Ugh.
I am really really unhappy.
Since Zhiyuan went home on Sunday, he's been kind of weird and quiet. I kept asking what was wrong, and he told me nothing or that he was just tired.
I finally found out today that he has turned down a job in the government back home in China. His dad found it for him, and this is the second job he's turned down so that he can stay in England and be close to me.
His father argued with him and told him to never come home again, this job would have been a lifetime thing, good money, government housing, free car etc. I feel awful about affecting his decision not to take it, albeit unconciously.
I am kind of depressed that he felt he couldn't tell me what was going on, that he couldn't talk to me about it.
There's a chance he might not even FIND a good job here, he may never find a good enough job to keep him in the country, even. I just really hope his dad chills out enough to realise that his son is an adult and is entitled to a life of his own choosing.
I really need to go bash my head on something hard for a while now.
Since Zhiyuan went home on Sunday, he's been kind of weird and quiet. I kept asking what was wrong, and he told me nothing or that he was just tired.
I finally found out today that he has turned down a job in the government back home in China. His dad found it for him, and this is the second job he's turned down so that he can stay in England and be close to me.
His father argued with him and told him to never come home again, this job would have been a lifetime thing, good money, government housing, free car etc. I feel awful about affecting his decision not to take it, albeit unconciously.
I am kind of depressed that he felt he couldn't tell me what was going on, that he couldn't talk to me about it.
There's a chance he might not even FIND a good job here, he may never find a good enough job to keep him in the country, even. I just really hope his dad chills out enough to realise that his son is an adult and is entitled to a life of his own choosing.
I really need to go bash my head on something hard for a while now.