Tell Me This Gets Better.......
So 2008 has come and gone........
And in those 12 months I've gone through 2 bouts of unemployment, worked for 2 companies, and 2 break ups/2 boyfriends.
The entire year has been a roller coaster as life usually is but the last 3 weeks have been worst of all. Liam was acting strange so I called him and asked what was going on. Long story short, I was broken up with again. I am kicking myself for many reasons, one for confronting him, if I didn't say anything then he probably would have waited until now when the dust has settled from the holidays. Another reason is if things went better with his kids we'd still be together. All I wanted was a second chance with it, He knew I take longer to warm up to people, especially children. Everyone dropped the ball some way when it came to this issue. I understand he's looking out for their well being but why drop an otherwise fine relationship over something that can be fixed? He seemed so intent on marrying me too, I thought this was it, my dream was about to come true.
Now I sit here lonely, angry, bitter and confused. I might have pushed him too much over the last few weeks. This time of year isn't good for him and I hoped to have maybe changed that for the better. Last night I looked at his profile on Second Life and I've been taken out of his picks. I've got nothing against you Kaze and Rizzy, it just looks like he's washed his hands (Or paws in our case) of me right now. And that was pretty much another sharp twist to the dagger in my heart.
It's just going to take a long, long, long time to get over this. Our relationship may have been shorter than my first two. But this one is going to take longer to get over than those ones. Only because I became very attached to him in the short time our romance lived.......
On another note today marks the 7th anniversary of my dear daughter's passing.....
And in those 12 months I've gone through 2 bouts of unemployment, worked for 2 companies, and 2 break ups/2 boyfriends.
The entire year has been a roller coaster as life usually is but the last 3 weeks have been worst of all. Liam was acting strange so I called him and asked what was going on. Long story short, I was broken up with again. I am kicking myself for many reasons, one for confronting him, if I didn't say anything then he probably would have waited until now when the dust has settled from the holidays. Another reason is if things went better with his kids we'd still be together. All I wanted was a second chance with it, He knew I take longer to warm up to people, especially children. Everyone dropped the ball some way when it came to this issue. I understand he's looking out for their well being but why drop an otherwise fine relationship over something that can be fixed? He seemed so intent on marrying me too, I thought this was it, my dream was about to come true.
Now I sit here lonely, angry, bitter and confused. I might have pushed him too much over the last few weeks. This time of year isn't good for him and I hoped to have maybe changed that for the better. Last night I looked at his profile on Second Life and I've been taken out of his picks. I've got nothing against you Kaze and Rizzy, it just looks like he's washed his hands (Or paws in our case) of me right now. And that was pretty much another sharp twist to the dagger in my heart.
It's just going to take a long, long, long time to get over this. Our relationship may have been shorter than my first two. But this one is going to take longer to get over than those ones. Only because I became very attached to him in the short time our romance lived.......
On another note today marks the 7th anniversary of my dear daughter's passing.....