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i am feeling really agitated with everything. today started out okay, me n lisa went to the orientation at the hospital and met up with danny n caryn. we gave ppl tours and all the things that we've done the past 2 years were then rememberd. wheel chair races, "frog" boy, pete, me n caryn getting yelled at by michele on the last day of work, tabasco sauce with cheese quesadias, running around in all the elevators. it was a fun time. i get home and i had hoped to hear from pet co, but they didnt call so i called them. alana said that they were looking over my paper work then and that she wuld call me and she asked if i'd be home today and i said yes. so its now 6:40 and they still havent called. maybe they got busy or sumthing but i found it kinda rude that they said they'd call me back and they didnt. i'm sure she'll call tomarrow but i just found it agitating. so i call bob cuz he left me a few messages saying he wanted to talk. so we talk n all but then i started ranting about shit and i just started getting madder and madder as i kept talking. instead of feeling better about talking it all out i felt worse. its sumthing that i cant really come out with though. kinda sux when you wanna tell sum1 sumthing really badly but you know you cant cuz you know what they're reaction is going to be and you know you really wont be able to get throught to them. especially when its someone that you love. its hard when you love someone and you dont want to see them get hurt or for them to hurt sum1 else. you just wanna get through to sum1 and help them see they're image. but they dont want to see it, so they refuse to. they know whats bothering you but you cant tell them cuz you know what how they'll react. thats life i guess