It's been a while
So yeah, it's been quite some time since the last time i've updated this thing. It's hard to believe, but there's only a few weeks left of this semester, then comes one of the biggest adventures of my life...moving out of my house. Starting this summer, i'm going to be living in Kzoo, at least until i graduate that is. It'll be weird, not going home for the summer, but in a way, i need this. I need to start truely living on my own, because in a few years, i'm gonna have to whether i like it or not. The past few months have become rediculous, so much drama, actually, it's kinda funny, because the ones involved in this absolutely hate drama. So here's the scoop for those of you out of the loop: I have deep feelings for my friend, she has the same feelings, only for a different guy (who is one of my fraternity brothers). He has feelings for her, but does not want to hurt me, so he refuses to date her, even though they have been screwing around with each other. So those two have been going at it, and she wants a solid yes or no, he said no. She's been a mess, and where have i been? I've been consoling her this whole time, building up this rage for my own brother because of his actions to the girl i have these feelings for. Before this, the three of us were best friends. I was cool with them dating, but he didnt want to believe it, also it doesn't help that he feels that a bottle of whiskey is the best companion. Now they dont talk, they just send each other a message on AIM, which is killing her. It kills me to see her cry, but it's nessissary if they will ever start to be friends again. The only thing i can do now is be there for her. My brother on the other hand, i know he'll be fine, he's had to deal with this kind of shit before. I hold no grudge against him, how could i, no matter what he does, he's still my fraternity brother. I just can't wait for this semester to end. Too much shit. But then, i look back at this year and think how much i have grown ( no not physically, although that would be nice). I look back and think about how green i was as a leader, and now, i've grown stronger (even though i still have a ways to go). I've noticed my brothers also growing, we've started to become more professional, and soon we'll be a chapter. I feel as if i'm getting old, stress does that i hear, but i didnt think i had that much stress, that is until i started to find a grey hair here and there. I need a vacation. Many things to look forward to, but above everything else is summer. So until then, adieu.