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"Real love is a pilgrimage. It happens when there is no strategy, but it is very rare because most people are strategists." -- Anita Brookner
i've been so hungry the whole damn day. didn't eat much last night after the movie, only beef noodles and some junkfood. and endured the hunger pangs till 11am the next morning. had wayy too little for lunch and dinner but am too lazy to go down to buy some snacks. funnily, i kind of like writing on LJ, it's where i don't have to structure my thoughts or really care about writing coherently. it's such a lovely, lazy feeling to have your thoughts spin themselves like cottoncandy strands around a papercup haha. if not making sense, it's the hunger.
but frankly, been feeling a bit down the whole day, no idea why. maybe i'm just tired of being scared and tired of communicating and tired of wandering around aimlessly and tired of taking initiatives and tired of studying. this is so neurotic because i know, I KNOW, there should be no reason to feel this way. sorry, but Angst has gone upstairs and kicked Rationality out of the bedroom. i wish that if i wanted to talk, you could put your hand on my cheek and hear what i feel. or maybe it's because i've had seven cups of lipton tea (with four sugars in each cup) and three cups of macD's milo between yesterday and today.
don't know if i'll maintain two seperate blogs. for now maybe i'll just treat LJ as the airport couch which i rest on before taking the plane home to where i really belong.
i've been so hungry the whole damn day. didn't eat much last night after the movie, only beef noodles and some junkfood. and endured the hunger pangs till 11am the next morning. had wayy too little for lunch and dinner but am too lazy to go down to buy some snacks. funnily, i kind of like writing on LJ, it's where i don't have to structure my thoughts or really care about writing coherently. it's such a lovely, lazy feeling to have your thoughts spin themselves like cottoncandy strands around a papercup haha. if not making sense, it's the hunger.
but frankly, been feeling a bit down the whole day, no idea why. maybe i'm just tired of being scared and tired of communicating and tired of wandering around aimlessly and tired of taking initiatives and tired of studying. this is so neurotic because i know, I KNOW, there should be no reason to feel this way. sorry, but Angst has gone upstairs and kicked Rationality out of the bedroom. i wish that if i wanted to talk, you could put your hand on my cheek and hear what i feel. or maybe it's because i've had seven cups of lipton tea (with four sugars in each cup) and three cups of macD's milo between yesterday and today.
don't know if i'll maintain two seperate blogs. for now maybe i'll just treat LJ as the airport couch which i rest on before taking the plane home to where i really belong.