Crimson Fate
Title : Crimson Fate - Part 5
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-15 (For Violance and Dark Theme)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YutoYama
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary : I have always wondered, why does this world have never been fair to the likes of us ? Was it so wrong to be born like this ? Do we have to be blamed for the fate we can't choose ? If so, then why did God created us ? Is there a purpose yet to be known for our existence ? Is there a meaning at all for us to continue living in this world where we could only suffer ?
Author's Note : The story was inspired heavily by anime Tokyo Ghoul.. Some of you who haven't watched or read Tokyo Ghoul might will be a little confused, so I will give a little explanation after the story, along with some other info you might want to know..
*Crimson Fate - Part 5*
“That was pretty much the story behind our past.” My brother ended his story with a long sigh. “I found out about it just a few years back. When I met Nakajima-sensei and he told me everything.”
“I never knew...”
I heard Yuto trailed off on my side, and when I turned my head, I saw him having this bewildered look on his face.
“Of course you don’t.” My brother said. “Nakajima-sensei thought that you were too young to know. He told me you’ll have to know eventually, just not that soon. In the end, I’m the one to drop the bomb for you.”
“So, why Aogiri ?” I finally asked the question which had been lingering inside my mind since he started his story.
“Because Nakajima-sensei recommended me to.” Said my brother, his tone careful as if he was trying not to voice out the wrong word. “Don’t take it the wrong way, please. I know Aogiri had been a rather bad influence in our world, and that they had done quite some of dirty works here and there. But despite anything, Aogiri is the only organization which held every single secrets no one else had ever heard off. By being the most ancient, Aogiri is also the most trusted in keeping secrets, and in a way, traditions, so that they will live on through generations.”
“By secrets, you don’t mean-“ I frowned as I voiced out my fear.
“The whole truth behind Tatsuhiro-san’s motive in pursuing his vision appears to be one of them. Nakajima-san only told me the parts in which he himself was involved. And from Aogiri, I finally figured out the whole picture.” My brother said in a whisper, his eyes shooting concerned look at me. “And with Tatsuhiro-san as the key-person of this mission gone, no one could really follow his lead, so the project was left as it is. Which, I personally thought the best option there is. I really hope it will be buried deep in a place where no one is even possible to take a slight peek.”
“What is it ? Father’s motive and the whole project and everything.” I urged my brother to tell me more. “Tell me !”
But he only shook his head softly.
“You don’t want to hear about it, Ryosuke.” He gently told me. “And I will not start about it either. What you just heard, was enough of a story that you should now.”
I stared hard at my brother, thinking of the best words to make him talk.
“But above everything, I just want you to know, that back then, even being young and oblivious, I shouldn’t have pushed you away.” My brother beat me in talking, again. “But I did, and nothing I do could undone what had been done. And while it’s true that my reason in joining Aogiri was to find the whole truth, the other reason was so I could search for you, to tell you how sorry I was for neglecting your feelings and judging you selfishly.”
I looked down, suddenly finding the hem of my shirt very interesting.
“And I just wanted you to know, that I don’t blame you for anything that had happened. And I’m sure, Mother felt the same too. Despite her cold attitude and all, I’m sure she actually cared a lot about you. Because if she didn’t, she wouldn’t looked into your photoalbum every night with tears streaming down her cheeks. Because if she didn’t, she wouldn’t sneaked into your room, watching you sleep while caressing your hair softly, murmuring broken lullaby every single night. Because if she didn’t, she would fight back, and saved her own life from you. She was just too broken, and confused, and betrayed, and admitting her love for you would just be a reminder of how she had let herself deceived by Tatsuhiro-san, and it stabbed her like a thousand knives, so she couldn’t bring herself to acknowledge your very presence. At least not openly.”
I didn’t even realized since when have I been crying, but when I looked up, I found my brother right in front of me, his thumb softly wiping the tears off of my eyes.
“Mother loves you, Ryosuke. Even when she tried to deny it herself. I am a living evidence of that truth. So please, stop blaming yourself for what happened because it was never your fault.”
“But, but I-“
“Shh. No buts.” Before I could react, my brother already pulled me into a warm hug. “I’m here telling you stories so that you’d know about the truth. And stop blaming yourself and freed yourself from the bound you chained yourself into. That’s why, you should just let it out, and keep the past in the past.”
