Love, Lust, and Lollipoops
I'm a rare specimen for my age or so I'm lead to believe. I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, drive carelessly, or engage in wild sexual acts. Some of these things will be changing. On November 1st, I'll officially going to drink freely. I'm waiting until the day after my birthday so I can do the Halloween thing and enjoy it. Plus only 5 minutes of the day are my birthday. Smoking and drugs are likely always going to be a no go. I'll avoid careless driving as best I can, but things can sneak up on ya. Then there's the last one.
This is the one I'm torn about. This is the one thing I haven't done, not by choice, but by lack of opportunity. I haven't even kissed a girl. On one hand, I value love, emotion, and the wonderful meaning sex has. Then again, it is pretty good on it's own and even the lesser forms are quite good.
Some days I wax to myself that what I need is a deep emotional, spiritual, and fulfilling love of my life. Someone to share myself with and feel greater than I am alone. A source of affirmation and support.
Other days I'd settle for an appreciative grab on the ass, a sensual massage, or even a casual tumble. I know not everyone does these things, but there should be something for me. I'm a decent guy as far as I know.
I just don't seem to do what would get me these either of these outcomes
This is the one I'm torn about. This is the one thing I haven't done, not by choice, but by lack of opportunity. I haven't even kissed a girl. On one hand, I value love, emotion, and the wonderful meaning sex has. Then again, it is pretty good on it's own and even the lesser forms are quite good.
Some days I wax to myself that what I need is a deep emotional, spiritual, and fulfilling love of my life. Someone to share myself with and feel greater than I am alone. A source of affirmation and support.
Other days I'd settle for an appreciative grab on the ass, a sensual massage, or even a casual tumble. I know not everyone does these things, but there should be something for me. I'm a decent guy as far as I know.
I just don't seem to do what would get me these either of these outcomes