Minor meltdown
Spoiler: I feel better now.
This morning, I had a little bit of a meltdown after realizing that I couldn't afford to drop Liz off at daycare while I did 4hrs of work today. With taxes due, impending car repair, daycare payment due, and cable bill due, I was honestly worried that I couldn' afford food. Everything hit at once.
On top of that, I feel awful asking for help. I played a huge role in the failure of my marriage, of course, so I feel like I should take care of my own mess. Asking for babysitting or moving help seems selfish. I'd feel fine asking for money or for help getting the Con out of the house, because those things are important to Liz's wellbeing, but asking for babysitting after three days without Liz seems egregious.
So, meltdown. T_T
Later, though, I got some good news. The car repair that I was so scared of ended up only costing $40. Now I know I can afford food. I shoul be okay on bills, with the possible exception of comcast, but they can pound sand anyway.
Still stressed out about all the help I'll need to move, and to keep working fridays (or maybe come in early one day?). I know I have people willing to help, but I don't want to wear them out or owe more than I can give.
This morning, I had a little bit of a meltdown after realizing that I couldn't afford to drop Liz off at daycare while I did 4hrs of work today. With taxes due, impending car repair, daycare payment due, and cable bill due, I was honestly worried that I couldn' afford food. Everything hit at once.
On top of that, I feel awful asking for help. I played a huge role in the failure of my marriage, of course, so I feel like I should take care of my own mess. Asking for babysitting or moving help seems selfish. I'd feel fine asking for money or for help getting the Con out of the house, because those things are important to Liz's wellbeing, but asking for babysitting after three days without Liz seems egregious.
So, meltdown. T_T
Later, though, I got some good news. The car repair that I was so scared of ended up only costing $40. Now I know I can afford food. I shoul be okay on bills, with the possible exception of comcast, but they can pound sand anyway.
Still stressed out about all the help I'll need to move, and to keep working fridays (or maybe come in early one day?). I know I have people willing to help, but I don't want to wear them out or owe more than I can give.