He's The only one I can rely on
Im finding that in time everything that I have done in my pathetic fat ass life has had its dirty shit holes and I seem to fall into them all.yet it always seems like no one has my back and the only one that I can rely on is God.Some how he always pulls me out and it all seems better.Sometimes I just get so sick of everything and I know everyone does, i get sick of my friends, family, school,teachers, homework and life essentailly.I guess the only thing that helps me keep my focus deep down inside under all the fake rubbish is God. Because lets face it kids if it werent for him I would have been gone about 5 years ago.
Anyways, Ive been quite sick went through tests and all that bullshit, so pretty much what it boils down to it that it has to be ovarian cysts or something like that. Im so scared, what if they put me on birth control,I'll be sooo fat cuz it makes you gain weight. I just cant handle that I get enough shit about my weight anyways by my doctor,parents, friends, accanatces about what a fat ass I am , i m not about to hear anymore of it.
steven and i broke up, hes done a great job at making me feel like a huge bitch and i applaud him.nothing is sound in the land of jess, the more time goes on the more I question myself and who I am and why I am so dumb.
Maybe it will pass.
I pray to keep heaven and send hell away,Hang my head,drown in fear until you all just disappear...black hole sun , wont you come and wash away the rain, black hole sun wont you come ? wont you come?
*peace*
Anyways, Ive been quite sick went through tests and all that bullshit, so pretty much what it boils down to it that it has to be ovarian cysts or something like that. Im so scared, what if they put me on birth control,I'll be sooo fat cuz it makes you gain weight. I just cant handle that I get enough shit about my weight anyways by my doctor,parents, friends, accanatces about what a fat ass I am , i m not about to hear anymore of it.
steven and i broke up, hes done a great job at making me feel like a huge bitch and i applaud him.nothing is sound in the land of jess, the more time goes on the more I question myself and who I am and why I am so dumb.
Maybe it will pass.
I pray to keep heaven and send hell away,Hang my head,drown in fear until you all just disappear...black hole sun , wont you come and wash away the rain, black hole sun wont you come ? wont you come?
*peace*