Infinity - Sixteenth Chance
Title : Infinity
Sixteenth Chance
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Pairing : HikaBu [friendship] ; YabuYama & HikaYama [parentship ?]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : There are infinity chances spread ahead of us, if we just would see..
Author's note : Another fic presented for you.. It was mostly about HikaBu.. but since i'm a Ryosuke-biased, his appearance was kinda important too here.. *whacked* Hope you'd enjoy~
Infinity
Sixteenth Chance
Yabu sigh as he sat still in that white dysinfectant-smelled room. His eyes fixed on the figure sleeping peacefully before him. The steady breathing of him, showing from how his chest moving up and down rhytmically. His lips opened slightly to suck air to his lungs. His hair swaying slowly from the gentle breeze seeping through the slightly opened window.
Subconsciously, Yabu reached out a hand and caress the boy's hair ever so softly. As if trying to lull the already sleeping boy more into the depth of sweet dream. Yabu can tell that the boy is dreaming a sweet dream, if the slight smile tugging on the boy's lips was any clue.
"Yama-chan..."
Without any specific purpose, Yabu called out the boy's name. Yabu doesn't know why but he just suddenly has the urge to call Ryosuke's name. Subconsciously, his hand is already reaching out to touch the boy's soft hair and caressing it with care.
It'd been almost a week since Ryosuke was commited into this hospital. And at about two hours ago, the boy had suffered his eleventh episode since his less than a week stay in this hospital. A proof for his constantly worsened condition. Which kinda freaked Yabu out.
Yabu sigh as he leans back on his chair, palm not moving from Ryosuke's head as it still raking the boy's hair gently. They had finished their halted concert two days ago quite safely. Without Ryosuke, the concert felt less lively, but it had to be done and so they did it still. And Yabu was glad, that it was their last concert too. He knew he wouldn't be able to though it all for more because he was too worried over Ryosuke's condition to care about his performances.
"Ya-bu-kun..."
The raspy call coming from the boy before him brough Yabu back to the real world.
"Ah, gomen gomen. Did I wake you up ?" He asks worriedly.
Ryosuke just smile and shake his head slowly before stretching his hands out. "No. It's okay. It's about time for me to wake up anyway."
Yabu couldn't stop himself from smiling as well seeing the boy stretching like a cat. Pulling his hand away, Yabu chuckle as he saw Ryosuke scratching his eyes childishly. "You're such a kid."
"Mou~" Yabu watch how that pale lips of Ryosuke curled into a pout.
"How are you feeling ?" Asked the older boy as he helps the boy proping the bed up so he could sitting comfortably on his bed.
"I'm good." Ryosuke once again scratching his eyes. "What about yourself ? For as long as I can remember, you were almost always here staying with me. I mean, do you actually eat well ? 'Cause I never saw you doing anything else while you're here." He pouted while crossing his arms in front of his chest.
Yabu just chuckle as he reaches out to ruffle the boy's hair. "Of course, I do eat silly. You have weird imaginations."
"Well, you can't really blame me ! Since I'm just saying things from my point of view !" Ryosuke pout more.
Yabu just laugh at this. "Fine, fine, Yama-chan. You're not wrong, not wrong at all."
***
"Milk, check. Fruits, check. Strawberry shortcake, check. My lunchbox check. Now, Angel Beats Manga, check." Yabu paused as he scans through the stacks of Manga in his right hand. "So Yama-chan like Shoujo Manga like this. No wonder." Smiling to himself, he then proceeded to walk back to the hospital with a pair of headset plugged into his ear as his company.
Humming the familiar melody quietly by himself, Yabu failed to catch a sight of running man in front of him which resulted into them crashing with each other and fell hard to the ground.
"Itte !" Yabu hiss painfully before composing himself and start collecting his fallen things.
"I'm so sorry ! I didn't see you there so I was just like- running through you !" Aplogized the man as he helps Yabu collecting his things.