I tried to break free from my brother’s hold, but as seconds past, I found my will leaving me. And before long, I started wailing on his chest. I felt the weight on my side leaving, and I somehow felt Yuto quietly leaving, perhaps thinking of giving the two brothers their personal time, and I was grateful.
Because this very moment, I need nothing but my brother’s presence.
***
In the end, I still couldn’t get an answer behind that ambush when they took Yuto hostage. But according to Kota-san, since Akanishi is a big guy with random acts, the attack was most probably Akanishi’s idea after all. It always slipped my mind when I’m talking with my brother, and as time passed, I thought that I didn’t have to ask anyway.
It was quite a surprise though -a pleasant one- when one day, the Nakajima couple dropped by and paid us a visit. Their intention, of course, was to checked on their son. But I found this as a chance to thanked them properly. And so when they were putting off their luggage inside Yuto’s room, with Yuto packing his nightly needs inside a small backpack, I decided to say my greetings.
“Oh, Ryosuke-kun ! Come in, come in !” Nakajima senior ushered me to step inside. “I’m really sorry for the inconvenience, because we had to stay for the night, you have to share room with our Yuto.”
“It’s okay. I don’t mind.” I gave them a low shrug before moving to help them unpack their things.
“Oh, please, don’t bother yourself. We’re fine, really.” Yuto’s mother told me.
“It’s okay. I want to help anyway.” I gave the woman a smile, in which she just nodded her head with a soft smile.
“If you say so then.”
For a while, the four of us worked in silence. It took only a couple of minutes to take care of their things, for there weren’t that many to begin with. Yuumiko-san thanked me while Nakajima-san gave a soft pat on my head.
“You’re much more helpful than Yuto here, who only care about his own things.”
“Hey, I did help, too !” The said boy whined.
They fell into a crisp laughter, in which I could only see awkwardly. After a moment, I took a deep breath and bowed deeply.
“Nakajima-san, I really really thank you for everything you have done ! You’ve helped me a great deal, and I don’t know how could I ever repay your kindness !” I blurted out things before I lost my courage.
A silent followed soon after I said those words. That is before a pair of hands rested on my shoulder, and lifting me up. And as I looked up, I saw Nakajima-san’s brown eyes looking back at me warmly.
“I suppose Tomohisa-kun had told you everything, no ?” He asked softly, in which I nodded my head. “You don’t have to thank me for anything, son. Don’t you think it was natural to help each other ? Especially those in real need of our help ?”
Again, I nodded.
“And so I was only doing the natural. I believe if the situation is reversed, you would do the same to us.”
“But I might not. I might be a bad person.” I argued.
“Of course you are not a bad person. Just one look and people would know how lovely you are. Look at Yuto. He is a victim to your loveliness at first sight. You don’t know how much he sulked when you moved here. It took us a lot of time before deciding that it’s probably best for you to stay close after all. That’s why we sent Yuto here.” A teasing smile is playing on the man’s lips as he took a small glance at his son who is blushing deep shade of red on the side.
Looking at the scene, I couldn’t helped but form a small smile myself.
“But really, thank you.”
***
The Nakajima couple left as soon as the came. But before they departed, they managed to told us a bit of information.
“Things have been steady as of lately. I’m not sure what kind of outcome awaits after this, but I could assure you that for the time being, no harm will be brought to us. We have also made an agreement with the doves and the government, and they had agreed to stop hunting us as long as we don’t make a scene. They will still make a move to our kinds who still preyed on living human though, but he will leave us alone otherwise.” He said while fixing his coat.
“So far so good.” Yabu-san commented lightly from the side.
“Everything went according to plan.” Nakajima-san added. “And I really hope this is the path to reach that world we dreamt of. The world where we stand on equal ground with humans.”
“We hope so too.” Kei-san said from his corner, a grinning Hikaru-san sipping on his coffee on his side.
“Let’s just work our best to achieve it, everyone. I’m sure that our efforts won’t go to waste, that’s for sure.”
And with that last sentence, the couple left.
“I never knew that Yuto-kun’s parents are in close terms with Yabu-san and the gank.” Dai-chan said after the two left.
“Yuya-san told me that they always visit them every once in a while, discussing about things.” Keito told the shorter boy as he moved toward the counter.
