Ao ~Blue~
Title : Ao ~Blue~
Part 4 - Space
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YutoYama [from now on, I'm going to use this call for this pairing.. >,< ]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary : Ever since he was a little child, he had always loved the stars.. Ever since he was a little child, he had always wanted to be a star.. But as he grew up, big and famous and at the top -finally a star- he wished that he never wished to be star since the very beginning..
Author's Note : The song used in this part is Bird by Matsushita Yuya~
So, hope you enjoyed this~ >,<
Ao ~Blue~
Part 4 - Space
Ryosuke winced as he raised his hand to massage his slightly aching head. It had been happening since he first woke up in the morning, but Ryosuke tried to ignore it, thinking that he might just overworked himself the other day.
It’d been a week since his release from the hospital, and Ryosuke felt healthy enough when he decided that he wanted to try doing some dancing with the rest of his bandmates. It was still unfamiliar, and he still had times when he thought that he’s dreaming, but he’s an entertainer -or so those people said- and he felt a sense of responsibility about his job.
The whole group had a meeting two days ago with the director of the agency he’s in -Johnny-san as they subbed it- and made a decision that Ryosuke will still appear in the upcoming concert, only in a much fewer portion. He won’t take part on any performance which consists many hard choreography, and isn’t allowed to run around the stage. As an addition, they had also cancelled Ryosuke’s solo corner and changed it into Jr.’s corner instead.
Johnny-san told them that the news about his accident was widely known, so they could make it a reason for Ryosuke’s lack of appearances on the concert. But the fact that he lost his memories was still kept as a secret, so Ryosuke has to do his best to look assuring. The agency had agreed that they will relied on lip-sync for Ryosuke’s singing parts only, but he still has many lines to remember as to not embarass himself by mouthing the wrong words.
Johnny-san complained about the fans who would certainly feel displeased this time, and Ryosuke felt utterly guilty that he bowed down so low at him. But the old man just chuckled as he shook his head. He told him not to think about it. Instead of feeling down, he should make this a stepping stone and leapt higher in the future. He gave his shoulder an encouraging squeeze, and then his bandmates assured him that they will be alright, that they will work twice or even thrice harder to make sure that the fans won’t even think about feeling displeased by their concert. And it touched Ryosuke badly that he swore to himself to work harder than anyone to be able to answer everyone’s expectations.
But saying was a lot easier than the actual thing itself. Ryosuke felt so frustated at failing over and over again at a simple move, and despite everyone telling him to don’t mind it, he can’t stop himself from feeling that he’s pulling everyone’s legs instead. And to make it worse, he wasn’t able to remember the lyrics of any songs at all that day, and it frustated him more.
Yuto tried to encouraged him by saying that he failed because he overthink about the whole issue and thus, trying a little too hard that he failed instead. The tall boy told him to relax more, to let his body react spontanously rather than to think over it. Ryosuke had tried, to do as he was told, but somehow, he just can’t do it.
He was about to cry when the practice is over and Yuto gave him a sympathetic smile before the tall boy pulled him into a comforting embrace. He said that there is always tomorrow to improve himself and told him that he should let himself rest for the day. Ryosuke just nodded his head, while silently vowing that he will not make a fool of himself anymore the next day.
And true to be told, after a one night long marathon-ing Hey! Say! JUMP’s PVs and concert DVDs, he had made a great improvement the day after. He felt guilty somehow for staying up all night instead of resting as Yuto told him, but he just had to do it. That was the least he could do for his bandmates, and for Yuto personally.
But it seems that yesterday’s hard work had took it’s toll on him today when he woke up with a splitting headache. But he has practice today, and he doesn’t want to burden his bandmates more than that, so he gulped down an aspirin down to his throat and get ready for the day.
“Are ? What’s wrong with you, Ryosuke ?”
The called boy just smiled at his mother’s question before he sat himself on the dining table, waiting for the breakfast to be served.
“It’s nothing, Mom.”
“But you looked awful.” His mother doesn’t seemed to be convinced as she reached over the kitchen counter and placed her hand on his forehead. “You’re warm. Why don’t you take it easy today and rest at home instead ?”
