Aruite Ikou ~I Will Walk~
Title : Aruite Ikou ~I Will Walk~
Part 2
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary : Two boys, crossed paths in the name of fate, only to be separated once again by sheer greed.. As times past, a realization came.. But as they wanted to return, does fate still in their favour ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The story was one which was heavily inspired by Ikimono Gakari's song, Aruite Ikou.. It was just so touching that I have to write this story.. Please think of this piece as Yuto's late birthday fic~ XDD
This is no a multi-chap.. It was originally a one-shot which was divided into parts since the original story was too long~
This is an AU story.. The present Yuto is 25 years old.. Please guess the others age..
And oh, I recommend you to listen to the song Aruite Ikou by Ikimono Gakari while reading~ XD
Italics means the past.
Aruite Ikou ~I Will Walk~
Part 2
Walking down the starry road, Yuto's gaze eventually fell onto the tall and big yet lonesome sakura tree stood by itself in the middle of the park across him. Seeing the leaves which began to fall on by one, brought a smile to Yuto's face as it reminds him to his past memories.
Taking a glance to his left and right, Yuto then proceeded to cross the road carefully. Reaching out a hand, he touched the tree and closed his eyes.
Taking a deep breath, he drop himself on top of the fallen leaves and leaned onto the tree surface. An image of his younger self walking side-by-side with another boy under the rows of Sakura trees eventually made him chuckled.
***
"I heard from Takaki."
Yuto stared at the man behind the bar skeptically as if not believing this person's words.
"You've spoken to the wrong person, Yuto. Takaki is the worst secret-keeper. Just you wait, sooner or later, that boyfriend of yours will know everything."
The tall boy almost wanted to drowned himself right at the moment. Of course. Trust one Takaki Yuya to keep your secret, and you'll find it posted almost everyway the next day.
"Well, it's not like I've decided anything. I just told Hikaru I got the offer." Commented Yuto dryly.
The other man sighed as he put down the cup he had been wiping to it's original place.
"Just a piece of information from me, Yuto, but that boy, he had always been thinking about you. He told me once, that the reason why he lived now, was all because of you." The man then picked up yet another cup and started to polish it. "He's just like a piece of fragile glass. If you handled it too roughly, even when you meant no harm, it will still break completely."
Yuto said nothing as he watched his own reflection on the surface of the liquid on his glass.
"And if you happen to actually break him, then this time, there will be no one to pick the pieces."
Glancing into his watch, Yuto sighed before sipping the rest of his already cold coffee before proceeding to leave the place.
"I'm leaving now. It's almost time for Ryosuke's session to be done. Thanks for the treat, Yabu-kun."
***
The walk home that night was eerie silent. But instead of the comfortable silence they used to had, it was suffocating.
"Yuto-kun ? Is it-"
"Yes, it's true." Yuto interrupted even before the older managed to finish his words.
"Oh."
Yuto took a deep breath before continuing. "But it's not like I've made a decision."
"Why are you, feeling confused ?"
"I-" Yuto sighed deeply. "I can't leave you here."
Realizing the other boy had stopped walking, Yuto turned around and face him.
"Yama-chan ?"
"Yuto-kun, you do know that I love you so much, right ?"
Yuto frowned. "Yeah. But what-"
"Then go."
"Eh ?"
Yuto saw how the boy forced a smile as he looked into his eyes.
"If you decline this offer, you might not get a second chance. And if that ever happen, then everything would be my fault."
"Yama-chan, what-"
"I'll be fine by myself. So you don't have to be worried and just go chase your dream. Don't stop because of me."
"But Yama-chan, I can't-"
"You can't." Ryosuke cutted him off. "But that doesn't mean you don't want to."
That one statement had left Yuto speechless. The boy wasn't wrong. He wasn't wrong at all.
"You actually really want to go. But you can't. Because of me."
"Yama-chan..."
"I'll go home by myself. You have a safe trip home, Yuto-kun."
Yuto could do nothing as Ryosuke gave him a slight hug before leaving him copletetely under the night sky on the quiet road.
***
"Are you sure about it ?"
Yuto nodded as he continue packing his things from his locker.
"If you said so." The man commented with a sigh. "But remember that you'll always be accepted here."
The tall boy smiled and nodded his head.
"Thank you, Inoo-kun."
Yuto caught Inoo send him a sad smile at him from the corner of his eyes.
"I hope you made the right decision, boy."
***
Taking a stroll by the windy bridge when other people were still under the protection of their covers always brought a sense of peace into Yuto's system. In the middle of his hectic schedule, it was hard to find a leisure time for him to relax. It's either he went too early in the morning or returned too late that it's almost dawn again.
