so that day
sighs* so my friend that dreaded day that i mentioned in my last post..........you must be wondering what that it aren't you ?Well that day would be the day that i almost left this mortal coil and joined mark in what ever place he's kicking ass chewing bubble gum and taking names......now that i think about it i don't remember if he did chew gum, but anyway.... that would be may 1 the day brianna broke up with me a year ago.you know over the pas year i have done way to much thinking and way to much fucking sulking for one person to handle......but i have also grown up and let things be the way they are unless things changed but the chances of that happening are slim to fucking none and i mean more slim then paris hilton......(yeah bitch sue me for calling you a skinny ho it's true)but yeah, the night that she told me she no longer had any feelings for me was the last nail in the coffin to put out relationship to a grim death, believe me you wouldn't have wanted to see the crime scene very nasty.But that was the second night i almost died cause i loved her that much ....... wait let me correct that, i was in love with her old self and didn't let go of the past and start loving the girl she was now.Thanks to that night tho and a trip to the loony house( Acadia for the people are maine who know what i mean)i realized that it was over and i needed to give up.to this day i still regret what happened to end it all. i was a idiot and thought that i could get away with it but not the way i did.but thats over with now and it's time to move on with my life and stop all the pain and suffering i dealt with cause of her, on that day i dont know what im going to do but i damn well know im not gonna let it fuck up my day.
but on to other news, i cant believe what happened not even an hour ago.......justin had asked me what it would be like if me and him ever got back together. I'll admit at first it would be really weird and kinda awkward but i think me and him could get through it, and before you ask if i want something to happen that would cause that , that's a big NO.justin is happily with a guy that can take care of him in ways that i possible cannot. he may read this and me may disagree with me but i know it to be true.
but for now i have written down all i can think of at the moment so goodnight my dear friend and farewell( and justin if you do read this i love you and don't you dare disagree with me)
but on to other news, i cant believe what happened not even an hour ago.......justin had asked me what it would be like if me and him ever got back together. I'll admit at first it would be really weird and kinda awkward but i think me and him could get through it, and before you ask if i want something to happen that would cause that , that's a big NO.justin is happily with a guy that can take care of him in ways that i possible cannot. he may read this and me may disagree with me but i know it to be true.
but for now i have written down all i can think of at the moment so goodnight my dear friend and farewell( and justin if you do read this i love you and don't you dare disagree with me)