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I am not going to be able to hang out tonight guys. Sorry.
I have had an incredibly bad weekend. It's like any minute I could break out in tears. Don't ask why...
And last night was just the worst. It was our date night and Dus, who knew how down I was, promised all this great stuff and I was so excited! ......and then he fell asleep at 9....... F*%$ing 9 o'clock at night!!! When he got off work at 7.
Needless to say I was a wee bit disappointed...
So he asked to make it up to me tonight and I really need that kind of support right now. Besides, I probably wouldn't be much fun tonight anyway.
I'm sure you all noticed how aloof I was at the movies, and it didn't help that I had to sit at the end next to Shane so I felt completely cut off from the group. (That was why I didn't want to sit there, I felt alone. It's not that I hate Shane, though I do think he's a bit of a jerk since hitting puberty.)
And then I really didn't want to go home and be really alone all day but we all walked off and I didn't know what to do. Maybe I should have called someone but I was in that sort of mood where you just want someone to reach out to you and not have to beg for attention. You want someone to want you. Pathetic, I know. I hate it when I get that way cause it's stupid. You can't expect everyone to know exactly how you're feeling and know exactly what to do to help, if they even want to. It's your own problem, not theirs. So I'm sorry.
Eek! This post is going on way to long, I didn't mean to rant.
On a lighter side, I dreamed of Slayers last night :)
I was fighting Lina, but I wasn't evil. More neutral, and an opportunist (like Catwomen to Batman sort of thing) and she was in my way. But then the real bad guy showed up and we had to fight together, which was fun. That is my favorite type of scenario btw. Good guys are boring usually (not irl though) and I "heroes" like Catwomen are more interesting and dimensional, not to mention more realistic. And yes she was a hero, though not conventional, she was certainly my hero growing up.
That is the kind of character I'd like to be Cat if you still wanted to add me. Sarcastic and cynical and just a wee bit dark. And a necromancer I decided. With red hair hehe.
I have had an incredibly bad weekend. It's like any minute I could break out in tears. Don't ask why...
And last night was just the worst. It was our date night and Dus, who knew how down I was, promised all this great stuff and I was so excited! ......and then he fell asleep at 9....... F*%$ing 9 o'clock at night!!! When he got off work at 7.
Needless to say I was a wee bit disappointed...
So he asked to make it up to me tonight and I really need that kind of support right now. Besides, I probably wouldn't be much fun tonight anyway.
I'm sure you all noticed how aloof I was at the movies, and it didn't help that I had to sit at the end next to Shane so I felt completely cut off from the group. (That was why I didn't want to sit there, I felt alone. It's not that I hate Shane, though I do think he's a bit of a jerk since hitting puberty.)
And then I really didn't want to go home and be really alone all day but we all walked off and I didn't know what to do. Maybe I should have called someone but I was in that sort of mood where you just want someone to reach out to you and not have to beg for attention. You want someone to want you. Pathetic, I know. I hate it when I get that way cause it's stupid. You can't expect everyone to know exactly how you're feeling and know exactly what to do to help, if they even want to. It's your own problem, not theirs. So I'm sorry.
Eek! This post is going on way to long, I didn't mean to rant.
On a lighter side, I dreamed of Slayers last night :)
I was fighting Lina, but I wasn't evil. More neutral, and an opportunist (like Catwomen to Batman sort of thing) and she was in my way. But then the real bad guy showed up and we had to fight together, which was fun. That is my favorite type of scenario btw. Good guys are boring usually (not irl though) and I "heroes" like Catwomen are more interesting and dimensional, not to mention more realistic. And yes she was a hero, though not conventional, she was certainly my hero growing up.
That is the kind of character I'd like to be Cat if you still wanted to add me. Sarcastic and cynical and just a wee bit dark. And a necromancer I decided. With red hair hehe.