memorieeeesss
I wrote the following shortly after meeting the boy
"i left LA a long time ago, it has denied me many many times. oh well the one gift it gave me was aboy from the rooftop of an old building. awesome, i love old buildings, i love rooftops, and now i love this boy.
i wonder if i made it all up, if maybe i dreamed it all up, like some leftover psychosis from 4 years ago. remember sitting in the living room staring at the mirror, grossed out by what was there. writing in my little notebook, that was full of multi colored multiplications additions subtractions, and such. numbers were the only things that kept my mind ok
ok so im pretty sure he's real and i love how satisfying it all feels, and it makes me happy to make someone just a little bit happy.
on another note, i'm ok now"