“Wha- You never told me !” Dai-chan protested, all the while pointing accussing finger at the younger boy.
“You never asked.” Keito simply shrugged before pulling out his rug and wipe the counter.
Dai-chan is about to argue back when Yabu-san stepped in between their fight.
“Let’s stop here, shall we ? It’s almost opening time and we still have a lot to do. Daiki-kun, shouldn’t you be arranging your mixer ? It’s Wednesday and everyone is always looking forward for DJ Daiki on Wednesday night. Can’t have our customers dissapointed, can we ?” Yabu-san pointed at the equipment by the corner, in which Dai-chan just pouted but stomped his feet toward the said mixer anyway.
“I’m just glad everything turned out fine in the end.”
I took a side glance and found Yuto stretching his arms on my side.
“Say, wanna watch some movie tonight ? My treat.” He offered me with a goofy grin.
“Sorry, not tonight. I have a promise with Yuuri.” I told him flatly and heard him groan in annoyance.
“Yuuri again ? Why is it that everytime I asked you out you always have a promise with that squirrel ?! Don’t tell me you love him more than me ?” The tall boy complained with a depressed sigh.
I burst out for a good laugh at his childish remarks.
“It’s almost exam, Nakajima. Of course I’m having lots of promises with Yuuri and other students. We’re cramming for a group-study. It’s not a matter of who loves who more.” I shook my head with a small chuckle.
“Then can I come to your group-study too ? I can help.” Yuto tried.
“You can’t.” I shook my head firmly.
“Why ?” There goes his whine.
“Because you’ll do anything but help if you tag along. And I think it’s weird to suddenly bring another friend to our group-study.” I told him matter-of-factly. “You can just help Dai-chan out or something. You’re good with music, right ?”
“But still...” I could almost heard a pout from his voice. Almost.
“Oh, come on. You can show me what you’ve tried with Dai-chan when I got home, right ? I promise I will be back before show time.”
I turned myself his way to find him staring back at me with sparkly, filled with determination look.
“I’ll work hard then ! Just you see, Ryo-chan ! I will make blow you out of my mind with my performance !”
‘Our performance, you mean.’ I corrected him inside my mind. But seeing as how excited he had been, I decided to let it go.
“Well, I guess it’s about time for me to leave. I’ll just take my bag first before heading out.” I looked at my watch before leaving the room, feeling Yuto following closely behind.
“You’re going alone ?” He asked from behind me.
“My brother will take me there.” I told him.
Ever since that fateful day, I felt that my bond with my brother had deepened. We often chat and my brother always dropped me off to school or if I have a group-study like this. And if I happened to have a long schedule, he would also picked me up. It was a surprise the first time it happened, to have my brother waiting with his bike in front of the school-gates. It’s a little shameful, for I’m no longer little kids who need to be taken care of, but I don’t hate it either.
Yuto was whining about it, telling me how I spent more times with my brother than I did with him. But I know that he’s happy to find me slowly mending my wound and letting go of the past to start anew.
Come to think of it, Yuto had always been the one who understood me best. Staying by my side almost all the time, and keeping his distance when I need time for myself. He didn’t bother me when I’m bonding with someone too, rather he took the time to make his own bond with the rest of us, making them closer than they had been. Now that I look back, I have a lot to thank Yuto for.
“Thank you, Yuto.” I softly whispered to myself, half-hoping the said boy will heard me.
“Hmm ? What is it, Ryo-chan ?”
Even so, I’m somehow pleasantly glad he didn’t hear me anyway, so I stood up and flashing him a wide smile.
“Nothing. I will be going then. See you later, Yutti~”
The nickname had seemingly had the desired effect because the next moment Yuto broke into a wide grin and jumped at me with a bone-crushing hug.
“See you later, Ryo-chan~ I love you~”
*END OF STORY*
Aaaaand that's a wrap !
Otsukaresamadeshita~ >,<
I started this one as a gore, dark-themed story (thus the rating), but for some reason, it ended up with a fluff..
Sometimes I just can't understand myself.. *sighs*
Well anyway, a story is done with~ Time to pick up the rest~
Please enjoy and drop your critics here~
I mean, I know I've been a disappointment with this random ending after disappearing for a long time.. *nervouslaugh*