slightly overdue canon-ish essay
So, finally getting down to an essay for Heero when really I should be doing English essaying, BUT. Just as a note as to what I consider GW canons and what I’ll essentially be drawing Heero’s personality and whatnot from are the official series (anime version, although I’m not sure if there’s much difference), the Endless Waltz OVA, and the Episode Zero manga segments.
brief canon spiel (longer one coming later… maybe)
Heero is being pulled from the latter half of the series (after Barge and Sanc Kingdom, before Libra). As far as he is/was concerned, Duo and Wufei are in space somewhere, assuming they escaped Barge successfully, Trowa is MIA (possibly dead), and Quatre is on Earth looking for Sandrock. At this stage in the series, Heero has just about shaken off Dr. J’s “leash”, if you will, on him and is beginning to take his own initiatives against OZ (primarily, as well as to protect those who have the ability to bring about peace (like Relena Peacecraft). As such, he’s still very much in the mindset of ‘OZ is the enemy; destroy OZ/Romefeller’, but after his meeting with Treize in Luxembourg, he has adopted another perspective of who his enemies are, being “whoever stands before me and tries to kill me is my enemy”. Currently, the only allies he will acknowledge in canon are his fellow Gundam pilots (ergo why Duo in camp sped up the learning/believing camp is not a giant OZ hoax considerably) and very tentatively, other factors opposing OZ like the Sanc Kingdom and the Treize Foundation.
reactions to camp and stuff
He’s beginning to shed his Perfect Soldier character a little, meaning that he won’t follow orders from Dr. J and the scientists blindly, but he’s still very dedicated to what he’s doing and will do it as efficiently as possible. And this definitely carries over into camp. He will be anxious to get out and go back to his world because there are pressing duties and responsibilities for him there. I know that I played him very cool about the whole “lookit you’re trapped indeterminably here” thing, but I think that Heero wouldn’t panic because a) that would accomplish nothing, and b) he thinks that there must be a way out and Heero is rather confident in his abilities. He’s not going to brag or flaunt it, but he is good, he has been trained from early childhood for military/guerrilla work and he has never really known any other lifestyle. In Episode Zero, we see from Odin’s dying memories that Heero was quite young when Odin adopted him (and from where we are never told), but the image in which we see Odin teaching a young Heero how to hold a handgun, Heero doesn’t look much older than 8 years-old. Essentially, Heero was raised and trained as a weapon.
His normal thought processes probably aren’t like other people, hence why he took being changed into a girl fairly calmly. I mean he’s heard about it happening from someone he more or less trusts, and he’s seen it confirmed, which is always a good thing with Heero. To him, it was like any other virus, albeit much weirder and involved growing new body parts, but it wasn’t anything he was going to worry too much about as long as it’d wear off. That being said, he does want to recover as quickly as possible because the new body is odd, and he’s not accustomed to it, and most of it, it screws up his balance and motor skills a bit. So he’s not happy, and that’s why he agreed to try the various cures with Sousuke (or at least tolerated them being tried on him and not pulling a firearm out of his pants.) Would he have drank Ash milk if he got desperate? I can’t say for sure, but I would think yes. Let’s remember, Heero isn’t squicky and he’s not fazed by a lot of things and when he wants to get something done, he will. Even if it means self-destruction or drinking milk out of a boy.
on trust and relationships
Right, so this one was basically spawned by the mafia poll camperfucksoff a while ago. I am horribly late at everything, I swear. First off, canon relationships and clues and stuff, then camp-related ramble.
In canon, they constantly allude to how Heero’s really a nice, kind-hearted person, but his nature somewhat conflicts with the training and upbringing he’s had. Yet, he does a fairly decent job of balancing the two, since he’s extremely efficient, but not to the point of disregarding civilians and their safety. Actually, to quote Duo, the gundam pilots are fighting so that “[the civilians] don’t have to”. I believe this is the mindset of every one of the pilots, but Duo was the one in the series that really verbalized it when he was talking to Hilde. They’re soldiers, warriors, but the reason that they are sacrificing themselves is so that the civilian people do not have to. They’ve all had hard pasts and, with the exception of maybe Quatre, they’ve all had some form of military/guerrilla/spy/ fighter training. Heero and Trowa received the most education in that direction, under the direct tutelage of a highly successful assassin and a group of soldiers respectively.
