When We're No Longer Here - Chapter 11
Chapter 11 - I'm Just Trying To Be ME
Author : rei *me*
Rating : g [maybe it will rise later]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : Imagine what will happen, if your presence are no longer exist. Imagine what will hapen, if you're no longer known by any. Imagine what will happen, if the one you can count on is only, you. [I'm suck even at summaries, I know. .T_T]
Author's note : it's late. . i know. .
When We’re No Longer Here - Chapter 11 - I’m Just Trying To Be ME
Sometimes adults just misunderstood children. Sometimes they just reasoned for their faults as a lesson of experience for the children. Sometimes they just won’t listen to what the children had to say. Sometimes they just forget that they were too, once a children.
Sometimes they were right, but they’re also human beings who make a mistake once in a while. And sometimes, they just abandon that fact.
“It’d been almost a week and he’s not getting any better.” Inoo commented after sighing loudly.
“If not getting worse.” Yuto point out.
“The last few nights, he’d became even more restless in his sleep. He mentioned about having bad dreams, but exclaimed that he didn’t even remember those dreams at all beside the fact that it frightened him a lot.” Daiki said tiredly.
“You sure you have enough times for sleep yourself, Dai-chan ? You’ve been staying with him for most of the nights, you must be feel restless too.” Yabu ask the boy concernedly.
Daiki just shake his head. “Compared to him, I’m the fittest man in the world. Beside, it’s not like any of you had enough sleep lately too anyway.”
Hikaru just sigh without saying anything to argue the boy.
“How can we rest peacefully knowing that one of us is in so much pain ?” Takaki said grimly. Frankly, he seemed to be one of the most affected person by Ryosuke’s condition.
Keito just look up to the ceiling. “I wonder how long this will last.”
“Who knows.” Yuto shrug of his shoulders.
Hikaru sigh. “So, the squirrel is in charge to watch him now ?” He asks lightly, trying not to worsen the mood.
Yabu just nod. “But we all know him. So in case he couldn’t stand longer, we also put Ryutaro there.”
Hikaru smirk. “So you think by sending Yama-chan’s partner in fighting will help the squirrel ?”
“At least Ryutaro will act unbratly to pick a fight at this moment. To tell you the truth, sending you there instead of Ryutaro will cause a bigger chaos.” Yabu smirk back.
“Yeah ? Well it can’t be helped then.” Hikaru lean back to the cushion behind him to relax.
Yabu sigh for who knows how much today. Lately, JUMP hadn’t been themselves. He himself was no exception. Since they moved here, he’d been ditching his works and other things he used to won’t abandoned. Even the younger kids and Inoo had missed their schools. Well, it’s not like that they’ll focused enough to catch what their teacher said in their classes at all anyway. But still, the atmosphere wouldn’t been this grumpy if only Ryosuke hadn’t suddenly fallen ill by the first night they stayed there. Not that he blamed the boy for being so, it’s just, now he really wish that the boy will get better so maybe, the air will be lighter in this house.
“Then later, all I need to worry about is the wrath of Johnny-san.” The oldest boy whisper to himself ironically.
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Chinen just sit at that chair unmoving ever since they enter the room, watching the third boy inside the room sleeping. Only when the sun is above their heads Ryosuke could sleep peacefully without any single bit of nightmare. That’s why he always tend to stayed awake at nights. Ryutaro feel pity toward Daiki since he mostly spend his nights to accompanied the sick boy. Only that 2 rare nights when Takaki and Yabu volunteered to accompanied Ryosuke in his place Daiki could sleep a full night. But then, he still awakened in the middle of the night to checked on the younger boy.
The youngest boy sigh in desperation. Truthfully, he’d been also awakened in the middle of the night lately everytime he heard a sound from this room which actually separated by a bathroom and a library with the room he and Yabu shared. Sometimes, he could hear a faint scream, but mostly, he just heard someone’s sniffing and another trying to calm the sniffing boy down. To be honest, he’d been restless with Ryosuke’s condition himself, though he didn’t showed that.
And now, standing here with the usually bouncy boy sitting still like a statue and the usually chatty boy sleeping unsoundedly, just seemed surreal for him. Ryutaro might be the youngest member in JUMP, but it doesn’t meant that he’s stupid. He know what might this lead and he’s scared. After all the unnormal things he’d done, this had to be the moment he’d do something normal. To be scared of death. Death of someone close to him. And perhaps, death of himself.
