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pretty sure I've lost my best friend. I dont know about other people, but I wouldn't do things I knew would hurt my friends, none the less really fuckin hurt. I'm tired of being stoic. People have always said I'm strong to be able to deal with the extremes that I do, but I dont think they realize how it still really fuckin hurts. I'm not going to deal with it this time. Even if that means saying bye to my best friend.
And of course with the situation of this, many more things come to an end. They will continue to cycle on, as I predicted they would, but my afiliation will not be with them, until they themselves truly change. It hurts, but not nearly as much as continuously going through it.
It took down all my pictures earlier. I'm saddened by the fact they were put up for the same reason they were taken down.
I went to count my losses earlier. It's not pretty. Sadly, I've realized that my time is pointless here right now. I haven't learned a thing. English we're just writing papers. We're not learning how, we're just writing. Art History, no one knows what we're doing in there. Sculpture, we're just making things. Drawing, I'm kinda learning things, but not where I can do shit. I'm not doing a single thing that I will be doing in my job.
I went by hess express to buy bowls to eat out of. I saw ali there. Neither of us seemed to have a reaction pleasing towards the other. I didn't realize it till afterwards because I had a lot on my mind. I dont know how that will work out. I'm not feeling anything about it yet, and I dont know if I will. So I went out back to Clement to eat. Food always tries to make me happier. I set the bowls down on my desk, and went to my bag that has all my food in it.
Wave of Lag: so, what are you doing for food?
OrphynSiaette: starving
Wave of Lag: :-(
If this was a comedy, it'd be quite humerous, but this is more of a tragedy, so it's really really sad. If I didn't have a headache, I probably would have just sat down on the floor and cried.
And of course with the situation of this, many more things come to an end. They will continue to cycle on, as I predicted they would, but my afiliation will not be with them, until they themselves truly change. It hurts, but not nearly as much as continuously going through it.
It took down all my pictures earlier. I'm saddened by the fact they were put up for the same reason they were taken down.
I went to count my losses earlier. It's not pretty. Sadly, I've realized that my time is pointless here right now. I haven't learned a thing. English we're just writing papers. We're not learning how, we're just writing. Art History, no one knows what we're doing in there. Sculpture, we're just making things. Drawing, I'm kinda learning things, but not where I can do shit. I'm not doing a single thing that I will be doing in my job.
I went by hess express to buy bowls to eat out of. I saw ali there. Neither of us seemed to have a reaction pleasing towards the other. I didn't realize it till afterwards because I had a lot on my mind. I dont know how that will work out. I'm not feeling anything about it yet, and I dont know if I will. So I went out back to Clement to eat. Food always tries to make me happier. I set the bowls down on my desk, and went to my bag that has all my food in it.
Wave of Lag: so, what are you doing for food?
OrphynSiaette: starving
Wave of Lag: :-(
If this was a comedy, it'd be quite humerous, but this is more of a tragedy, so it's really really sad. If I didn't have a headache, I probably would have just sat down on the floor and cried.