I decided
I cannot dwell on what isn't important.
I am going to concentrate on art, obviously my job isn't going to keep me afloat for very long, I couldn't even pay my whole rent this month.
Ontop of my car payments and insurance I cannot afford anything. Cameron has been helping pay my BILLS! The point of working is so you can sustain a living and be able to live within your means. I cannot. not at this rate. I might as well be jobless and be Cameron's house maid, I'd definately save money on gas, god knows he pays for everything else.
I'm going to have to start looking for other jobs, or hopefully I'll be working for myself.
I'm getting out of LA and away from all the fakeness.
I'm tired of peoples bullshit. People that you think care and really don't. Friends that feed their negative energy to me because they don't know how to deal with their own insecurities.
That's it.
Fuck this life, it's nothing.
Work work work work and just barely scrape by.
they keep you bearly on the verge so you can't get ontop.
It's not natural, life was not meant to be this way.
Everything feels so out of balance.
I feel guilty driving my car knowing the impact it's having in other parts of the world.
I hate computers, I hate money.
I don't want to be a part of it anymore. I want to have a clear concience.
Call me fucking crazy.
I'd rather live in the middle of nowhere, live off the land and wake up to the birds singing and the sun shining instead of gettig up to a buzzer and getting into a car and driving through traffic to a shitty job so you can pay to live in a shitty apartment and have only two days off to feel like you have a life, go to bars and drink all the time because there is nothing fulfilling to do.
This is such crap!
I want to enjoy life.
I am going to concentrate on art, obviously my job isn't going to keep me afloat for very long, I couldn't even pay my whole rent this month.
Ontop of my car payments and insurance I cannot afford anything. Cameron has been helping pay my BILLS! The point of working is so you can sustain a living and be able to live within your means. I cannot. not at this rate. I might as well be jobless and be Cameron's house maid, I'd definately save money on gas, god knows he pays for everything else.
I'm going to have to start looking for other jobs, or hopefully I'll be working for myself.
I'm getting out of LA and away from all the fakeness.
I'm tired of peoples bullshit. People that you think care and really don't. Friends that feed their negative energy to me because they don't know how to deal with their own insecurities.
That's it.
Fuck this life, it's nothing.
Work work work work and just barely scrape by.
they keep you bearly on the verge so you can't get ontop.
It's not natural, life was not meant to be this way.
Everything feels so out of balance.
I feel guilty driving my car knowing the impact it's having in other parts of the world.
I hate computers, I hate money.
I don't want to be a part of it anymore. I want to have a clear concience.
Call me fucking crazy.
I'd rather live in the middle of nowhere, live off the land and wake up to the birds singing and the sun shining instead of gettig up to a buzzer and getting into a car and driving through traffic to a shitty job so you can pay to live in a shitty apartment and have only two days off to feel like you have a life, go to bars and drink all the time because there is nothing fulfilling to do.
This is such crap!
I want to enjoy life.