Nightmares...
... I've been having a lot of them as of late.
A few of the nightmares are... extreme emotions? Well an extreme fear of 'something' that often has me waking up in a panic. The event would be normal, like I'm in a bedroom, an old bedroom I used to have. I'd become aware of a presence of something or other, behind the closed door or outside the window behind the closed curtains. I'd stare at that door, feeling the fear build up as the 'entity' grows in presence? I just *know* its there, granted I don't see it. Just that feeling and it expands so rapidly I wake up shit scared, trying to make sense of what the fuck just happened. I often go to the lounge and sleep on the sofa with the television on.
One dream was... Lovecraftian in nature. Being attacked by a creature in a rancid pool of water. Clawing at my legs with its tentacles and shredding the skin. And then mocking me with a challenge. Not verbally no, but I heard the voice.
The latest nightmare was weird. At first I was... in a bedroom. I don't know whose and I was confronted and attacked by a dark spectre, a mass of shadows coalesced into a shape of a small child. She reached out to me and then I woke up to my darkened bedroom. My flat was dark with shifting shadows. And various entities or something, staring at me from the darkness. Then... I woke up for real.
I knew I left a light on before I went to sleep so that knowledge woke me up from my dream within a dream. Never had that before, dreaming while I'm dreaming... if that makes sense. It's rather disturbing. I stayed in my bed though, resisting the temptation to sleep in the lounge again with the television on.
So with difficulty I went to sleep again and... had some weird fucking dreams. It was similar to a lot of them I had before now, where I had two or three flats that I was somehow paying for, that I forgotten I had them and they even had my stuff in them still.
I'm going insane.
A few of the nightmares are... extreme emotions? Well an extreme fear of 'something' that often has me waking up in a panic. The event would be normal, like I'm in a bedroom, an old bedroom I used to have. I'd become aware of a presence of something or other, behind the closed door or outside the window behind the closed curtains. I'd stare at that door, feeling the fear build up as the 'entity' grows in presence? I just *know* its there, granted I don't see it. Just that feeling and it expands so rapidly I wake up shit scared, trying to make sense of what the fuck just happened. I often go to the lounge and sleep on the sofa with the television on.
One dream was... Lovecraftian in nature. Being attacked by a creature in a rancid pool of water. Clawing at my legs with its tentacles and shredding the skin. And then mocking me with a challenge. Not verbally no, but I heard the voice.
The latest nightmare was weird. At first I was... in a bedroom. I don't know whose and I was confronted and attacked by a dark spectre, a mass of shadows coalesced into a shape of a small child. She reached out to me and then I woke up to my darkened bedroom. My flat was dark with shifting shadows. And various entities or something, staring at me from the darkness. Then... I woke up for real.
I knew I left a light on before I went to sleep so that knowledge woke me up from my dream within a dream. Never had that before, dreaming while I'm dreaming... if that makes sense. It's rather disturbing. I stayed in my bed though, resisting the temptation to sleep in the lounge again with the television on.
So with difficulty I went to sleep again and... had some weird fucking dreams. It was similar to a lot of them I had before now, where I had two or three flats that I was somehow paying for, that I forgotten I had them and they even had my stuff in them still.
I'm going insane.