“I’m just a little tired.” He tried to reasoned out as he gently pushed the hand away. And when his mother gave him a disapproving look, he smiled. “I really am fine, Mom. Look, I promise I will not overwork myself at practice today, alright ?”
His mother just shook her head as she walked away. “Really. Why am I surrounded by hard-headed people in this house ?” She whined playfully as she returned to her cooking. “Fine. You are allowed to go out. But make sure you keep that promise of yours, young man !” She turned around and gave him her infamous glare which made Ryosuke gulped.
“Very well, Ma’am.” He squeaked from his seat and earned a chuckle from his Mother.
“I’ll call Yuto-kun just in case.” His Mother winked and he could only groaned.
***
“Are you sure you are okay ?”
Ryosuke sighed as he heard the same question for the umptenth times today. This is why he didn’t want his Mother to tell Yuto about this. It’s not that he hated the concern the taller boy is giving to him, it’s just, being worried over all the time kinda made him felt suffocated somehow.
“I’m fine, Yuto-kun.” He forced a smile even when he felt like a big hammer is hitting his head over and over again.
“Really ?” Yuto tried.
“Yeah.” He nodded his head ever so slowly, careful not to worsen his headache.
“Do you-“
“Yuto ! We need to talk about your drums’ solo !” Yabu’s voice suddenly rang from across the room, and Ryosuke silently thanked the oldest JUMP member for the interruption.
“In a second !” Yuto shouted at JUMP’s unofficial leader before he turned back at Ryosuke. “You wait here, okay ? I’ll be right back.”
Ryosuke just smiled as he ushered the taller boy to just go. And with one last apologetic look, Yuto fled to the other side of the room, leaving a sighing Ryosuke plopping onto a nearby couch.
“What’s the matter ?”
Ryosuke, who had just closed his eyes quickly reopened them at the new voice and found Daiki plopped down next to him. He gave the older boy a sheepish smile which had Daiki rolled his eyes.
“Told you not to be so proper with me, right ?”
“Sorry.” Ryosuke mumbled lowly. “Can’t helped it.” He scratched the back of his head awkwardly.
“Yeah, yeah.” Daiki shrugged nonchalantly as he plopped down next to him. “So, what’s the matter ?” He repeated his question before gulping down the water from the bottle he brought.
“It’s nothing.” Ryosuke shook his head as he spoke softly.
“You know that it’s not nothing, so why bother deceiving yourself.” Commented the older lighlty, this time wiping the sweat with the back of his hand.
Ryosuke gulped at the statement made by the boy on his side. He took a careful glance to where Yuto just went to, before sighing deeply.
“It is somehow suffocating, Yuto-kun’s concern that is.” He started. “I’m not saying that I hate it, it’s just, I hope that he will stop pestering me all the time. I need space, and I don’t need him watching over me twenty four-seven. And in addition, I feel like I’m burdening him with the necessity of taking a responsibility over me somehow.”
And to his surprise, instead of comforting words or the likes, Ryosuke received a laughter instead. A deep and long laughter.
“D-Daiki-kun ?” He tried, all the while moving back a few inch in the process just in case the other boy break.
“S-sorry.” Daiki said in between his breaths as he wiped the tear from the corner of his eyes. “It’s just, oh God, you’re just so clueless that it’s hilarious somehow.”
“Excuse me ?” Ryosuke raised his eyebrow, feeling somehow offended by his words.
“No offence here.” Daiki spreaded both his arms to signaled him that he meant no harm. “But let me tell you something: You should stop worrying over this thought. Yuto had always been like that -especially to you-, and if you felt uncomfortable with his affections, you tell him directly, that you need space for your own. I’m sure he will understand if you tell him nicely. In the meantime, why don’t you try and figure it out by yourself ? About why Yuto would do that far for you and all ? And when you do, I want you to ask yourself, about how do you feel about that ?”
“Ha ?” Ryosuke make a confused face, but the older boy just smiled before giving his head a pat.
“Good luck !” He beamed before dashing off, leaving Ryosuke with his thoughts.
