I whole heartedly believe you should do what you have to do. Though it is sad that we don't talk anymore. Even though we fight often...I still feel like the happy moments left between us as friends are too important to say goodbye to a friendship. Everyone has their fights and difficulties, right?
But I also understand if that isnt something you can handle, thats totally okay. I'll always cherish you as a friend though.
And really, I think its probably a good idea to let go of the roleplaying if its something that just brings you too much stress. Do what makes you happy. Life is short. Do the things that will make you feel happy and confident in the future. I just hope you don't feel like people are blaming you for being human. :) Hopefully you can come to a point where you wont have to worry so much. Because really, I don't think anyone is taking this quite so bad as it feels.

Life is full of problems, troubles, irrationality and inconsistency, isn't it.
But,
In life we also have hope that we can get rid of all those.

Even if we are 1 or 2 steps behind, all we have to do is to take 3 steps more.
Don't keep stamping on the same ground, don't look back.
Just focus on one point, go straight ahead, go on ahead earnestly.

Move forward move forward, walk on walk on.

-miyavi

That always moved me when I was feeling down or upset about anything. Whichever path you take...I'll be cheering!