People don’t play death, that’s what’s he knows. And knowing some certain crazy scientist playing death, especially with his closest one and himself nonetheless, he couldn’t help but being scared.
“Ne, Ryu-chan ? When do you think Yama-chan will get better ?” The sudden voice coming from a statue-like boy in front of him distract him from his thoughts.
‘And why did you decided to talk now when I only started to sorting things off ?’
“Who knows ? The sooner the better.” He answered calmly, trying to be as nonchalant as possible.
The older boy turn his head toward him and showing him a genuine smile. “I know you’re worried over Yama-chan either Ryu-chan. I know you had troubles with sleeps either lately.”
‘And why did you care ?’
“You know ? How ?” He asks quietly.
“I can see through people. And you’re the most transparent boy in JUMP so I could see through you easily.” The smile never faltered from Chinen’s face.
‘Then why did you as-? Eh ?’
Ryutaro widened his eyes in surprise. “Are you serious ?”
“Why won’t I ?” The shorter boy stare at him innocently before turning his head back toward the sleeping figure in front him. “You know, Yama-chan looks the best when he’s sleeping. Like an angel. And his personality is so cool too. He could be ridiculous at times, but he’ll be really mature when needed.”
“Mm.”
“This whole situation is just so annoying, don’t you think ?” Chinen suddenly ask.
‘Now he’s changing the topic every 2 or 3 sentences.’
“I think so.” Replied the younger boy shortly.
“Rui-san’s father surely is a simple-minded person.” He commented seriously.
“Why do you think so ?” Asked Ryutaro curiously.
‘He’s a scientist, isn’t he ? Shouldn’t a scientist think the hard way ?’
“Because he recklessly pick a path without analyzing the way before.” Answered the other boy slowly.
Ryutaro frown. “Wha-?”
“He didn’t deserved this, Yama-chan I mean.” Chinen cut the other boy’s words with a sad voice.
The youngest boy just sigh. “Could you please stick to one thing and make an end to it before changing the topic ?”
‘Yeah. It started to annoyed me.’
“Gomen.” Chinen apologize in a whisper. “But it was needed.” He said mysteriously.
Ryutaro just frown more at this but say nothing in return. He somehow sensed there’s something that the older boy have in mind, and he’s planning to let him do what he thought he needs to do.
‘I guess it can’t be helped.’
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“Wake up, boy.”
“Mm.”
A smile.
“Where am I ?”
“Inside your dream.”
“Ha ?”
“Let’s just say that you’re actually sleeping in your sleep.”
“How can that-?”
“It’s a dream. Impossible things become possible.”
Silence.
“Who are you ?”
“Me ? I’m the one who need you to help me.”
“What help ?”
“A help to unbound me from darkness.”
“How ?”
“You find out. I won’t ask you if I know how.”
“Make sense. But really, who are you ? As in your name.”
“You knew. If you try to remember, you’ll know.”
“Ha ?”
“It’s something that you must find out yourself. I could just give you pieces of my past to solve the puzzle.”
Silence.
“Why me ?”
“Because you CAN do it.”
“Why can’t you just pick another person ?”
“Because you’re the ONLY one who can do it.”
Silence.
“I guess I’ll just help you out.”
A smile.
“Thank you. I really appreciate that.”
“Don’t mind. I guess if I’m the only one who can help you then I’ll do it.”
“Why ?”
“Because you need it. I know it.”
“Thank you, very much.”
“It’s okay.”
“I can’t do much to pay you. But for now, I can give you a help for a bit.”
“What help ?”
“You’ll see once you wake up.”
“Eh ?”
“Thank you so much, Yamada Ryosuke-kun.”
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The moment Ryosuke open his eyes, he feels so much better than he had been this past week. He feels rejunevated and freshen. He smiles as he stretch his hands and sit up slowly. But then, he’s surprised by the sight in front of him.
Daiki is sleeping on the chair beside his bed with his head rested on the bed, a blanket covered his back. Takaki, Yuto, Yabu and Chinen are sleeping pressed to each other on Daiki’s bed. On the floor, Hikaru, Keito and Inoo are sleeping with their blankets as their sleeping bags. There’s one other blanket on the floor without it’s occupant. Only one person wasn’t there, so Ryosuke thought that it belongs to that person.
Just when he’s about to reach Daiki’s shoulder to wake him up, Ryutaro showed up holding a glass of what seemed like hot chocolate.
“You’re awake.”
Ryosuke smile toward him. “Ryutaro. May I ask you why are you all sleeping inside Dai-chan and my room ?”