One very insightful memory of Heero’s that canon gives us the scene with the little girl and her dog Mary. I’m guessing Heero is in the middle/latter part of his training with Dr. J for Operation Meteor. In the beginning, he’s running down a grassy hill and collapses, laughing. Not crazy laughing either-just laughing for the joy of it, and he’s happy. It’s seriously one of the only happy joyful scenes he ever gets. Ever. Then a little girl, we never do get her name I don’t think, comes along (she’s walking/playing with her puppy) and asks Heero if he’s lost. Typical Heero replies “I’ve been lost all my life”, and then she looks sad and offers him a flower. Keep in mind Heero’s childhood-not a whole lot of displays of affection. He’s been killing people, and good at it, since he was with Odin. He accepts the flower, and she smiles at him and goes her way. That night, on a mission to blow up an Alliance Leo base, the missions goes wrong and a wayward collapsing Leo smashes into a civilian apartment building, and explodes.
It was one of Heero’s biggest mission failures, and most likely the biggest in his eyes, even moreso than the Noventa incident. Due to that incident with the little girl (oh, I should add that Heero went through the entire wreckage, discovered her puppy’s body and buried it), I think young girls like her have come to embody civilians for him. Not that he doesn’t consider middle-aged salarymen civilians, but there’s something about girls (like Kairi, Tot, Yachiru, Saya, etc.) that’s going to strike a cord with him. So if I throw Heero at them and whatnot, don’t be too surprised. … Oh, I guess I got into camp stuff before the actual canon relationships. Um. Ok.
Because I fail at life, and essaying, more on relationships later. JUST. DUO, I MOCK OUT OF LOVE. RLY. More on that later too. :D
Oh gosh, ok. If you actually read all that, congratulations. 'Twas long. ALSO. If you disagree/think differently about any of the things I've said here, please let me know. I don't pretend to completely understand Heero and yes, tell me what I'm possibly getting wrong. Please? :D
brief canon spiel (longer one coming later… maybe)
Heero is being pulled from the latter half of the series (after Barge and Sanc Kingdom, before Libra). As far as he is/was concerned, Duo and Wufei are in space somewhere, assuming they escaped Barge successfully, Trowa is MIA (possibly dead), and Quatre is on Earth looking for Sandrock. At this stage in the series, Heero has just about shaken off Dr. J’s “leash”, if you will, on him and is beginning to take his own initiatives against OZ (primarily, as well as to protect those who have the ability to bring about peace (like Relena Peacecraft). As such, he’s still very much in the mindset of ‘OZ is the enemy; destroy OZ/Romefeller’, but after his meeting with Treize in Luxembourg, he has adopted another perspective of who his enemies are, being “whoever stands before me and tries to kill me is my enemy”. Currently, the only allies he will acknowledge in canon are his fellow Gundam pilots (ergo why Duo in camp sped up the learning/believing camp is not a giant OZ hoax considerably) and very tentatively, other factors opposing OZ like the Sanc Kingdom and the Treize Foundation.
reactions to camp and stuff
He’s beginning to shed his Perfect Soldier character a little, meaning that he won’t follow orders from Dr. J and the scientists blindly, but he’s still very dedicated to what he’s doing and will do it as efficiently as possible. And this definitely carries over into camp. He will be anxious to get out and go back to his world because there are pressing duties and responsibilities for him there. I know that I played him very cool about the whole “lookit you’re trapped indeterminably here” thing, but I think that Heero wouldn’t panic because a) that would accomplish nothing, and b) he thinks that there must be a way out and Heero is rather confident in his abilities. He’s not going to brag or flaunt it, but he is good, he has been trained from early childhood for military/guerrilla work and he has never really known any other lifestyle. In Episode Zero, we see from Odin’s dying memories that Heero was quite young when Odin adopted him (and from where we are never told), but the image in which we see Odin teaching a young Heero how to hold a handgun, Heero doesn’t look much older than 8 years-old. Essentially, Heero was raised and trained as a weapon.
