a human's vow.
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not g...
i was in seventh grade when i first became self-aware. one recess, i sat on the sidelines of the gymnasium, jaundiced fluorescent lights illuminating a bright yellow floor, and stared at my dirty sneakers and the socks over my ankles (my jeans were just a little too short to be cool). amidst the sound of my classmates' laughter and the squeak of their shoes against waxed wood, all of a sudden i realized that oh god, everyone was a phony (oh holden), i was a phony, and we were all twelve and ignorant together in a constructed, artificial world, blindly acquiescing to arbitrarily decided societal constraints and for some reason being affected by stupid, relatively insignificant things. humanity had never been so lowly ranked in my short life, it had never BEEN ranked either, now that i think about it, because before that point i failed to even perceive the concept of humanity. before that point, i was a lower life form as anthropologically introspective as slime on a rock.
but of course, since i was also twelve, i went home and ate dinner and watched tv and nothing changed for a long time. but i guess it was important enough that i remembered. weird.
and now...
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not g...
i was in seventh grade when i first became self-aware. one recess, i sat on the sidelines of the gymnasium, jaundiced fluorescent lights illuminating a bright yellow floor, and stared at my dirty sneakers and the socks over my ankles (my jeans were just a little too short to be cool). amidst the sound of my classmates' laughter and the squeak of their shoes against waxed wood, all of a sudden i realized that oh god, everyone was a phony (oh holden), i was a phony, and we were all twelve and ignorant together in a constructed, artificial world, blindly acquiescing to arbitrarily decided societal constraints and for some reason being affected by stupid, relatively insignificant things. humanity had never been so lowly ranked in my short life, it had never BEEN ranked either, now that i think about it, because before that point i failed to even perceive the concept of humanity. before that point, i was a lower life form as anthropologically introspective as slime on a rock.
but of course, since i was also twelve, i went home and ate dinner and watched tv and nothing changed for a long time. but i guess it was important enough that i remembered. weird.
and now...
i will not go through life on autopilot.
i will not go through life on autopilot.