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okay okay okay...so guess what...life=shit..i should start writing in this again..anywho...
life problems:
1. my mom is so stupid..she doesnt understand me or anything...just because i dont hagn out with a lot of people doesnt mean im fucking like ungreatful or w/e..i dont know i dont get her..shes going out with this guy SCOTT whooooo...aggggony...at least shes not home a lot...btu they are awsome..but she is so stupid around him shes different and "cute" or w/e "innocent" <----- more like she devil right now...
2. my brother yelled at me yesterday...and i know hes gonna read this..but steven...idc about much right now..you know...i couldnt say why i cant look up to you in front of mom but..hey steven...guess what..i cant look up to you anymore...well i tried to and it didnt work..you're gonna get mad when you read this like normal...but he i cant look up to someone who smokes pot or does other things...sorry.. : /
3. jesse...wow...i love him a lot..its getting really tough..so when i talk to him on the phone..theres a lot of fucking silence..and that pisses me off...so i start singing which makes him annoyed/aggravated/or w/e.... but i love him so much..if i didnt why would i go out with him long distance especially..i mean...seriously i love him so much..
4. today...someone called me a pushover (im not mad about it i needed to hear it)...btu i sit here and let my brother not go to school...how fucked up am i..and i sit here and cover for him...i mean i could just tell my mom..but no im a good sister in that way that im protecting him form getting hurt but in compromise for that im gonna get yelled the fuck at when she finds out..
5. tucson...i wanna leave this hellhole..someone please get me outta here..i need to see jesse at christmas..like after it and like i dont knwo if i can...and no oen understands how much i need to see him...
so there is some of it...thats summerizing it...
fuck it hahahahahahahahahahaha....oh and now im "emo" emotional...right?...yeah i do cry a lot...but hey...ive got a lot of shit going on and that is how i get emotion out..so what if i cry myself to sleep fuck who ever thinks im stupid for getting my emotions out that way..
bye kids
life problems:
1. my mom is so stupid..she doesnt understand me or anything...just because i dont hagn out with a lot of people doesnt mean im fucking like ungreatful or w/e..i dont know i dont get her..shes going out with this guy SCOTT whooooo...aggggony...at least shes not home a lot...btu they are awsome..but she is so stupid around him shes different and "cute" or w/e "innocent" <----- more like she devil right now...
2. my brother yelled at me yesterday...and i know hes gonna read this..but steven...idc about much right now..you know...i couldnt say why i cant look up to you in front of mom but..hey steven...guess what..i cant look up to you anymore...well i tried to and it didnt work..you're gonna get mad when you read this like normal...but he i cant look up to someone who smokes pot or does other things...sorry.. : /
3. jesse...wow...i love him a lot..its getting really tough..so when i talk to him on the phone..theres a lot of fucking silence..and that pisses me off...so i start singing which makes him annoyed/aggravated/or w/e.... but i love him so much..if i didnt why would i go out with him long distance especially..i mean...seriously i love him so much..
4. today...someone called me a pushover (im not mad about it i needed to hear it)...btu i sit here and let my brother not go to school...how fucked up am i..and i sit here and cover for him...i mean i could just tell my mom..but no im a good sister in that way that im protecting him form getting hurt but in compromise for that im gonna get yelled the fuck at when she finds out..
5. tucson...i wanna leave this hellhole..someone please get me outta here..i need to see jesse at christmas..like after it and like i dont knwo if i can...and no oen understands how much i need to see him...
so there is some of it...thats summerizing it...
fuck it hahahahahahahahahahaha....oh and now im "emo" emotional...right?...yeah i do cry a lot...but hey...ive got a lot of shit going on and that is how i get emotion out..so what if i cry myself to sleep fuck who ever thinks im stupid for getting my emotions out that way..
bye kids