"It's okay. I was at fault too, for not watching the surrounding carefully." Said Yabu assuringly as he starts standing up with the help of the other man. "Ah, thank y- Eh ?" Finally seeing the other man's face properly, Yabu was surprised to see the man standing before him.
"Eh ?" It seems like the other man was just as surprised to see him.
"Akanishi-kun ? / Yabu-kun ?"
***
"I was surprised ! When did you returned to Japan, senpai ?" Asked Yabu to the older man who insisted to help him carry his things and now accompanying him to the hospital.
"A couple of days ago. I was finally getting my break after the never ending show back in America." Akanishi shrugged as he scratches his head.
"I see. What about it then ? Your jobs I mean." Asked Yabu once again.
"Hmm. They went well, I guess. I was kinda overwhelmed at first, but I'm getting used to it by now. And the guys are nice too. Not that KAT-TUN weren't nice, but, well, you got my points." Akanishi tried to explain messily to the younger man.
Yabu chuckle slightly at this. Really, his senpai would never change. Still the same old stupid childish Akanishi-senpai. "Yes, yes. I got it, senpai."
"Hmm. Anyway, where are we going ?" Asked Akanishi lazily.
"To the hospital." Said Yabu curtly.
"Eh ? Are you visiting a relative ? Won't I be a stranger then ?" Akanishi asked again rather panickedly.
Yabu smile before turning his head to face his senpai. "It's okay, Akanishi-kun. The person we are visiting is someone you also know."
"Eh ? Seriously ?" Asked Akanishi wide-eyed.
Yabu nods as his answer.
"Is he from the agency ?"
Yabu nods once again as his respond.
"Is he from Hey! Say! JUMP ?"
Yabu hesitated at first, but he nods anyway.
"Eh ? Who could possibly- ?"
Yabu smile before walking ahead once again. "You will see soon, senpai. One thing for sure, he's one of your fans."
Yabu could feel the older man staring at him intensely at him from his back. But he decided to ignore it for now. And as the older man finally catch up with him and walking side-by-side with him once again, Yabu found himself at a loss of words and can't bring up any conversation.
And somehow, he's feeling grateful for the older man seemed to understand this and respect his silence by not saying a word, when he's actually a person that can't stop talking.
***
"So it's Yamada-kun ?" Asked Akanishi finally after they have arrived in front of Ryosuke's room.
Yabu smile sadly as he nods his head down. "Yeah."
"Was it- was his disease bad ?" Akanishi inquired hesitatedly.
"Eh ? Why do you think so ?" Yabu frown curiously.
"Because you're feeling so down. I mean, it's not a weird thing to get sick these days. Especially when you're an entertainer. I've been admitted to the hospital sometimes too, and no one is feeing so down 'cause it's not that big of a deal. But it's different with you. The way you've been so silent about this whole matter only lead me to one thing. That whoever this sick member is- which is Yamada-kun I figured- he's dealing with a bad disease." Explained the older man softly.
"I..." Yabu could feel the tears pricking up from the back of his eyes. "I.. You were right. Yama-chan is suffering a bad disease. But I can't tell you about it. I mean, it wasn't my place to say so."
Akanishi smile as he pat the younger's head. "I understand. You don't have to be worried. Well, I know for one that Yamada-kun is a strong boy. Whatever it is, he will get over it. Trust me."
Yabu smile back at this. "I hope you're right." He could see the older man is frowning in confusion but shake his head instead. "Let's just get in."
Opening the door slowly, Yabu lead his company in. There, at the other side of the room, sitting a peaceful-looking Ryosuke who is currently staring still outside the window.
"Yama-chan." Yabu called out softly.
The said boy immediately turned his head toward his caller and smile widely at the sight of his so-called Mama standing there.
"Yabu-kun ! And oh- Akanishi-kun ?!" Ryosuke's eyes widened at Akanishi's presence there. "What- How- ?"
"I met Yabu-kun by accident before, and decided to tagged along." Said Akanihi, answering Ryosuke's unsaid question. "How are you doing, Yamada-kun ?"
Ryosuke then smile after coming out from his surprise. "I'm good, senpai. Thanks for coming by."
