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so it's like I had a great couple weeks followed by a horrible three weeks.
I feel fat fat fat fat fat and undeserving and utterly hopeless. I will never be where I want to be, and for this I am sorry.
I'm not writing this so you (whoever you guys are really) will console me, I'm just writing this to kick my ass back into gear. I guess I am sadistic. Maybe not, mostly I am just really sad.
So I've gained back five pounds, feel like a huge blob of disgusting. and the sad thing is tomorrow I am not confident that I can get back into my habits --- and this is what scares me the most.
It's one of those really bad phases body wise and I hate hate hate the way I look/feel.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better
I feel fat fat fat fat fat and undeserving and utterly hopeless. I will never be where I want to be, and for this I am sorry.
I'm not writing this so you (whoever you guys are really) will console me, I'm just writing this to kick my ass back into gear. I guess I am sadistic. Maybe not, mostly I am just really sad.
So I've gained back five pounds, feel like a huge blob of disgusting. and the sad thing is tomorrow I am not confident that I can get back into my habits --- and this is what scares me the most.
It's one of those really bad phases body wise and I hate hate hate the way I look/feel.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better