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Ugh.
So basically I talked to Moofis last night.....It was so hard and so dreaded, but it needed to happen. Gawd, I hate it when people build it up so that I am just left there standing in awe when it happens. Fucks.
I guess it was just so hard to hear him say it....I already kind of knew, but somehow I still wasn't expecting it.
We're still friends, and still want to be close, and who knows what the future entails for us. But none the less it still SUCKS. This is such a weird feeling for me, I don't like it at all. I've been rejected before...who cares, but this time it's different......What the crap?! I don't understand, everyone is like ohhhhh I get butterflies and blah blah blah.....Well I have NEVER had that feeling before, and so now, I do, and everything is GREAT.....Then BAM. It's like God answered my prayers, then I got too cocky and he took them back!
So hey though, maybe things will get better, eh? I know they will, but I mean with this whole love you mess. Blegh. :'(
AND
So I've been speaking with JESSI lately, Awe, what a DOLL. <3
Okay so I LOVE you all, and well especially this one person imparticular, then running a close second.....I still love him no matter what happened. <3 you boi.