Thoughts
I've been mulling something over for the last few days. It's been hard to think at all, let alone about this, but... I ... I get it. How I feel about Mat.
Lately I've thought mostly about when we were in school and going out, and missing that. And I realized... yes, I do love him. More than anything. But ... I'm not IN love with him any more. I was IN love with him before, but I don't know when that changed. Was I kidding myself when he was here? I didn't really look at him the same. Nothing really felt the same. He didn't move me the way he used to.
So, yes. I love him dearly, more than anything, anyone else. But whatever we had before... It's gone. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize it.
One emotional upheaval at a time, Danie...
Lately I've thought mostly about when we were in school and going out, and missing that. And I realized... yes, I do love him. More than anything. But ... I'm not IN love with him any more. I was IN love with him before, but I don't know when that changed. Was I kidding myself when he was here? I didn't really look at him the same. Nothing really felt the same. He didn't move me the way he used to.
So, yes. I love him dearly, more than anything, anyone else. But whatever we had before... It's gone. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize it.
One emotional upheaval at a time, Danie...