An update can you belive it!?
So yea im sick. And quite sick at that. I haven't been able to really leave my bed all day. I just keep sleeping cause I can't really do anything else. Im gonna go to the doctors tomorrow, or rather today. My mom being the wonderful person she is made sure my RR didn't get turned off on me. Now all I have to do is get one hundred dollars outta my dad. Then I can pay my RR, get a hair cut, and turn my FFXI back on for a bit. When I get my taxes back I have to pay off my credit card bill. Well some of it at least. If I have enough left over I'll think about getting a year subscription to Xbox live. After I get a hair cut im gonna get out there and work my ass off to get a job. Im in debt enough as it is. Besides bills the first thing im gonna do is pay my good friend Adam back. Cause I've owed him money for quite sometime now. Then Im ma start saving up some money like whoa. I mean I need a car, and I'd like to go to Japan if we are still going. Sam is worried about that. Not that it's my place to make his worries known. I would love to see Japan while I have a chance to. Just like Sam is planing when the Sprint Cellular store goes in the mall im going to apply. Among other places. Cause getting a job is at the top of my list of things to do. Then there is the getting a car part, of course I should probably get my DL before that. If would help if I had a car to practice with, but I don't My mom can't afford one, and I certainly can't at the moment. Life is really messed up right now. I sleep all day, and stay up all night. That really isn't the best way to go. It will make getting, and keeping a job a pain in the ass. Unless I get a night job. That would be a nice thing to do. Once im feeling alil better and get a hair cut, cause my hair looks like shit. Im going to be putting in applications everywhere I can think of. There is some truth in the saying "Money equals happy ness." Only some truth, because if money is all you have I don't think you'd be a very happy person. I love my friends, they are the truest, and best friends that anyone could ask for. So I wanna move outta my house, not that I don't like living here. I just feel im hindering my self by being here. It's to convenient to know that my mom isn't gonna abandon me. I need the reasonability to keep me from fucking up again. If Ben wants, and we both have decent jobs I might just move out with him when he has to. I don't know tho. I wouldn't like living completely on my own really. I tend to get depression spells when im completely alone, and have no one to talk to. It's not a good thing. Ben is onna the few friends I have that I could see living with really to. I mean I get along great with all my friend, but some of them have habits just alil to different from mine, and would probably get on my nerves if they were around ALL the time. Gilbert, and Ben are the two I could get along with easiest. Unless you wanna include females such as Elyse. But I think certain people might have an issue with me living with a female friend. Speaking of Elyse I am so pose to get hold of her, and get her home phone number. She had my mom yell at me the other day. I am such a bum tho. I know where she works, where she lives, and her b/f's cell number yet I don't contact her. I have an issue with calling the b/f's cell, but the other two I really don't have a reason for stopping by at. Well maybe I'll stop in sometime this week if im not bed ridden he whole week cause of this damn cold. At least I hope it's only a cold. So Chris, and Adam had a joint birthday party the other day. I went over tho I was kinda late. I wasn't feeling well ya know. We played Soul cal most of the night. At first before bowling I wasn't having a problem, but after Ben just wouldn't friggen die. Adam, Jamie, Ashley, and a few others got in a discussion about religion, and I avoided that, because my beliefs like Doug's would piss most people off. We went' to Dixie and bowled. I was doing decent until in the 5th frame messing around I used the ball Bridget was, and my fingers got stuck, so it pulled my wrist outta joint. After that I just couldn't throw the ball straight anymore. So the second half of my game was shit. I guess we are going to try and start doing it like once a week tho I don't see that happening yet. Specially with me and ben not having a job.-.- But yea when I have a job I am all for that. I enjoy bowling it's quite fun, and hanging out with the guys is always enjoyable. Oh yea Im ma try and set up D&D this Saturday. Imma have to make some phone calls about that. See who we can get to play, and where. I'ed like to start a new champain from lvl one sense the majority of my players want to do that. If hester can't make it I problly won't start it, or i'll have him join in the next time. It's easy enough to have someone lvl ajusted. At least at lower lvls that is. Im not sure how much starting money I wannagive them, or of the story I wanna put them on. I think i might just have them be child hood friends I don't know. We shall see, because a few of them wanna be races that wouldn't be accepts very well. Anyway on to other topics