So times like this when he could have a good night sleep and free morning are times he treasured the most. Well, he should've done some shooting for his upcoming drama, but since his co-actor had a conflicting schedule and had to choose his live show job done first, the filming was postponed until this evening.
Now he has to say thanks to Chinen properly at their next meeting.
Talking about Chinen, Yuto remembered how the other boy was the first to be able read through his every masks since he first started his debut as an idol three years ago. It's a funny thing though. Both he and Chinen came from different agencies, and it's not like that they're that close because they only worked together twice including now. But somehow, the squirrel boy had a very interesting personality behind his cute facade.
"You're a fool, Nakajima-kun. Just some naive little fool who thought only for himself. You knew nothing of the pain you have caused to them who loves you."
Those were the words the boy had said to him the first time they met. It had sent Yuto into a state of shockness to the extent of him unable to reply anyone else's greetings for the next half an hour.
After that, Yuto had searched the boy's background, but found no connection whatsoever with his past life back at Aomori. Finally concluding that Chinen was just some sharp-mouthed genius, Yuto had placed his distance carefully with the boy ever since.
***
Yuto sighed. It'd been a week, and Ryosuke still won't answer his calls nor replying his mails. He had tried his house, but everytime he came, he would be greeted by silence. He had even called Ryosuke's therapist, Inoo-sensei, but the man told him that Ryosuke haven't come for a session since his last visit last week. And everything just got Yuto frustated.
Despite knowing that he'll probably get nothing as well today, he came anyway. Pushing the doorbell a couple of times, Yuto finally get tired of it and start fishing his phone. Punching Ryosuke's numbers impatiently, he called only to be directed to his mailbox, again.
Pulling his hair in frustation, Yuto was about to leave when the person he had been looking for suddenly stood there by the gate, looking back at him with as much of surprise that he personally felt.
"Yuto-kun ? What are you doing here ?"
Yuto, finally brought back from his dumbfounded state, retorted almost harshly.
"What am I doing here ? Looking for you, of course !" He snapped. "What are you thinking ? Not answering nor replying any of my attempts to get a hold of you, and now you suddenly appeared here, looking like you just came back from a trip without even feeling the slightest of guilt ?"
Yuto saw the older boy released a breath before he walked closer and unlock his front door.
"I left a message to Takaki-kun last week, telling him to tell you that I and Keito will be going to our high school classmates' reunion in Tokyo for a week. It's a week trip because since I'm in Tokyo, I decided to visit my sister's place as well." Ryosuke informed calmly. "It seems like the message was never delivered."
"Why didn't you call ?"
Ryosuke shrugged. "You do know that I'm not so fond in taking a cellphone. And since I wanted to use this trip as a way to clear out my mind, I left it at home." He then opened the door and invited Yuto in.
"You'll be going to Tokyo soon. So I thought I'd have a little training to get used of living alone." Ryosuke said as he put down his luggage on the floor. "I thought you'd understand."
Yuto sighed in relied as he slumped down onto the nearest coach.
"Thank God. I was really scared you know. I thought you'd do something like the last time again." He then took a pillow and buried his face on it. "Don't ever do something like that ever again, Ryosuke."
He could hear the older boy scoffed playfully as his footsteps faded away. And he could only smile in relief in knowing that the other boy is alright. What he failed to see, is the lone tear fell from his boyfriend's eyes as he walked away.
***
"I'm not going to stop you since it doesn't concern me in any way, but-"
Yuto lifted up his head and gazed into the master's face.
"I think you're reckless."
"Why do you think so ?"
The man glanced at him before continuing his task in grinding the coffee beans.
"Your boyfriend gave you permition to leave and chase your dream. So you should've known that he made that decision after considering your feelings." Yabu narrated calmly. "At least I know for a fact that it was hard to let go the one you've always hold onto so that the other party could be happy."
"Your point is ?"
"Well," Yabu shrugged. "Have you actually considering his feelings, for once ?"
Yuto averted his eyes at the question.
"I'm doing this for Ryosuke's sake as well. When I'm famous enough, I'll be coming back and take Ryosuke with me. And we will have a proper life together afterward. I've told Ryosuke this and he understood."
"Of course." Yabu nodded. "But at the same time, Ryosuke-kun also knew, that when you're famous enough, there might be no place for him in your life anymore. Because that's what's being famous means. Without even you realizing it, you'll start forgetting those in your past."
Yuto bowed his head low. That thought had crossed his mind once or twice, and he had always thought that he would be different. But hearing it from someone else, had hit him quite hard with realization, that he might end up just like that.
"That boy never need fame or money or status. Up until now, he only has one wish."
Looking up, he watched how the coffee master looking at him serenely for the very first time since he first came into town.