"Anyway, here are the Manga you asked." Said Yabu changing the subject as he handed out the stack of manga he brought earlier.
"Yey~ Thanks Yabu-kun ! You're the best !" Ryosuke exclaimed childishly as he hugs the older man and quickly opening the first book from the stacks.
"Now, that's impolite, Yama-chan. You have a guest here and you ignore him to read your Manga ?" Yabu scold him while grabbing the Manga from Ryosuke's lap and put them inside the drawer.
"Ah, you're right. Sorry Akanishi-kun. I rarely have a guest aside from JUMP members and my family. And I guess, I was just being too used to that." Ryosuke scratches the back of his head while smiling sheepishly.
"It's okay, it's okay. Since I'm kinda intruding here anyway. So.." Akanishi shrug as he take a walk and stand in front of the window beside Ryosuke's bed.
"Yama-chan, I need to be out for a while. Sugihara-sensei called me earlier to have a talk." Yabu inform the youngest of them three.
"Oh, it's okay, Yabu-kun. Beside, Akanishi-kun is here to accompany me." Said Ryosuke assuringly.
"Very well then. Akanishi-kun, I'm sorry but if you would please stay with Yama-chan until I return." Yabu then turn his head toward the older man.
"Got it. Don't mind it, Yabu-kun. It's not like I'm not having fun." Akanishi shrug.
"I see. Then, I will leave now. I will come back as soon as possible." And without waiting for their answer, the man had already fled outside the room.
"So, Yabu-kun said that you are my fans, Yamada-kun. Is it true ?" Asked Akanishi after some times.
Ryosuke nodded his head slowly. "Yeah. I love your songs. They soothe me."
"I'm feeling honoured." Akanishi grinned. "Since when did you became my fans ?"
"Well..." Ryosuke seemed like he's thinking something. "I've always admired you since I was a junior. But I've just become your fans since around 2 years ago. It's a long story, but because of some occurances, I come to fell in love with your songs. Whenever I was feeling lonely here, I always listened to your songs like 'Eternal' and 'Care'. They always calmed me down." He smiles brightly toward the older man.
Akanishi frown at Ryosuke's answer. There is something wrong with his words. "Everytime you were feeling lonely here ? So you frequented this place quite often, eh ? You sure need to take care of yourself, Yamada-kun."
Akanishi caught the smaller boy smile sadly at his comment. "Yeah. I hope I could."
"Why of course you could Yamada-kun ! Just make sure you rest well and take a proper medications, and you'll be as good as new !" Akanishi try to encourage the younger boy.
Ryosuke said nothing as he just smile in response.
"Well, uhm, anyway, what was the manga you were just about to read ? From the cover of it, they looked good !" Akanishi try to change the subject awkwardly.
Ryosuke frown a bit as he stares at Akanishi's face intently, completely ignoring the man's question.
"W-what ?" Akanishi asked nervously at the stare the younger is giving him, but still got nothing in response.
After some awkward moments, Ryosuke finally turned his head away and sigh before leaning back on his pillow.
"Just ask it, Akanishi-kun." Ryosuke said boldly.
"E-eh ? W-what are you talking about, Yamada-kun ?" Stuttered Akanishi.
"I know what you wanted to know. So just ask it." Ryosuke repeat himself.
"I don't- "
"About my sickness. I know you wanted to know about it." Cutted Ryosuke.
Akanishi was sent silent for a moment. His hands findling with the hem of his shirt in nervousness. "Sorry. I didn't mean to pry, but I-"
"It's okay, Akanishi-kun. I understand." Ryosuke smile softly.
"I'm still, sorry." Mumbles Akanishi quietly.
Ryosuke just smile as he look past Akanishi's figure and outside the window. His face soften as he watches the clouds moving slowly up in the sky.
"The truth is, I'm suffering from Leukimia, Akanishi-kun. And the Doctor said that I don't have much time left." Ryosuke said as he closes his eyes slowly. His expression so serene that it makes Akanishi smile despite the shocking news. "I'm dying now."
