random thoughts.
my life, my ciggerete. revisited.
today was a hot day that was followed by a cold and suspensful night after sweet summer rain drops filled the leaves like cups of divine nectar.
lots of thoughts and misbeliefs were made and broken tonight....ive been thinking a lot about the religions centered arround peyote and the visions that I saw while on it.
It really is more of a medecine, as they say "Peyote is medecine first, cactus second" or something like that. Everything shimmered, and I saw such great wonder and love in the world; music brought everything together as one. I need to try to synthesize mescaline from it eventually. Ah, the san pedro cactus...such an intresting plant. It makes one take great care to reminiss upon their own faiths though. Is this really pretty real...the faiths that we have?
and with that note, my ashes are put out on my finger...and Im home again. The smoke fills my lungs, I know and fully understand the ailments that it gives me, the anger that it brings my family. Yet still, I fill the chambers and bellows of my insides.
I had a revelation tonight, the first time that Ive had such a breakthrough in basically over a year. Mason, your a dumbass. Study music, it rules. Play til your fingers bleed, its all that really matters in the end. Pure auditory bliss, and her wispering she loves me in my ear. What a rose this life is, and how we just dont get it enough. but everything will make sense with time. Perception is more than what it seems. Perception is Reality.
Which may lead one to question, Then what is reality? Reality is ones focus. Reality is ones thoughts and desires and needs.
I hope to some day come to more of an understanding on this, I will hope and pray until we meet again, to find the I in Me. (This could show hope and realism to be bestowed upon several of my friends, especially my much loved and missed Victor. I hope life is still real for you my friends)
I love you.
today was a hot day that was followed by a cold and suspensful night after sweet summer rain drops filled the leaves like cups of divine nectar.
lots of thoughts and misbeliefs were made and broken tonight....ive been thinking a lot about the religions centered arround peyote and the visions that I saw while on it.
It really is more of a medecine, as they say "Peyote is medecine first, cactus second" or something like that. Everything shimmered, and I saw such great wonder and love in the world; music brought everything together as one. I need to try to synthesize mescaline from it eventually. Ah, the san pedro cactus...such an intresting plant. It makes one take great care to reminiss upon their own faiths though. Is this really pretty real...the faiths that we have?
and with that note, my ashes are put out on my finger...and Im home again. The smoke fills my lungs, I know and fully understand the ailments that it gives me, the anger that it brings my family. Yet still, I fill the chambers and bellows of my insides.
I had a revelation tonight, the first time that Ive had such a breakthrough in basically over a year. Mason, your a dumbass. Study music, it rules. Play til your fingers bleed, its all that really matters in the end. Pure auditory bliss, and her wispering she loves me in my ear. What a rose this life is, and how we just dont get it enough. but everything will make sense with time. Perception is more than what it seems. Perception is Reality.
Which may lead one to question, Then what is reality? Reality is ones focus. Reality is ones thoughts and desires and needs.
I hope to some day come to more of an understanding on this, I will hope and pray until we meet again, to find the I in Me. (This could show hope and realism to be bestowed upon several of my friends, especially my much loved and missed Victor. I hope life is still real for you my friends)
I love you.