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so I caved called her.You know i wanted to show her that i could last two weeks with out talking to her but i couldn't handle it all two weeks, just cause of one panic attack i broke out of my shell and talked to her.the talk went well for the most part, but i found out that her mother is kicking her boyfriend out the house cause he didn't find a job and it's partly my fault for when i dated her mother didn't want a repeat performance with him, but the messed up thing is she is quitting her job just so she can go and move out with him at his mother's place in the middle of fucking nowhere, i mean really i might love people but not so much to where i would quit my job so to go live with them, i mean if it was really worth it maybe but I don't know she has her reasons and I'm not gonna really say anything about it, it's her choice and if she loves him that much then more power to her, i don't really have room to say anything cause i basically tried to leave my life here in Bangor when i moved in with her last year. So i cant really say anything to her but that doesn't stop me from writing about it on here.
but on a lighter note i have been talking to an amazing girl for the past week and a half, i think it's been that long but I'm not sure.but I'm kinda glad i met her, sadly i think i have already fallen for her ......i really must work on that part of my brain and tell it to stop falling for people so quickly other wise I'm going to get hurt. but now that i think about it i think it's just that i like her but not that much>_> even tho i got a little depressed when i found out on Wednesday that some one had claimed her, but i shouldn't have let it get to me that much i mean i don't think i can go through another long distance relationship, but we will see where things will go from here.I'm supposed to call her before i go to bed and i intend to but i don't know how long I'm going to talk to her tonight i mean i already talked to her for over three hours and i don't know if there is still a lot to talk about tonight, but I'll leave it at that for now my dear friend. i will write to you tomorrow. see you on the other side.
but on a lighter note i have been talking to an amazing girl for the past week and a half, i think it's been that long but I'm not sure.but I'm kinda glad i met her, sadly i think i have already fallen for her ......i really must work on that part of my brain and tell it to stop falling for people so quickly other wise I'm going to get hurt. but now that i think about it i think it's just that i like her but not that much>_> even tho i got a little depressed when i found out on Wednesday that some one had claimed her, but i shouldn't have let it get to me that much i mean i don't think i can go through another long distance relationship, but we will see where things will go from here.I'm supposed to call her before i go to bed and i intend to but i don't know how long I'm going to talk to her tonight i mean i already talked to her for over three hours and i don't know if there is still a lot to talk about tonight, but I'll leave it at that for now my dear friend. i will write to you tomorrow. see you on the other side.