~~~~~tbc
Sixteenth Chance
Author : rei *me*
Rating : pg
Pairing : HikaBu [friendship] ; YabuYama & HikaYama [parentship ?]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : There are infinity chances spread ahead of us, if we just would see..
Author's note : Another fic presented for you.. It was mostly about HikaBu.. but since i'm a Ryosuke-biased, his appearance was kinda important too here.. *whacked* Hope you'd enjoy~
Infinity
Sixteenth Chance
Yabu sigh as he sat still in that white dysinfectant-smelled room. His eyes fixed on the figure sleeping peacefully before him. The steady breathing of him, showing from how his chest moving up and down rhytmically. His lips opened slightly to suck air to his lungs. His hair swaying slowly from the gentle breeze seeping through the slightly opened window.
Subconsciously, Yabu reached out a hand and caress the boy's hair ever so softly. As if trying to lull the already sleeping boy more into the depth of sweet dream. Yabu can tell that the boy is dreaming a sweet dream, if the slight smile tugging on the boy's lips was any clue.
"Yama-chan..."
Without any specific purpose, Yabu called out the boy's name. Yabu doesn't know why but he just suddenly has the urge to call Ryosuke's name. Subconsciously, his hand is already reaching out to touch the boy's soft hair and caressing it with care.
It'd been almost a week since Ryosuke was commited into this hospital. And at about two hours ago, the boy had suffered his eleventh episode since his less than a week stay in this hospital. A proof for his constantly worsened condition. Which kinda freaked Yabu out.
Yabu sigh as he leans back on his chair, palm not moving from Ryosuke's head as it still raking the boy's hair gently. They had finished their halted concert two days ago quite safely. Without Ryosuke, the concert felt less lively, but it had to be done and so they did it still. And Yabu was glad, that it was their last concert too. He knew he wouldn't be able to though it all for more because he was too worried over Ryosuke's condition to care about his performances.
"Ya-bu-kun..."
The raspy call coming from the boy before him brough Yabu back to the real world.
"Ah, gomen gomen. Did I wake you up ?" He asks worriedly.
Ryosuke just smile and shake his head slowly before stretching his hands out. "No. It's okay. It's about time for me to wake up anyway."
Yabu couldn't stop himself from smiling as well seeing the boy stretching like a cat. Pulling his hand away, Yabu chuckle as he saw Ryosuke scratching his eyes childishly. "You're such a kid."
"Mou~" Yabu watch how that pale lips of Ryosuke curled into a pout.
"How are you feeling ?" Asked the older boy as he helps the boy proping the bed up so he could sitting comfortably on his bed.
"I'm good." Ryosuke once again scratching his eyes. "What about yourself ? For as long as I can remember, you were almost always here staying with me. I mean, do you actually eat well ? 'Cause I never saw you doing anything else while you're here." He pouted while crossing his arms in front of his chest.
Yabu just chuckle as he reaches out to ruffle the boy's hair. "Of course, I do eat silly. You have weird imaginations."
"Well, you can't really blame me ! Since I'm just saying things from my point of view !" Ryosuke pout more.
Yabu just laugh at this. "Fine, fine, Yama-chan. You're not wrong, not wrong at all."
***
"Milk, check. Fruits, check. Strawberry shortcake, check. My lunchbox check. Now, Angel Beats Manga, check." Yabu paused as he scans through the stacks of Manga in his right hand. "So Yama-chan like Shoujo Manga like this. No wonder." Smiling to himself, he then proceeded to walk back to the hospital with a pair of headset plugged into his ear as his company.
Humming the familiar melody quietly by himself, Yabu failed to catch a sight of running man in front of him which resulted into them crashing with each other and fell hard to the ground.
"Itte !" Yabu hiss painfully before composing himself and start collecting his fallen things.
"I'm so sorry ! I didn't see you there so I was just like- running through you !" Aplogized the man as he helps Yabu collecting his things.
"It's okay. I was at fault too, for not watching the surrounding carefully." Said Yabu assuringly as he starts standing up with the help of the other man. "Ah, thank y- Eh ?" Finally seeing the other man's face properly, Yabu was surprised to see the man standing before him.