"That is to be always be by your side."
~~~To Be Continued~~~
Part 2
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary : Two boys, crossed paths in the name of fate, only to be separated once again by sheer greed.. As times past, a realization came.. But as they wanted to return, does fate still in their favour ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The story was one which was heavily inspired by Ikimono Gakari's song, Aruite Ikou.. It was just so touching that I have to write this story.. Please think of this piece as Yuto's late birthday fic~ XDD
This is no a multi-chap.. It was originally a one-shot which was divided into parts since the original story was too long~
This is an AU story.. The present Yuto is 25 years old.. Please guess the others age..
And oh, I recommend you to listen to the song Aruite Ikou by Ikimono Gakari while reading~ XD
Italics means the past.
Aruite Ikou ~I Will Walk~
Part 2
Walking down the starry road, Yuto's gaze eventually fell onto the tall and big yet lonesome sakura tree stood by itself in the middle of the park across him. Seeing the leaves which began to fall on by one, brought a smile to Yuto's face as it reminds him to his past memories.
Taking a glance to his left and right, Yuto then proceeded to cross the road carefully. Reaching out a hand, he touched the tree and closed his eyes.
Taking a deep breath, he drop himself on top of the fallen leaves and leaned onto the tree surface. An image of his younger self walking side-by-side with another boy under the rows of Sakura trees eventually made him chuckled.
***
"I heard from Takaki."
Yuto stared at the man behind the bar skeptically as if not believing this person's words.
"You've spoken to the wrong person, Yuto. Takaki is the worst secret-keeper. Just you wait, sooner or later, that boyfriend of yours will know everything."
The tall boy almost wanted to drowned himself right at the moment. Of course. Trust one Takaki Yuya to keep your secret, and you'll find it posted almost everyway the next day.
"Well, it's not like I've decided anything. I just told Hikaru I got the offer." Commented Yuto dryly.
The other man sighed as he put down the cup he had been wiping to it's original place.
"Just a piece of information from me, Yuto, but that boy, he had always been thinking about you. He told me once, that the reason why he lived now, was all because of you." The man then picked up yet another cup and started to polish it. "He's just like a piece of fragile glass. If you handled it too roughly, even when you meant no harm, it will still break completely."
Yuto said nothing as he watched his own reflection on the surface of the liquid on his glass.
"And if you happen to actually break him, then this time, there will be no one to pick the pieces."
Glancing into his watch, Yuto sighed before sipping the rest of his already cold coffee before proceeding to leave the place.
"I'm leaving now. It's almost time for Ryosuke's session to be done. Thanks for the treat, Yabu-kun."
***
The walk home that night was eerie silent. But instead of the comfortable silence they used to had, it was suffocating.
"Yuto-kun ? Is it-"
"Yes, it's true." Yuto interrupted even before the older managed to finish his words.
"Oh."
Yuto took a deep breath before continuing. "But it's not like I've made a decision."
"Why are you, feeling confused ?"
"I-" Yuto sighed deeply. "I can't leave you here."
Realizing the other boy had stopped walking, Yuto turned around and face him.
"Yama-chan ?"
"Yuto-kun, you do know that I love you so much, right ?"
Yuto frowned. "Yeah. But what-"
"Then go."
"Eh ?"
Yuto saw how the boy forced a smile as he looked into his eyes.
"If you decline this offer, you might not get a second chance. And if that ever happen, then everything would be my fault."
"Yama-chan, what-"
"I'll be fine by myself. So you don't have to be worried and just go chase your dream. Don't stop because of me."
"But Yama-chan, I can't-"
"You can't." Ryosuke cutted him off. "But that doesn't mean you don't want to."
That one statement had left Yuto speechless. The boy wasn't wrong. He wasn't wrong at all.
"You actually really want to go. But you can't. Because of me."
"Yama-chan..."
"I'll go home by myself. You have a safe trip home, Yuto-kun."
Yuto could do nothing as Ryosuke gave him a slight hug before leaving him copletetely under the night sky on the quiet road.
***
"Are you sure about it ?"
Yuto nodded as he continue packing his things from his locker.
"If you said so." The man commented with a sigh. "But remember that you'll always be accepted here."
The tall boy smiled and nodded his head.
"Thank you, Inoo-kun."
Yuto caught Inoo send him a sad smile at him from the corner of his eyes.
"I hope you made the right decision, boy."
***
Taking a stroll by the windy bridge when other people were still under the protection of their covers always brought a sense of peace into Yuto's system. In the middle of his hectic schedule, it was hard to find a leisure time for him to relax. It's either he went too early in the morning or returned too late that it's almost dawn again.
