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I haven't updated this in forever.
But even though so much has happened between when I last updated and now, I feel no need to really explain anything.
I've been feeling pretty mellow lately.
All I want to do is lay in my bed and think about everything.
Or else go on a really long country cruise listening to death cab or straylight run.
Or maybe go on a hike in the evening when the sun makes everything look 10 times better than in the afternoon.
I've been feeling pretty antisocial lately.
There are only a few people I feel like being around and those are the people that allow me to be mellow.
Basically, Bladen and Renee.
Sometimes I feel like I can't be myself around other people.
Just because my real personality has so many layers and I don't let many people see it.
I am a huge nature lover. Most people don't know that.
I absolutely love intellectual conversations.
Another thing most people don't know.
I love fantasy and being a dork.
I love power.
Probably not the power that most people think of.
I love self-power. Meaning, you yourself have the ability to do anything.
I love anything dealing with the mind and exploring my own limits.
But so few people know this about me..
I need a good intellectual talk.
Just to know that someone is on the same page as me.
I need a day off where the weather is absolutely beautiful so I can get in touch with nature.
I just need someone to understand where I am coming from.
I've been feeling so out of place lately.
So many people are so materialistic [I go through moods where I am..]
and so many people only focus on the small obstacles.
I am in a stage where I'm not even looking at obstacles.
I'm just..
I don't know.
I want to go to Starved Rock really bad.