"Eh ?" It seems like the other man was just as surprised to see him.
"Akanishi-kun ? / Yabu-kun ?"
***
"I was surprised ! When did you returned to Japan, senpai ?" Asked Yabu to the older man who insisted to help him carry his things and now accompanying him to the hospital.
"A couple of days ago. I was finally getting my break after the never ending show back in America." Akanishi shrugged as he scratches his head.
"I see. What about it then ? Your jobs I mean." Asked Yabu once again.
"Hmm. They went well, I guess. I was kinda overwhelmed at first, but I'm getting used to it by now. And the guys are nice too. Not that KAT-TUN weren't nice, but, well, you got my points." Akanishi tried to explain messily to the younger man.
Yabu chuckle slightly at this. Really, his senpai would never change. Still the same old stupid childish Akanishi-senpai. "Yes, yes. I got it, senpai."
"Hmm. Anyway, where are we going ?" Asked Akanishi lazily.
"To the hospital." Said Yabu curtly.
"Eh ? Are you visiting a relative ? Won't I be a stranger then ?" Akanishi asked again rather panickedly.
Yabu smile before turning his head to face his senpai. "It's okay, Akanishi-kun. The person we are visiting is someone you also know."
"Eh ? Seriously ?" Asked Akanishi wide-eyed.
Yabu nods as his answer.
"Is he from the agency ?"
Yabu nods once again as his respond.
"Is he from Hey! Say! JUMP ?"
Yabu hesitated at first, but he nods anyway.
"Eh ? Who could possibly- ?"
Yabu smile before walking ahead once again. "You will see soon, senpai. One thing for sure, he's one of your fans."
Yabu could feel the older man staring at him intensely at him from his back. But he decided to ignore it for now. And as the older man finally catch up with him and walking side-by-side with him once again, Yabu found himself at a loss of words and can't bring up any conversation.
And somehow, he's feeling grateful for the older man seemed to understand this and respect his silence by not saying a word, when he's actually a person that can't stop talking.
***
"So it's Yamada-kun ?" Asked Akanishi finally after they have arrived in front of Ryosuke's room.
Yabu smile sadly as he nods his head down. "Yeah."
"Was it- was his disease bad ?" Akanishi inquired hesitatedly.
"Eh ? Why do you think so ?" Yabu frown curiously.
"Because you're feeling so down. I mean, it's not a weird thing to get sick these days. Especially when you're an entertainer. I've been admitted to the hospital sometimes too, and no one is feeing so down 'cause it's not that big of a deal. But it's different with you. The way you've been so silent about this whole matter only lead me to one thing. That whoever this sick member is- which is Yamada-kun I figured- he's dealing with a bad disease." Explained the older man softly.
"I..." Yabu could feel the tears pricking up from the back of his eyes. "I.. You were right. Yama-chan is suffering a bad disease. But I can't tell you about it. I mean, it wasn't my place to say so."
Akanishi smile as he pat the younger's head. "I understand. You don't have to be worried. Well, I know for one that Yamada-kun is a strong boy. Whatever it is, he will get over it. Trust me."
Yabu smile back at this. "I hope you're right." He could see the older man is frowning in confusion but shake his head instead. "Let's just get in."
Opening the door slowly, Yabu lead his company in. There, at the other side of the room, sitting a peaceful-looking Ryosuke who is currently staring still outside the window.
"Yama-chan." Yabu called out softly.
The said boy immediately turned his head toward his caller and smile widely at the sight of his so-called Mama standing there.
"Yabu-kun ! And oh- Akanishi-kun ?!" Ryosuke's eyes widened at Akanishi's presence there. "What- How- ?"
"I met Yabu-kun by accident before, and decided to tagged along." Said Akanihi, answering Ryosuke's unsaid question. "How are you doing, Yamada-kun ?"
Ryosuke then smile after coming out from his surprise. "I'm good, senpai. Thanks for coming by."