*WARNING: Mushy personal info fallows.*
So it was Valentine's Day. Not that that is important. I mean it's not like i have a g/f to spoil. There is a girl in my life, but thats complicated. The fun of being intrested in a girl who has a b/f ya know. Not that he really bothers me, or anything. "Details" =P Normally im not kewl with go after a girl who has a b/f, but it's not like i would let her cheat on him. Im not kewl with that at all. I know the pain of it, and i've felt more then enough heart break already. Ashley broke my heart, but I don't blame her for that. I mean how could I. As long as she is happy i will leave everything alone. I made the stupid mistake years ago before I was old enough to truly understand how perfect Tashia was. I had pushed her away, and even then she continued to love me for three years. Now that I finally understand tho she has moved on, and good for her. like Ashley she is happy now, and that is all I wish for her. There was a thing with Kristen over the summer that im kinda sore about. Basiclly just because she has decided I do not exist anymore, and i hate when people do shit like that. I did enjoy hanging out with her alot too. O'well I guess her band has a concert the 19th, or this friday. Im problly going to go to it, but stay outta sight if thats hard or not Im not really sure. I'll talk to chris, or bridget and find out the times, and what not. So then there is Elise again. She doesn't live all that far away, but yet still far enough away to cause issues, and then theres the whole b/f thing. If I get the chance this summer I would like to go visit her. She has been onna my best friends for over five years now. always there when I needed someone to talk to. Even if I wasint always there for her. We have talked quite alot over the past three months. i am greatful for that, and I hope it continues. She is one of my dearest friends, and in the futuer possibly more then that. I get stressed sometimes when I think about her b/f, but then I just clear my head and tell my self not to worrie about it, because whatever happens will happen. Who know it will problly end up like most of my relationships with me getting hurt in the end, it could go no where, or it could turn out to be the start of the rest of my life. Only time will reveial the awnsers, so I shall wait. Well that is enough outta me for now i'll returen at a later date, and tell you more.
*WARNING: Mushy personal info fallows.*
So it was Valentine's Day. Not that that is important. I mean it's not like i have a g/f to spoil. There is a girl in my life, but thats complicated. The fun of being intrested in a girl who has a b/f ya know. Not that he really bothers me, or anything. "Details" =P Normally im not kewl with go after a girl who has a b/f, but it's not like i would let her cheat on him. Im not kewl with that at all. I know the pain of it, and i've felt more then enough heart break already. Ashley broke my heart, but I don't blame her for that. I mean how could I. As long as she is happy i will leave everything alone. I made the stupid mistake years ago before I was old enough to truly understand how perfect Tashia was. I had pushed her away, and even then she continued to love me for three years. Now that I finally understand tho she has moved on, and good for her. like Ashley she is happy now, and that is all I wish for her. There was a thing with Kristen over the summer that im kinda sore about. Basiclly just because she has decided I do not exist anymore, and i hate when people do shit like that. I did enjoy hanging out with her alot too. O'well I guess her band has a concert the 19th, or this friday. Im problly going to go to it, but stay outta sight if thats hard or not Im not really sure. I'll talk to chris, or bridget and find out the times, and what not. So then there is Elise again. She doesn't live all that far away, but yet still far enough away to cause issues, and then theres the whole b/f thing. If I get the chance this summer I would like to go visit her. She has been onna my best friends for over five years now. always there when I needed someone to talk to. Even if I wasint always there for her. We have talked quite alot over the past three months. i am greatful for that, and I hope it continues. She is one of my dearest friends, and in the futuer possibly more then that. I get stressed sometimes when I think about her b/f, but then I just clear my head and tell my self not to worrie about it, because whatever happens will happen. Who know it will problly end up like most of my relationships with me getting hurt in the end, it could go no where, or it could turn out to be the start of the rest of my life. Only time will reveial the awnsers, so I shall wait. Well that is enough outta me for now i'll returen at a later date, and tell you more.