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hello again, peoples... not much to say other than i miss you guys. Being on here just isn't the same. I'm sorry, but I don't wish to return back to school... Being there for me is hell on earth. I feel trapped, so trapped mentally. I dont want to learn about anymore. If it is something that I'd like to learn about I will ask for it. If not, i really dont want to take the class... sigh... rachi, i misses you a whole lot. call me when u get back if you havent already. go to this site and plz!!! listen to my friend who sings!!! he is awesome, and his name is matt. I met him on Final fantasy 11 a while ago.
http://myspace.com/ifitis
I dont really know ><. I don't know what I can do about how I feel anymore. It's like a life cycle. You're born... you learn new things... then a little further down the line you start thinking about it more deeply.. you become sad in life. You dont know where to turn. Soon you grow out of it and then you die shortly after. To me I die inside. Once I hit that one place where i just cant take being without him anymore I die. But then the process repeats you see... The dying doesnt end it for me. I still love him, even though I know he can never love me back. Not that he wants to anyway. I've done so much wrong to him, i've treated him so bad. The more I think about it, the more I'm sure he'll hate me. But still, I keep searching.... to find him. Will finding him do anything? And, what if I do, then what. He wont know me. It'll never be 'him'. The pieces dont fit, even if i carved them myself. there is nothing I can do to help. It could never be. I wont ever forget this. I'll search till I die, and this time, it will be on the outside.
I love you Zeppo.
http://myspace.com/ifitis
I dont really know ><. I don't know what I can do about how I feel anymore. It's like a life cycle. You're born... you learn new things... then a little further down the line you start thinking about it more deeply.. you become sad in life. You dont know where to turn. Soon you grow out of it and then you die shortly after. To me I die inside. Once I hit that one place where i just cant take being without him anymore I die. But then the process repeats you see... The dying doesnt end it for me. I still love him, even though I know he can never love me back. Not that he wants to anyway. I've done so much wrong to him, i've treated him so bad. The more I think about it, the more I'm sure he'll hate me. But still, I keep searching.... to find him. Will finding him do anything? And, what if I do, then what. He wont know me. It'll never be 'him'. The pieces dont fit, even if i carved them myself. there is nothing I can do to help. It could never be. I wont ever forget this. I'll search till I die, and this time, it will be on the outside.
I love you Zeppo.