Agony And Ecstasy...........................
Stupid, vile, defective-ass body! I haven't been in this much pain in years! I almost can't fucking bare it!! I'm so goddamn tired of feeling like this, day in and day out! I honestly don't know how long I can deal with this. Even if I'm sitting down or something, and I simply move an arm to answer the phone or smoke a cigarette or anything! That whole limb, and the shoulder it's attached to, and surrounding area on my back instantly feel like coursing fire, and I just want to scream. I've tried getting help. I've tried all sorts of remedies. But at this point, I'm quite sure I can't afford the kind of help I really need. So, That's about the size of that.
On a slightly more positive note, the Avengers movie came out last week. Yesterday, I finally saw it with the kimmehcat, and then had a pretty decent potluck dinner/D&D game. And it was great. It really, truly was. Yet at the same time, I'm starting to realize that these are only occasional 'distractions' from the problem at hand. But they also seem to be the only defense, of sorts, that I have. I seriously don't know what else to do. Hopefully, something will change. Attempting to sleep now...again. >END TRANSMISSION
On a slightly more positive note, the Avengers movie came out last week. Yesterday, I finally saw it with the kimmehcat, and then had a pretty decent potluck dinner/D&D game. And it was great. It really, truly was. Yet at the same time, I'm starting to realize that these are only occasional 'distractions' from the problem at hand. But they also seem to be the only defense, of sorts, that I have. I seriously don't know what else to do. Hopefully, something will change. Attempting to sleep now...again. >END TRANSMISSION