“Sweet-talking me won’t change the fact that we’re enemies.” Ryutaro retort coldly.
A vein popped out from Ryosuke’s head. “You little…”
“We’re all worried about you. Last night, you were suddenly started screaming and struggling. You looked in so much pain and we didn’t know what might triggered that. We all tried to calmed you down but you won’t stopped screaming, and you didn’t seemed like you’re conscious anyway. But after sometimes, you eventually stopped screaming. You gained your consciousness for a while to said something but then collapsed afterward.” Explained the youngest boy as he handed the glass toward Ryosuke.
“Eh ?” Ryosuke look up confusedly.
“I haven’t drink that, don’t worry. Now you’re awake, I think it’d be better for you.” Ryutaro shrug his shoulders nonchalantly.
Ryosuke smile. “Arigatou, Ryutaro.”
The other boy just shrug and turn his back to hide his blush.
Ryosuke’s smile widened at this before he start sipping the hot chocolate.
“Dai-chan cried until he fell asleep after that.” Ryutaro suddenly speak up.
“Eh ?” Ryosuke look up toward Ryutaro’s back before turning his gaze at Daiki’s sleeping figure. A tint of guilt start creeping inside him.
“And Takaki-kun even cried and shouting while we tried to calmed you. Chinen ended up sobbing on Yuto-kun’s shirt while Yuto-kun himself looked very distracted.” Ryutaro continue on.
Ryosuke feel his guilt grow bigger. But then, something strike him and he couldn’t help himself from asking. “Ryutaro, what did I said when I gained my consciousness last night ?”
Ryutaro turn his face back toward him. “You don’t remember ?” He asks back in disbelief.
Ryosuke just shake his head slowly.
“Weird, since what you told us last night was, ‘I finally remembered !’ ” Answered the boy in slight amusement.
Ryosuke frown at this. “What did I re-?” He stopped mid-sentence as he finally remember what he remembered. “Ryutaro, you’re right. I finally remembered.”
“Fascinating. So what did you remember ?” Ryutaro ask with small amount of interest.
“My dreams.” He looks up to lock eyes with the younger boy. “I finally remembered what I’ve been dreaming these past few days.”
~~~~~tbc
it sucks. .
but comments are LUV !!
Author : rei *me*
Rating : g [maybe it will rise later]
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that HSJ belong to JE. .sadly. .T_T
Summary : Imagine what will happen, if your presence are no longer exist. Imagine what will hapen, if you're no longer known by any. Imagine what will happen, if the one you can count on is only, you. [I'm suck even at summaries, I know. .T_T]
Author's note : it's late. . i know. .
When We’re No Longer Here - Chapter 11 - I’m Just Trying To Be ME
Sometimes adults just misunderstood children. Sometimes they just reasoned for their faults as a lesson of experience for the children. Sometimes they just won’t listen to what the children had to say. Sometimes they just forget that they were too, once a children.
Sometimes they were right, but they’re also human beings who make a mistake once in a while. And sometimes, they just abandon that fact.
“It’d been almost a week and he’s not getting any better.” Inoo commented after sighing loudly.
“If not getting worse.” Yuto point out.
“The last few nights, he’d became even more restless in his sleep. He mentioned about having bad dreams, but exclaimed that he didn’t even remember those dreams at all beside the fact that it frightened him a lot.” Daiki said tiredly.
“You sure you have enough times for sleep yourself, Dai-chan ? You’ve been staying with him for most of the nights, you must be feel restless too.” Yabu ask the boy concernedly.
Daiki just shake his head. “Compared to him, I’m the fittest man in the world. Beside, it’s not like any of you had enough sleep lately too anyway.”
Hikaru just sigh without saying anything to argue the boy.
“How can we rest peacefully knowing that one of us is in so much pain ?” Takaki said grimly. Frankly, he seemed to be one of the most affected person by Ryosuke’s condition.
Keito just look up to the ceiling. “I wonder how long this will last.”
“Who knows.” Yuto shrug of his shoulders.
Hikaru sigh. “So, the squirrel is in charge to watch him now ?” He asks lightly, trying not to worsen the mood.
Yabu just nod. “But we all know him. So in case he couldn’t stand longer, we also put Ryutaro there.”
Hikaru smirk. “So you think by sending Yama-chan’s partner in fighting will help the squirrel ?”
“At least Ryutaro will act unbratly to pick a fight at this moment. To tell you the truth, sending you there instead of Ryutaro will cause a bigger chaos.” Yabu smirk back.
