Alas, my love, you do me wrong
to cast me off discourteously
for i have loved you well and long
delighting in your company
I'm a fool, and I know it. I'm waiting for a boy that may never come. I don't want to wait anymore, but I am. I dont want to be hurt anymore, but I am. How can I make myself say "Be mine or get lost"? The answer is that I can't. I can't ruin the chance I may have. I can't give up until its over. Until the fat lady sings.
I want that safe feeling back. Where I'm not always uneasy, not always afraid.
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I'm almost done my christmas shopping. Almost.
Saturday is my office Christmas party. A nice dinner. I get to dress up and have a good time. I wish I wasnt the only one without a date.
Next Thursday is my family Christmas party. That, I'm excited about. I wish it wasnt at Lisa's house, but I can't really change that. I tried, but I can't. Haley will be there. That should be interesting. I want to get something for her, but I'm not really sure what yet. I have ideas for a few small things...
I upset a boy that has been very nice to me lately. I feel horrible for that. Because like usual, I couldnt keep my mouth shut about my feelings. I did it because I don't want him to be hurt by her. Instead I hurt him myself. What an idiot I am!
New people at my work. I think it will be awkward. The two jobs combined.
Over and out.
for i have loved you well and long
delighting in your company
I'm a fool, and I know it. I'm waiting for a boy that may never come. I don't want to wait anymore, but I am. I dont want to be hurt anymore, but I am. How can I make myself say "Be mine or get lost"? The answer is that I can't. I can't ruin the chance I may have. I can't give up until its over. Until the fat lady sings.
I want that safe feeling back. Where I'm not always uneasy, not always afraid.
---
I'm almost done my christmas shopping. Almost.
Saturday is my office Christmas party. A nice dinner. I get to dress up and have a good time. I wish I wasnt the only one without a date.
Next Thursday is my family Christmas party. That, I'm excited about. I wish it wasnt at Lisa's house, but I can't really change that. I tried, but I can't. Haley will be there. That should be interesting. I want to get something for her, but I'm not really sure what yet. I have ideas for a few small things...
I upset a boy that has been very nice to me lately. I feel horrible for that. Because like usual, I couldnt keep my mouth shut about my feelings. I did it because I don't want him to be hurt by her. Instead I hurt him myself. What an idiot I am!
New people at my work. I think it will be awkward. The two jobs combined.
Over and out.