~~~tbc
Anyone still following this one ? *sighs*
Well anyway, comments are appreciated as usual~ >,<
Part 4 - Space
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YutoYama [from now on, I'm going to use this call for this pairing.. >,< ]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary : Ever since he was a little child, he had always loved the stars.. Ever since he was a little child, he had always wanted to be a star.. But as he grew up, big and famous and at the top -finally a star- he wished that he never wished to be star since the very beginning..
Author's Note : The song used in this part is Bird by Matsushita Yuya~
So, hope you enjoyed this~ >,<
Ao ~Blue~
Part 4 - Space
Ryosuke winced as he raised his hand to massage his slightly aching head. It had been happening since he first woke up in the morning, but Ryosuke tried to ignore it, thinking that he might just overworked himself the other day.
It’d been a week since his release from the hospital, and Ryosuke felt healthy enough when he decided that he wanted to try doing some dancing with the rest of his bandmates. It was still unfamiliar, and he still had times when he thought that he’s dreaming, but he’s an entertainer -or so those people said- and he felt a sense of responsibility about his job.
The whole group had a meeting two days ago with the director of the agency he’s in -Johnny-san as they subbed it- and made a decision that Ryosuke will still appear in the upcoming concert, only in a much fewer portion. He won’t take part on any performance which consists many hard choreography, and isn’t allowed to run around the stage. As an addition, they had also cancelled Ryosuke’s solo corner and changed it into Jr.’s corner instead.
Johnny-san told them that the news about his accident was widely known, so they could make it a reason for Ryosuke’s lack of appearances on the concert. But the fact that he lost his memories was still kept as a secret, so Ryosuke has to do his best to look assuring. The agency had agreed that they will relied on lip-sync for Ryosuke’s singing parts only, but he still has many lines to remember as to not embarass himself by mouthing the wrong words.
Johnny-san complained about the fans who would certainly feel displeased this time, and Ryosuke felt utterly guilty that he bowed down so low at him. But the old man just chuckled as he shook his head. He told him not to think about it. Instead of feeling down, he should make this a stepping stone and leapt higher in the future. He gave his shoulder an encouraging squeeze, and then his bandmates assured him that they will be alright, that they will work twice or even thrice harder to make sure that the fans won’t even think about feeling displeased by their concert. And it touched Ryosuke badly that he swore to himself to work harder than anyone to be able to answer everyone’s expectations.
But saying was a lot easier than the actual thing itself. Ryosuke felt so frustated at failing over and over again at a simple move, and despite everyone telling him to don’t mind it, he can’t stop himself from feeling that he’s pulling everyone’s legs instead. And to make it worse, he wasn’t able to remember the lyrics of any songs at all that day, and it frustated him more.
Yuto tried to encouraged him by saying that he failed because he overthink about the whole issue and thus, trying a little too hard that he failed instead. The tall boy told him to relax more, to let his body react spontanously rather than to think over it. Ryosuke had tried, to do as he was told, but somehow, he just can’t do it.
He was about to cry when the practice is over and Yuto gave him a sympathetic smile before the tall boy pulled him into a comforting embrace. He said that there is always tomorrow to improve himself and told him that he should let himself rest for the day. Ryosuke just nodded his head, while silently vowing that he will not make a fool of himself anymore the next day.
And true to be told, after a one night long marathon-ing Hey! Say! JUMP’s PVs and concert DVDs, he had made a great improvement the day after. He felt guilty somehow for staying up all night instead of resting as Yuto told him, but he just had to do it. That was the least he could do for his bandmates, and for Yuto personally.
But it seems that yesterday’s hard work had took it’s toll on him today when he woke up with a splitting headache. But he has practice today, and he doesn’t want to burden his bandmates more than that, so he gulped down an aspirin down to his throat and get ready for the day.
“Are ? What’s wrong with you, Ryosuke ?”
The called boy just smiled at his mother’s question before he sat himself on the dining table, waiting for the breakfast to be served.
“It’s nothing, Mom.”
“But you looked awful.” His mother doesn’t seemed to be convinced as she reached over the kitchen counter and placed her hand on his forehead. “You’re warm. Why don’t you take it easy today and rest at home instead ?”