"Anyway, here are the Manga you asked." Said Yabu changing the subject as he handed out the stack of manga he brought earlier.
"Yey~ Thanks Yabu-kun ! You're the best !" Ryosuke exclaimed childishly as he hugs the older man and quickly opening the first book from the stacks.
"Now, that's impolite, Yama-chan. You have a guest here and you ignore him to read your Manga ?" Yabu scold him while grabbing the Manga from Ryosuke's lap and put them inside the drawer.
"Ah, you're right. Sorry Akanishi-kun. I rarely have a guest aside from JUMP members and my family. And I guess, I was just being too used to that." Ryosuke scratches the back of his head while smiling sheepishly.
"It's okay, it's okay. Since I'm kinda intruding here anyway. So.." Akanishi shrug as he take a walk and stand in front of the window beside Ryosuke's bed.
"Yama-chan, I need to be out for a while. Sugihara-sensei called me earlier to have a talk." Yabu inform the youngest of them three.
"Oh, it's okay, Yabu-kun. Beside, Akanishi-kun is here to accompany me." Said Ryosuke assuringly.
"Very well then. Akanishi-kun, I'm sorry but if you would please stay with Yama-chan until I return." Yabu then turn his head toward the older man.
"Got it. Don't mind it, Yabu-kun. It's not like I'm not having fun." Akanishi shrug.
"I see. Then, I will leave now. I will come back as soon as possible." And without waiting for their answer, the man had already fled outside the room.
"So, Yabu-kun said that you are my fans, Yamada-kun. Is it true ?" Asked Akanishi after some times.
Ryosuke nodded his head slowly. "Yeah. I love your songs. They soothe me."
"I'm feeling honoured." Akanishi grinned. "Since when did you became my fans ?"
"Well..." Ryosuke seemed like he's thinking something. "I've always admired you since I was a junior. But I've just become your fans since around 2 years ago. It's a long story, but because of some occurances, I come to fell in love with your songs. Whenever I was feeling lonely here, I always listened to your songs like 'Eternal' and 'Care'. They always calmed me down." He smiles brightly toward the older man.
Akanishi frown at Ryosuke's answer. There is something wrong with his words. "Everytime you were feeling lonely here ? So you frequented this place quite often, eh ? You sure need to take care of yourself, Yamada-kun."
Akanishi caught the smaller boy smile sadly at his comment. "Yeah. I hope I could."
"Why of course you could Yamada-kun ! Just make sure you rest well and take a proper medications, and you'll be as good as new !" Akanishi try to encourage the younger boy.
Ryosuke said nothing as he just smile in response.
"Well, uhm, anyway, what was the manga you were just about to read ? From the cover of it, they looked good !" Akanishi try to change the subject awkwardly.
Ryosuke frown a bit as he stares at Akanishi's face intently, completely ignoring the man's question.
"W-what ?" Akanishi asked nervously at the stare the younger is giving him, but still got nothing in response.
After some awkward moments, Ryosuke finally turned his head away and sigh before leaning back on his pillow.
"Just ask it, Akanishi-kun." Ryosuke said boldly.
"E-eh ? W-what are you talking about, Yamada-kun ?" Stuttered Akanishi.
"I know what you wanted to know. So just ask it." Ryosuke repeat himself.
"I don't- "
"About my sickness. I know you wanted to know about it." Cutted Ryosuke.
Akanishi was sent silent for a moment. His hands findling with the hem of his shirt in nervousness. "Sorry. I didn't mean to pry, but I-"
"It's okay, Akanishi-kun. I understand." Ryosuke smile softly.
"I'm still, sorry." Mumbles Akanishi quietly.
Ryosuke just smile as he look past Akanishi's figure and outside the window. His face soften as he watches the clouds moving slowly up in the sky.
"The truth is, I'm suffering from Leukimia, Akanishi-kun. And the Doctor said that I don't have much time left." Ryosuke said as he closes his eyes slowly. His expression so serene that it makes Akanishi smile despite the shocking news. "I'm dying now."
~~~~~tbc