Trader Joe's and a cup of Joe with Jo
Amber will throw things at me when she sees that title.
today, i hung out with Jo. we had good Jewfood at Corky and Lenny's, followed by a trip to Trader Joe's where she got some good food for newly single people, and then we hit Barnes and Noble and drank coffee and looked at bizarre queer-themed magazines. Jo is doing all right. i know that her separation from her wife is hard for her, but i think she is feeling a little freer to be herself, so to speak. she was talking about how she wants to get her hair cut and all dyked out. (it will be hot.) a cute older lesbian also grinned at her while we were in Trader Joe's (though, the way things go, she probably thought that Jo and i were together. heh.)
sometimes i feel weird when i hang out with Jo. i adore her, and we always have a good time together, AND we have phenomenal conversations (and of course it's always refreshing to talk about the trans to other people who have the trans), but. . .i don't know. she's very physical--huggy and warm and that's marvelous. but sometimes--get ready to hear me being a big baby--she's too rough with me. like today, she just threw her arm around me and sort of gave me an arm noogie after i said something that was funny (yes, people, i do do that once in a great while), and it kind of hurt. it wasn't so much the pain that bothered me, though, because that was really minimal. (i'm okay with having a needle shoved in my thigh muscle every other Friday. come on.) i guess i just don't like to be rough-and-tumbled. i also have problems with people squeezing my arms or legs. old restraint issues, i guess. anyway, the sensible thing to do would be to tell her that i'm a huge wuss and can't take the roughness. but of course i'm too passive for that. i would just feel all guilty and bad because i love Jo and she's my buddy but i don't feel close enough to her to confront her about something like that. blah.
i'm waiting for Rory to call. he's apparently in town and he wants to meet up. maybe i'll even get to see the most superb niece in the world (brighit). . .who knows?
every time i face the video section in the library, there are different ones at the tops of the stacks. right now, the ones that are most catching my eye--mostly in an amused ha-ha sort of way--are Rosemary's Baby, Ultimate Crop Circles: A Documentary, and Untamed Heart. sigh.
today, i hung out with Jo. we had good Jewfood at Corky and Lenny's, followed by a trip to Trader Joe's where she got some good food for newly single people, and then we hit Barnes and Noble and drank coffee and looked at bizarre queer-themed magazines. Jo is doing all right. i know that her separation from her wife is hard for her, but i think she is feeling a little freer to be herself, so to speak. she was talking about how she wants to get her hair cut and all dyked out. (it will be hot.) a cute older lesbian also grinned at her while we were in Trader Joe's (though, the way things go, she probably thought that Jo and i were together. heh.)
sometimes i feel weird when i hang out with Jo. i adore her, and we always have a good time together, AND we have phenomenal conversations (and of course it's always refreshing to talk about the trans to other people who have the trans), but. . .i don't know. she's very physical--huggy and warm and that's marvelous. but sometimes--get ready to hear me being a big baby--she's too rough with me. like today, she just threw her arm around me and sort of gave me an arm noogie after i said something that was funny (yes, people, i do do that once in a great while), and it kind of hurt. it wasn't so much the pain that bothered me, though, because that was really minimal. (i'm okay with having a needle shoved in my thigh muscle every other Friday. come on.) i guess i just don't like to be rough-and-tumbled. i also have problems with people squeezing my arms or legs. old restraint issues, i guess. anyway, the sensible thing to do would be to tell her that i'm a huge wuss and can't take the roughness. but of course i'm too passive for that. i would just feel all guilty and bad because i love Jo and she's my buddy but i don't feel close enough to her to confront her about something like that. blah.
i'm waiting for Rory to call. he's apparently in town and he wants to meet up. maybe i'll even get to see the most superb niece in the world (brighit). . .who knows?
every time i face the video section in the library, there are different ones at the tops of the stacks. right now, the ones that are most catching my eye--mostly in an amused ha-ha sort of way--are Rosemary's Baby, Ultimate Crop Circles: A Documentary, and Untamed Heart. sigh.