“I’m just a little tired.” He tried to reasoned out as he gently pushed the hand away. And when his mother gave him a disapproving look, he smiled. “I really am fine, Mom. Look, I promise I will not overwork myself at practice today, alright ?”
His mother just shook her head as she walked away. “Really. Why am I surrounded by hard-headed people in this house ?” She whined playfully as she returned to her cooking. “Fine. You are allowed to go out. But make sure you keep that promise of yours, young man !” She turned around and gave him her infamous glare which made Ryosuke gulped.
“Very well, Ma’am.” He squeaked from his seat and earned a chuckle from his Mother.
“I’ll call Yuto-kun just in case.” His Mother winked and he could only groaned.
***
“Are you sure you are okay ?”
Ryosuke sighed as he heard the same question for the umptenth times today. This is why he didn’t want his Mother to tell Yuto about this. It’s not that he hated the concern the taller boy is giving to him, it’s just, being worried over all the time kinda made him felt suffocated somehow.
“I’m fine, Yuto-kun.” He forced a smile even when he felt like a big hammer is hitting his head over and over again.
“Really ?” Yuto tried.
“Yeah.” He nodded his head ever so slowly, careful not to worsen his headache.
“Do you-“
“Yuto ! We need to talk about your drums’ solo !” Yabu’s voice suddenly rang from across the room, and Ryosuke silently thanked the oldest JUMP member for the interruption.
“In a second !” Yuto shouted at JUMP’s unofficial leader before he turned back at Ryosuke. “You wait here, okay ? I’ll be right back.”
Ryosuke just smiled as he ushered the taller boy to just go. And with one last apologetic look, Yuto fled to the other side of the room, leaving a sighing Ryosuke plopping onto a nearby couch.
“What’s the matter ?”
Ryosuke, who had just closed his eyes quickly reopened them at the new voice and found Daiki plopped down next to him. He gave the older boy a sheepish smile which had Daiki rolled his eyes.
“Told you not to be so proper with me, right ?”
“Sorry.” Ryosuke mumbled lowly. “Can’t helped it.” He scratched the back of his head awkwardly.
“Yeah, yeah.” Daiki shrugged nonchalantly as he plopped down next to him. “So, what’s the matter ?” He repeated his question before gulping down the water from the bottle he brought.
“It’s nothing.” Ryosuke shook his head as he spoke softly.
“You know that it’s not nothing, so why bother deceiving yourself.” Commented the older lighlty, this time wiping the sweat with the back of his hand.
Ryosuke gulped at the statement made by the boy on his side. He took a careful glance to where Yuto just went to, before sighing deeply.
“It is somehow suffocating, Yuto-kun’s concern that is.” He started. “I’m not saying that I hate it, it’s just, I hope that he will stop pestering me all the time. I need space, and I don’t need him watching over me twenty four-seven. And in addition, I feel like I’m burdening him with the necessity of taking a responsibility over me somehow.”
And to his surprise, instead of comforting words or the likes, Ryosuke received a laughter instead. A deep and long laughter.
“D-Daiki-kun ?” He tried, all the while moving back a few inch in the process just in case the other boy break.
“S-sorry.” Daiki said in between his breaths as he wiped the tear from the corner of his eyes. “It’s just, oh God, you’re just so clueless that it’s hilarious somehow.”
“Excuse me ?” Ryosuke raised his eyebrow, feeling somehow offended by his words.
“No offence here.” Daiki spreaded both his arms to signaled him that he meant no harm. “But let me tell you something: You should stop worrying over this thought. Yuto had always been like that -especially to you-, and if you felt uncomfortable with his affections, you tell him directly, that you need space for your own. I’m sure he will understand if you tell him nicely. In the meantime, why don’t you try and figure it out by yourself ? About why Yuto would do that far for you and all ? And when you do, I want you to ask yourself, about how do you feel about that ?”
“Ha ?” Ryosuke make a confused face, but the older boy just smiled before giving his head a pat.
“Good luck !” He beamed before dashing off, leaving Ryosuke with his thoughts.
~~~tbc
Anyone still following this one ? *sighs*
Well anyway, comments are appreciated as usual~ >,<