i wish i had a river i could skate away on...
i wish i had a river so long
i could teach my feet to fly away...
i guess it's time to update my life.
i'm usually transient, but this time i am truly in transit and i have packed up my life yet again, signed a lease, and i'm on the road to nowhere. not true, just have the talking heads stuck in my head...
i'm feeling pretty damn good, all things considered, anyway...
i'm sleeping better, and i'm looking forward to the end of the year.
was i productive? i don't know, really... i wasted two more semesters in boulder, attained lots of credits that i didn't really need that won't actually count towards anything, and honestly, nothing groundbreaking happened on this end. pretty much mediocre... more of the same, you know? to be fair, though, it was nice to not feel any extremes.
so what will be next for me in my new home? i can't say, really... hopefully the people will be cool, my classes will be alright, and i will have more quality time with the people i am moving closer to. maybe i'll pierce something or wear a short skirt. maybe i'll start carrying a journal. ha. hell, maybe i'll even buy into my joni mitchell albums and take a road trip to the mythical california. no, probably not, but whatever. i'll muddle through another few weeks of packing boxes and shipping people's christmas gifts, and then i'll begin the next chapter. i've been saying that since this summer; that it was time to enter the next phase... now i'm actually going to do it. i don't know if it will change anything... i'm not even really looking for tangible change, or even emotional, really... i don't want an epiphany or a transformation. i just want a little contentment.
my beautiful little puppy has grown into quite the beastly fellow, at about 45 pounds at six months... he's too cute, and it's wonderful to watch him hop through the snow.
well, i'm going to relax because i am done with my finals and don't have to work until noon tomorrow. i'm tired of feeling like i have obligations to people, but i suppose it's my own damn fault for not having enough courage to end the things that need to be ended. why do i just let stuff fizzle? it's so my mechanism to avoid unpleasantness, but it is lame and kind of unfair on my part. i hate feeling like i am being rude, but it's probably ruder to just act impartial and apathetic. mehhh. i guess everything will work out how it ought to, in spite of myself.
i could teach my feet to fly away...
i guess it's time to update my life.
i'm usually transient, but this time i am truly in transit and i have packed up my life yet again, signed a lease, and i'm on the road to nowhere. not true, just have the talking heads stuck in my head...
i'm feeling pretty damn good, all things considered, anyway...
i'm sleeping better, and i'm looking forward to the end of the year.
was i productive? i don't know, really... i wasted two more semesters in boulder, attained lots of credits that i didn't really need that won't actually count towards anything, and honestly, nothing groundbreaking happened on this end. pretty much mediocre... more of the same, you know? to be fair, though, it was nice to not feel any extremes.
so what will be next for me in my new home? i can't say, really... hopefully the people will be cool, my classes will be alright, and i will have more quality time with the people i am moving closer to. maybe i'll pierce something or wear a short skirt. maybe i'll start carrying a journal. ha. hell, maybe i'll even buy into my joni mitchell albums and take a road trip to the mythical california. no, probably not, but whatever. i'll muddle through another few weeks of packing boxes and shipping people's christmas gifts, and then i'll begin the next chapter. i've been saying that since this summer; that it was time to enter the next phase... now i'm actually going to do it. i don't know if it will change anything... i'm not even really looking for tangible change, or even emotional, really... i don't want an epiphany or a transformation. i just want a little contentment.
my beautiful little puppy has grown into quite the beastly fellow, at about 45 pounds at six months... he's too cute, and it's wonderful to watch him hop through the snow.
well, i'm going to relax because i am done with my finals and don't have to work until noon tomorrow. i'm tired of feeling like i have obligations to people, but i suppose it's my own damn fault for not having enough courage to end the things that need to be ended. why do i just let stuff fizzle? it's so my mechanism to avoid unpleasantness, but it is lame and kind of unfair on my part. i hate feeling like i am being rude, but it's probably ruder to just act impartial and apathetic. mehhh. i guess everything will work out how it ought to, in spite of myself.