a down side to everything. Everything that may seem a good or fun idea has to go down somewhere, meaning, being drunk leaves you with a hangover, falling in love leaves you with heart brake, having a life leaves you with nothing, ish, sometimes.
No one deserves the way I can treat them, especially when I'm like this. Jamie didn't deserve me getting shitty at him, because all he ever did was love me, Liam didn't deserve all my speeches ( that I don't actually remember), Dylan didn't deserve to experience the first hits of alcohol on me and mum didn't deserve to realise I'd been drinking her alcohol secretly. No one did.
I love everyone I know, I love that they're there for me and they help me through everything, if its not to much to ask, please help me now, coz I can't do it alone.