“Yeah ? Well it can’t be helped then.” Hikaru lean back to the cushion behind him to relax.
Yabu sigh for who knows how much today. Lately, JUMP hadn’t been themselves. He himself was no exception. Since they moved here, he’d been ditching his works and other things he used to won’t abandoned. Even the younger kids and Inoo had missed their schools. Well, it’s not like that they’ll focused enough to catch what their teacher said in their classes at all anyway. But still, the atmosphere wouldn’t been this grumpy if only Ryosuke hadn’t suddenly fallen ill by the first night they stayed there. Not that he blamed the boy for being so, it’s just, now he really wish that the boy will get better so maybe, the air will be lighter in this house.
“Then later, all I need to worry about is the wrath of Johnny-san.” The oldest boy whisper to himself ironically.
*******************************************************************************************************************
Chinen just sit at that chair unmoving ever since they enter the room, watching the third boy inside the room sleeping. Only when the sun is above their heads Ryosuke could sleep peacefully without any single bit of nightmare. That’s why he always tend to stayed awake at nights. Ryutaro feel pity toward Daiki since he mostly spend his nights to accompanied the sick boy. Only that 2 rare nights when Takaki and Yabu volunteered to accompanied Ryosuke in his place Daiki could sleep a full night. But then, he still awakened in the middle of the night to checked on the younger boy.
The youngest boy sigh in desperation. Truthfully, he’d been also awakened in the middle of the night lately everytime he heard a sound from this room which actually separated by a bathroom and a library with the room he and Yabu shared. Sometimes, he could hear a faint scream, but mostly, he just heard someone’s sniffing and another trying to calm the sniffing boy down. To be honest, he’d been restless with Ryosuke’s condition himself, though he didn’t showed that.
And now, standing here with the usually bouncy boy sitting still like a statue and the usually chatty boy sleeping unsoundedly, just seemed surreal for him. Ryutaro might be the youngest member in JUMP, but it doesn’t meant that he’s stupid. He know what might this lead and he’s scared. After all the unnormal things he’d done, this had to be the moment he’d do something normal. To be scared of death. Death of someone close to him. And perhaps, death of himself.
People don’t play death, that’s what’s he knows. And knowing some certain crazy scientist playing death, especially with his closest one and himself nonetheless, he couldn’t help but being scared.
“Ne, Ryu-chan ? When do you think Yama-chan will get better ?” The sudden voice coming from a statue-like boy in front of him distract him from his thoughts.
‘And why did you decided to talk now when I only started to sorting things off ?’
“Who knows ? The sooner the better.” He answered calmly, trying to be as nonchalant as possible.
The older boy turn his head toward him and showing him a genuine smile. “I know you’re worried over Yama-chan either Ryu-chan. I know you had troubles with sleeps either lately.”
‘And why did you care ?’
“You know ? How ?” He asks quietly.
“I can see through people. And you’re the most transparent boy in JUMP so I could see through you easily.” The smile never faltered from Chinen’s face.
‘Then why did you as-? Eh ?’
Ryutaro widened his eyes in surprise. “Are you serious ?”
“Why won’t I ?” The shorter boy stare at him innocently before turning his head back toward the sleeping figure in front him. “You know, Yama-chan looks the best when he’s sleeping. Like an angel. And his personality is so cool too. He could be ridiculous at times, but he’ll be really mature when needed.”
“Mm.”
“This whole situation is just so annoying, don’t you think ?” Chinen suddenly ask.
‘Now he’s changing the topic every 2 or 3 sentences.’
“I think so.” Replied the younger boy shortly.
“Rui-san’s father surely is a simple-minded person.” He commented seriously.
“Why do you think so ?” Asked Ryutaro curiously.
‘He’s a scientist, isn’t he ? Shouldn’t a scientist think the hard way ?’
“Because he recklessly pick a path without analyzing the way before.” Answered the other boy slowly.
Ryutaro frown. “Wha-?”
“He didn’t deserved this, Yama-chan I mean.” Chinen cut the other boy’s words with a sad voice.
The youngest boy just sigh. “Could you please stick to one thing and make an end to it before changing the topic ?”
‘Yeah. It started to annoyed me.’
“Gomen.” Chinen apologize in a whisper. “But it was needed.” He said mysteriously.
Ryutaro just frown more at this but say nothing in return. He somehow sensed there’s something that the older boy have in mind, and he’s planning to let him do what he thought he needs to do.
‘I guess it can’t be helped.’
