Busy...
So, the past two weeks have been a bit hectic. The last trip to the hospital was ok, I'm a little wary about the one nurse, but it'll be ok. The bad news, the study has been postponed because I need 12 months of endocrinology care before being allowed into the study, they had to wait two visits to tell me this. The good news is that they're going to pay for the care, I just have to take trips up to Chicago for it, about once a month for the next 12 months I'm assuming.
The other bad news, on the way back from the last trip, Jessie's car died. I know, it's a car, but not to him. This was his first real car, one that was all his, he put about 30k miles on that in the first year I believe. It also holds sentiments for me as well, but I'd rather not mention it here. Now it's gone, sitting in a lot in Aurora, the coolant leaked into the oil and overheated the car. There's also still 4k on the loan, granted, they cut the payments almost in half which is good, but now we're dependent on his mother's car.
You're all aware that despite growing up a bit in the last couple years, I still have my irrational moments, you'd think that with a man as great as Jessie, they'd stop. They don't, they are however short-lived...and completely uncalled for.
The reasoning for them though, is a mixture of hormones and past for lack of a better word indiscretions done against me and ones that I was at fault for being naive.
In the last week though, he was having a conversation via im with a friend of mine, Ari and he had me read it when I came home, that in itself exhibited to me a degree of trust, because in it, he discussed Reed, something he doesn't do very often, he's mentioned her, maybe two or three times directly since we started dating and quite a few more indirectly. Not only that, I read something he said about me, he's not very verbally expressive as it is, he will tell me he loves me, and physically show me (not like that, but his loves shows through his actions), but this (direct quote) was perfect..."heather is fantastic, granted in a very different way. but she keeps me down to earth and is good at doing the things I am not. she is a great yin to my yang"
I didn't know I did half those things, :). It makes me smile.
The other bad news, on the way back from the last trip, Jessie's car died. I know, it's a car, but not to him. This was his first real car, one that was all his, he put about 30k miles on that in the first year I believe. It also holds sentiments for me as well, but I'd rather not mention it here. Now it's gone, sitting in a lot in Aurora, the coolant leaked into the oil and overheated the car. There's also still 4k on the loan, granted, they cut the payments almost in half which is good, but now we're dependent on his mother's car.
You're all aware that despite growing up a bit in the last couple years, I still have my irrational moments, you'd think that with a man as great as Jessie, they'd stop. They don't, they are however short-lived...and completely uncalled for.
The reasoning for them though, is a mixture of hormones and past for lack of a better word indiscretions done against me and ones that I was at fault for being naive.
In the last week though, he was having a conversation via im with a friend of mine, Ari and he had me read it when I came home, that in itself exhibited to me a degree of trust, because in it, he discussed Reed, something he doesn't do very often, he's mentioned her, maybe two or three times directly since we started dating and quite a few more indirectly. Not only that, I read something he said about me, he's not very verbally expressive as it is, he will tell me he loves me, and physically show me (not like that, but his loves shows through his actions), but this (direct quote) was perfect..."heather is fantastic, granted in a very different way. but she keeps me down to earth and is good at doing the things I am not. she is a great yin to my yang"
I didn't know I did half those things, :). It makes me smile.