His normal thought processes probably aren’t like other people, hence why he took being changed into a girl fairly calmly. I mean he’s heard about it happening from someone he more or less trusts, and he’s seen it confirmed, which is always a good thing with Heero. To him, it was like any other virus, albeit much weirder and involved growing new body parts, but it wasn’t anything he was going to worry too much about as long as it’d wear off. That being said, he does want to recover as quickly as possible because the new body is odd, and he’s not accustomed to it, and most of it, it screws up his balance and motor skills a bit. So he’s not happy, and that’s why he agreed to try the various cures with Sousuke (or at least tolerated them being tried on him and not pulling a firearm out of his pants.) Would he have drank Ash milk if he got desperate? I can’t say for sure, but I would think yes. Let’s remember, Heero isn’t squicky and he’s not fazed by a lot of things and when he wants to get something done, he will. Even if it means self-destruction or drinking milk out of a boy.
on trust and relationships
Right, so this one was basically spawned by the mafia poll camperfucksoff a while ago. I am horribly late at everything, I swear. First off, canon relationships and clues and stuff, then camp-related ramble.
In canon, they constantly allude to how Heero’s really a nice, kind-hearted person, but his nature somewhat conflicts with the training and upbringing he’s had. Yet, he does a fairly decent job of balancing the two, since he’s extremely efficient, but not to the point of disregarding civilians and their safety. Actually, to quote Duo, the gundam pilots are fighting so that “[the civilians] don’t have to”. I believe this is the mindset of every one of the pilots, but Duo was the one in the series that really verbalized it when he was talking to Hilde. They’re soldiers, warriors, but the reason that they are sacrificing themselves is so that the civilian people do not have to. They’ve all had hard pasts and, with the exception of maybe Quatre, they’ve all had some form of military/guerrilla/spy/ fighter training. Heero and Trowa received the most education in that direction, under the direct tutelage of a highly successful assassin and a group of soldiers respectively.
One very insightful memory of Heero’s that canon gives us the scene with the little girl and her dog Mary. I’m guessing Heero is in the middle/latter part of his training with Dr. J for Operation Meteor. In the beginning, he’s running down a grassy hill and collapses, laughing. Not crazy laughing either-just laughing for the joy of it, and he’s happy. It’s seriously one of the only happy joyful scenes he ever gets. Ever. Then a little girl, we never do get her name I don’t think, comes along (she’s walking/playing with her puppy) and asks Heero if he’s lost. Typical Heero replies “I’ve been lost all my life”, and then she looks sad and offers him a flower. Keep in mind Heero’s childhood-not a whole lot of displays of affection. He’s been killing people, and good at it, since he was with Odin. He accepts the flower, and she smiles at him and goes her way. That night, on a mission to blow up an Alliance Leo base, the missions goes wrong and a wayward collapsing Leo smashes into a civilian apartment building, and explodes.
It was one of Heero’s biggest mission failures, and most likely the biggest in his eyes, even moreso than the Noventa incident. Due to that incident with the little girl (oh, I should add that Heero went through the entire wreckage, discovered her puppy’s body and buried it), I think young girls like her have come to embody civilians for him. Not that he doesn’t consider middle-aged salarymen civilians, but there’s something about girls (like Kairi, Tot, Yachiru, Saya, etc.) that’s going to strike a cord with him. So if I throw Heero at them and whatnot, don’t be too surprised. … Oh, I guess I got into camp stuff before the actual canon relationships. Um. Ok.
Because I fail at life, and essaying, more on relationships later. JUST. DUO, I MOCK OUT OF LOVE. RLY. More on that later too. :D
Oh gosh, ok. If you actually read all that, congratulations. 'Twas long. ALSO. If you disagree/think differently about any of the things I've said here, please let me know. I don't pretend to completely understand Heero and yes, tell me what I'm possibly getting wrong. Please? :D