So times like this when he could have a good night sleep and free morning are times he treasured the most. Well, he should've done some shooting for his upcoming drama, but since his co-actor had a conflicting schedule and had to choose his live show job done first, the filming was postponed until this evening.
Now he has to say thanks to Chinen properly at their next meeting.
Talking about Chinen, Yuto remembered how the other boy was the first to be able read through his every masks since he first started his debut as an idol three years ago. It's a funny thing though. Both he and Chinen came from different agencies, and it's not like that they're that close because they only worked together twice including now. But somehow, the squirrel boy had a very interesting personality behind his cute facade.
"You're a fool, Nakajima-kun. Just some naive little fool who thought only for himself. You knew nothing of the pain you have caused to them who loves you."
Those were the words the boy had said to him the first time they met. It had sent Yuto into a state of shockness to the extent of him unable to reply anyone else's greetings for the next half an hour.
After that, Yuto had searched the boy's background, but found no connection whatsoever with his past life back at Aomori. Finally concluding that Chinen was just some sharp-mouthed genius, Yuto had placed his distance carefully with the boy ever since.
***
Yuto sighed. It'd been a week, and Ryosuke still won't answer his calls nor replying his mails. He had tried his house, but everytime he came, he would be greeted by silence. He had even called Ryosuke's therapist, Inoo-sensei, but the man told him that Ryosuke haven't come for a session since his last visit last week. And everything just got Yuto frustated.
Despite knowing that he'll probably get nothing as well today, he came anyway. Pushing the doorbell a couple of times, Yuto finally get tired of it and start fishing his phone. Punching Ryosuke's numbers impatiently, he called only to be directed to his mailbox, again.
Pulling his hair in frustation, Yuto was about to leave when the person he had been looking for suddenly stood there by the gate, looking back at him with as much of surprise that he personally felt.
"Yuto-kun ? What are you doing here ?"
Yuto, finally brought back from his dumbfounded state, retorted almost harshly.
"What am I doing here ? Looking for you, of course !" He snapped. "What are you thinking ? Not answering nor replying any of my attempts to get a hold of you, and now you suddenly appeared here, looking like you just came back from a trip without even feeling the slightest of guilt ?"
Yuto saw the older boy released a breath before he walked closer and unlock his front door.
"I left a message to Takaki-kun last week, telling him to tell you that I and Keito will be going to our high school classmates' reunion in Tokyo for a week. It's a week trip because since I'm in Tokyo, I decided to visit my sister's place as well." Ryosuke informed calmly. "It seems like the message was never delivered."
"Why didn't you call ?"
Ryosuke shrugged. "You do know that I'm not so fond in taking a cellphone. And since I wanted to use this trip as a way to clear out my mind, I left it at home." He then opened the door and invited Yuto in.
"You'll be going to Tokyo soon. So I thought I'd have a little training to get used of living alone." Ryosuke said as he put down his luggage on the floor. "I thought you'd understand."
Yuto sighed in relied as he slumped down onto the nearest coach.
"Thank God. I was really scared you know. I thought you'd do something like the last time again." He then took a pillow and buried his face on it. "Don't ever do something like that ever again, Ryosuke."
He could hear the older boy scoffed playfully as his footsteps faded away. And he could only smile in relief in knowing that the other boy is alright. What he failed to see, is the lone tear fell from his boyfriend's eyes as he walked away.
***
"I'm not going to stop you since it doesn't concern me in any way, but-"
Yuto lifted up his head and gazed into the master's face.
"I think you're reckless."
"Why do you think so ?"
The man glanced at him before continuing his task in grinding the coffee beans.
"Your boyfriend gave you permition to leave and chase your dream. So you should've known that he made that decision after considering your feelings." Yabu narrated calmly. "At least I know for a fact that it was hard to let go the one you've always hold onto so that the other party could be happy."
"Your point is ?"
"Well," Yabu shrugged. "Have you actually considering his feelings, for once ?"
Yuto averted his eyes at the question.
"I'm doing this for Ryosuke's sake as well. When I'm famous enough, I'll be coming back and take Ryosuke with me. And we will have a proper life together afterward. I've told Ryosuke this and he understood."
"Of course." Yabu nodded. "But at the same time, Ryosuke-kun also knew, that when you're famous enough, there might be no place for him in your life anymore. Because that's what's being famous means. Without even you realizing it, you'll start forgetting those in your past."
Yuto bowed his head low. That thought had crossed his mind once or twice, and he had always thought that he would be different. But hearing it from someone else, had hit him quite hard with realization, that he might end up just like that.
"That boy never need fame or money or status. Up until now, he only has one wish."
Looking up, he watched how the coffee master looking at him serenely for the very first time since he first came into town.
"That is to be always be by your side."
~~~To Be Continued~~~