***************************************************************************************************************
“Wake up, boy.”
“Mm.”
A smile.
“Where am I ?”
“Inside your dream.”
“Ha ?”
“Let’s just say that you’re actually sleeping in your sleep.”
“How can that-?”
“It’s a dream. Impossible things become possible.”
Silence.
“Who are you ?”
“Me ? I’m the one who need you to help me.”
“What help ?”
“A help to unbound me from darkness.”
“How ?”
“You find out. I won’t ask you if I know how.”
“Make sense. But really, who are you ? As in your name.”
“You knew. If you try to remember, you’ll know.”
“Ha ?”
“It’s something that you must find out yourself. I could just give you pieces of my past to solve the puzzle.”
Silence.
“Why me ?”
“Because you CAN do it.”
“Why can’t you just pick another person ?”
“Because you’re the ONLY one who can do it.”
Silence.
“I guess I’ll just help you out.”
A smile.
“Thank you. I really appreciate that.”
“Don’t mind. I guess if I’m the only one who can help you then I’ll do it.”
“Why ?”
“Because you need it. I know it.”
“Thank you, very much.”
“It’s okay.”
“I can’t do much to pay you. But for now, I can give you a help for a bit.”
“What help ?”
“You’ll see once you wake up.”
“Eh ?”
“Thank you so much, Yamada Ryosuke-kun.”
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The moment Ryosuke open his eyes, he feels so much better than he had been this past week. He feels rejunevated and freshen. He smiles as he stretch his hands and sit up slowly. But then, he’s surprised by the sight in front of him.
Daiki is sleeping on the chair beside his bed with his head rested on the bed, a blanket covered his back. Takaki, Yuto, Yabu and Chinen are sleeping pressed to each other on Daiki’s bed. On the floor, Hikaru, Keito and Inoo are sleeping with their blankets as their sleeping bags. There’s one other blanket on the floor without it’s occupant. Only one person wasn’t there, so Ryosuke thought that it belongs to that person.
Just when he’s about to reach Daiki’s shoulder to wake him up, Ryutaro showed up holding a glass of what seemed like hot chocolate.
“You’re awake.”
Ryosuke smile toward him. “Ryutaro. May I ask you why are you all sleeping inside Dai-chan and my room ?”
“Sweet-talking me won’t change the fact that we’re enemies.” Ryutaro retort coldly.
A vein popped out from Ryosuke’s head. “You little…”
“We’re all worried about you. Last night, you were suddenly started screaming and struggling. You looked in so much pain and we didn’t know what might triggered that. We all tried to calmed you down but you won’t stopped screaming, and you didn’t seemed like you’re conscious anyway. But after sometimes, you eventually stopped screaming. You gained your consciousness for a while to said something but then collapsed afterward.” Explained the youngest boy as he handed the glass toward Ryosuke.
“Eh ?” Ryosuke look up confusedly.
“I haven’t drink that, don’t worry. Now you’re awake, I think it’d be better for you.” Ryutaro shrug his shoulders nonchalantly.
Ryosuke smile. “Arigatou, Ryutaro.”
The other boy just shrug and turn his back to hide his blush.
Ryosuke’s smile widened at this before he start sipping the hot chocolate.
“Dai-chan cried until he fell asleep after that.” Ryutaro suddenly speak up.
“Eh ?” Ryosuke look up toward Ryutaro’s back before turning his gaze at Daiki’s sleeping figure. A tint of guilt start creeping inside him.
“And Takaki-kun even cried and shouting while we tried to calmed you. Chinen ended up sobbing on Yuto-kun’s shirt while Yuto-kun himself looked very distracted.” Ryutaro continue on.
Ryosuke feel his guilt grow bigger. But then, something strike him and he couldn’t help himself from asking. “Ryutaro, what did I said when I gained my consciousness last night ?”
Ryutaro turn his face back toward him. “You don’t remember ?” He asks back in disbelief.
Ryosuke just shake his head slowly.
“Weird, since what you told us last night was, ‘I finally remembered !’ ” Answered the boy in slight amusement.
Ryosuke frown at this. “What did I re-?” He stopped mid-sentence as he finally remember what he remembered. “Ryutaro, you’re right. I finally remembered.”
“Fascinating. So what did you remember ?” Ryutaro ask with small amount of interest.
“My dreams.” He looks up to lock eyes with the younger boy. “I finally remembered what I’ve been dreaming these past few days.”
~~~~~tbc
it sucks. .
but comments are LUV !!