i dont really understand but this all seems wrong to me
ok first off..for anyone who knows me...and i mean really really knows me..you would know that i absolutely love my job..i love what i do..its fun..i have a good time..also if you know me you know that i have a slight anxiety issue which i have more recently started taking medicine for.. also you would know that normally i'm a super bubbly dorky mess.. i have fun and i'm a lot like a little kid...
well when my new manager first started working at my counter we had a bit of a struggle understanding each other and communicating with each other..part of it was that i was sad because my former manager was leaving and i was scared to have someone new, and part of it was that she was coming to a counter full of people she didn't know and so i think she had her guard up extra high..
so in the beginning it was a little rough..but then more recently we have been working closely together on different events and projects and everything seemed to have been going really very well.. we worked really hard on this event where a senior pro artist was coming in to teach a trending class.. the event was friday and today..i wasn't there friday because i had to go to the doctor..but i worked today..short shift, just 10-3..i wasn't feeling well so i told my manager when i got there how nauseous i had been feeling and asked her if i could just ring customers and sign them in for the event.. she said yeah thats fine.. well she went on break with our senior pro artist and another manager from a different mac counter.. and when they came back the other retail manager said she wanted me to walk down to the end of the mall with her, she needed some fresh air..so i'm walking with her..and she starts asking me how important the way people perceive you is..and i said..well i guess thats probably pretty important.. why? she said..well the people at your counter think you are really negative..and i think your talent is going to waste because of this..i see a lot of potential in you but its being wasted on this negative behavior.. UM EXCUSE ME WHAT?? this person has worked with me twice EVER in the two years i've been with this company.. i'm one of the highest requested makeup artists at my counter, and if i have such a negative attitude then why does everyone want to come to me?? needless to say this whole conversation put me in a very sour mood.. so she keeps talking to me and i'm telling her that i'm done with this and that if my manager or my counter feels this way about me that THEY need to talk to ME about it..not talk to other people about it and have them bring it us..because lets face it, thats not fair.. and also.. could you not have asked me at a better time..as in not during the middle of our biggest event of the year that i worked really hard to help set up?? also.. i almost forgot that the other retail manager told me that she noticed i complain about everything and that i need to figure out a way to fix all of this and make it so its not a problem.. well um.. i didn't complain about anything today except for feeling ill, which was when i was talking to my manager or when one of the other girls asked me if i was ok.. thats all thats not complaining i dont think... i was still my normal joking, sweet self with the customers..asked everyone if they had a good time if they found everything they needed and if i could help them with anything else.. etc
so now here i am..in tears.. really upset because i dont know what i did wrong.. or what negative behavior i displayed today to warrant a "discussion" with a manager thats not even working at my counter or even above my manager..she's just another retail manager..same position as my manager..and in all those times i've been working with my manager and everything has seemed fine, has she secretly been holding something against me that i wasn't aware of? i dont like feeling that my behavior was the subject of a lunch conversation including our senior pro artist.. especially when i didn't even do anything wrong..
so now i ask you.. how do i go about solving this problem?
well when my new manager first started working at my counter we had a bit of a struggle understanding each other and communicating with each other..part of it was that i was sad because my former manager was leaving and i was scared to have someone new, and part of it was that she was coming to a counter full of people she didn't know and so i think she had her guard up extra high..
so in the beginning it was a little rough..but then more recently we have been working closely together on different events and projects and everything seemed to have been going really very well.. we worked really hard on this event where a senior pro artist was coming in to teach a trending class.. the event was friday and today..i wasn't there friday because i had to go to the doctor..but i worked today..short shift, just 10-3..i wasn't feeling well so i told my manager when i got there how nauseous i had been feeling and asked her if i could just ring customers and sign them in for the event.. she said yeah thats fine.. well she went on break with our senior pro artist and another manager from a different mac counter.. and when they came back the other retail manager said she wanted me to walk down to the end of the mall with her, she needed some fresh air..so i'm walking with her..and she starts asking me how important the way people perceive you is..and i said..well i guess thats probably pretty important.. why? she said..well the people at your counter think you are really negative..and i think your talent is going to waste because of this..i see a lot of potential in you but its being wasted on this negative behavior.. UM EXCUSE ME WHAT?? this person has worked with me twice EVER in the two years i've been with this company.. i'm one of the highest requested makeup artists at my counter, and if i have such a negative attitude then why does everyone want to come to me?? needless to say this whole conversation put me in a very sour mood.. so she keeps talking to me and i'm telling her that i'm done with this and that if my manager or my counter feels this way about me that THEY need to talk to ME about it..not talk to other people about it and have them bring it us..because lets face it, thats not fair.. and also.. could you not have asked me at a better time..as in not during the middle of our biggest event of the year that i worked really hard to help set up?? also.. i almost forgot that the other retail manager told me that she noticed i complain about everything and that i need to figure out a way to fix all of this and make it so its not a problem.. well um.. i didn't complain about anything today except for feeling ill, which was when i was talking to my manager or when one of the other girls asked me if i was ok.. thats all thats not complaining i dont think... i was still my normal joking, sweet self with the customers..asked everyone if they had a good time if they found everything they needed and if i could help them with anything else.. etc
so now here i am..in tears.. really upset because i dont know what i did wrong.. or what negative behavior i displayed today to warrant a "discussion" with a manager thats not even working at my counter or even above my manager..she's just another retail manager..same position as my manager..and in all those times i've been working with my manager and everything has seemed fine, has she secretly been holding something against me that i wasn't aware of? i dont like feeling that my behavior was the subject of a lunch conversation including our senior pro artist.. especially when i didn't even do anything wrong..
so now i ask you.. how do i go about solving this problem?